A Crown of Thorns

Chapter Three - Killing me

My knees buckled from under me as the weight of my growing stomach grew too much to bear, my stomach grew ravenous as my body consumed the final sources of fat I had. My bones stuck out as I roughly collided with the dirtied ground, my mouth began to salivate as the crazed hunger consumed my mind of any remaining sanity. I touched the wall, feeling the dampened tracks within the plaster where the moss thrived and pried my fingers inward until my nails clawed at the soft vegetation. I hurriedly withdrew my hand and stuck my fingers in my mouth, sucking on my fingertips and licking away the remnants. I flinched at the bitter taste; my tongue stuck to the root of my mouth as I attempted to swish the taste from my mouth with my lingering saliva.

I delve forward, wriggling a large piece of moss from the cracks within the wall and forcing myself to eat it, grains of dirt clung to my teeth as I swallowed hard, hoping the bits of the earth would heed the protruding swelling within my stomach. A sudden movement within the quickly expanding space startled me, it was something I’d felt previously and yet I scrapped the sensation up to the overwhelming hunger growing and yet I could not deny the immediate push within my abdomen. I touched my extended belly button cautiously, the skin around it was hard and stretched with deep veins of engraved skin spreading to my hips and enveloping my frame.

Something is moving, I thought, my fear eased as curiosity consumed me.

My long hair lay in a tangled mess over my shoulders as I pressed into the strands that spiralled at my knees, large masses fell from my head as I stared at the silk-like strings that caught within my fingers. I turned my feet in from under me, so my knees supported my heavy stomach, and the chains that bound to my ankles rattled uncomfortably, I frowned at the sound as I glanced down at my lap and examined the scratched surface of the shackles. Years of endless struggles were displayed upon the cold steel as I attempted for years to pry myself from the impenetrable object and yet I had yet to break free.

The wind raged outside my confines, with a whirlwind of violence pounding against the wooden frame, I tilted my head in curiosity before crawling towards the entrance to my cell. A partial gap greeted me with a trickle of moonlight shadowing my pale face, the moon caught my eye as the mighty celestial object burned through my body, filling my cells with an unfamiliar feeling, it grew overwhelming as I struggled to breathe. The space behind my irises ached as my body grew heated. I crumbled to the floor as I released straggled breaths, a dim light illuminated my body as my stomach quivered, the bones separating with a warm liquid secreting from my nether regions and coating my aching thighs.

“I’m going to die!” I whimpered as I straightened out my legs, separating them.

I glanced towards the image of the moon, its rounded shape wasn’t enough to soothe my aching nerves as I gritted my teeth from the pain that coursed through my spine, weakening my body as I collapsed into a crumbling mess. Today was the Third time the celestial orb appeared full, indicating many months since my captor visited me. The swelling within my stomach began to protrude shortly after he abandoned me as if the creature he kept was sickening to the touch. I was abandoned, succumbing to starvation as he no longer fed me. I stared at the door as I resented the man who left me to die, for my stomach to swell to the point that I was convinced that I would expel my intestines from my body.

Sweat beaded along my forehead as a fever swept through me, my vision blurred and my muscles spasmed as my pelvis prepared to expel my insides.

“Agh!” I cried out pathetically as tears stained my cheeks.

My flesh was being torn apart as I instinctively pushed down on my abdomen, my muscles clenching and contracting with each agonizing push. A massive object pressed through my vaginal canal, I clenched my silver eyes closed, not wanting to see the horror that was escaping my body. I was surely dying with my insides being disembowelled, I slid my hand down my large stomach and found my way to my privates, my vaginal lips were spread apart with a slick object protruding from the entrance.

My breath caught in my throat as I grazed the hairy and slick surface, the thing reacted to my touch as it progressed further forward. I pushed my fingertips into the surface, only for it to indent slightly, the sensation made my nerves ignite as pain swept through me. My vaginal canal tore as I attempted to push it back inside, the space was widening and yet it was unaccommodating for the monstrosity to be returned. My spine arched as I bore down on my hips, the motion turned my vision white with foreign objects surfacing within my vision, I was growing mad from the pain.

I’m going to die, the thought repeated in my head as nausea swept through me.

My muscles spasmed as I finally succumbed to my fate, death would surely be better than the situation I was forced to endure. I closed my eyes as I allowed my insides to turn out, with the thing within me finally sliding out now that I had finally given up and allowed my body to kill me. My head fell to the side as blood gushed from my nether regions followed by a sudden and shrill cry, the noise pierced through the air, chilling me as I quickly sat up to see an odd-looking creature between my legs.

I pushed my matted hair away from my face and tucked the wild strands behind my ear as I took a closer look at the fleshy being. Its hair was fine, with brilliant silver strands much like my own and its large round eyes opened and peered at me as its face grew red from the incessant crying. Its tiny hands were balled up into fragile fists as its legs huddled to its chest as the cold swept over it. I tilted my head as I leaned closer and poked its cheeks and sighed from the comforting warmth that radiated from the naked creature before me.

Its eyes look like mine, I thought curiously as it blinked its radiantly silver eyes.

The pain I’d once experienced steadily faded as I examined the fleshy creature, it was ugly and yet there was an undeniable charm about it that compelled me to scoop the fragile thing within my arms and cradle it gently. Its head fell unnaturally to the side as I pressed my hands under its armpits and attempted to carry it, only for the motion to enrage the creature as its screams grew louder. I flinched at the sound as I readjusted my hold until it calmed down, its small head was cradled within the crook of my arm as I pressed it against my chest.

“You’re ugly,” I muttered as it squirmed against my naked chest as if seeking something.

“Eep!” I cried out as its mouth latched onto my n****e and began to suckle on it.

Stop!” I wanted to cry out only my words wouldn’t surface as my body remained frozen as I examined the creatures’ movements cautiously.

Its mouth was warm as its tongue massaged the n****e, the motion was alarming and yet it brought on a sense of relief, I allowed it to continue as the motion silenced the thing within my arms and seemed to satisfy it with the deafening screams no longer hurting my eardrums.

This is what it wanted? I thought as I pushed a stray curl away from its face.

Its cheeks suctioned slightly as a warm liquid flowed from my breast, the motion was subtle, but I steadily understood that I was feeding the thing in my arms just like how the moss within my prison fed me at times. I nodded understandingly as I pressed it further into my body, it was a creature who was fighting to survive just like me, I understood that feeling all too well, it was a sickening and lonely feeling, and yet I now had this creature to console me when I had never had anything before in my life.

She’s beautiful, I thought as we shared similar qualities.

I looked up as a familiar scent filled the air, the atmosphere was ominous as I flinched from the realization that the man who held me captive was approaching. I glanced down at the infant within my arms, and a sense of impending dread awoke within me, she was the first thing I’d ever had, she came from me and yet the approaching man would surely steal her from me. He took everything precious and killed it, smothering it with his might and ensuring it would never see the light of day again. I held my breath as I glanced around aimlessly, seeking a solution.

The bed caught my attention as I shimmied my way to the steel edge and tore the rough wool blanket from the surface and wrapped it securely around the infant in my arms. I pulled it from my bosom with traces of milk clinging to its lips, she seemed content enough to remain silent as I wrapped her small frame within the itchy material only her sensitive skin grew irritated by the fabric. Her silver eyes began to wander as her small lips quivered with a frown beginning to form, a whirlwind of a tantrum was about to arise, and the sensation unnerved me.

“Shh!” I pleaded as I pressed my hand over its eyes and pressed them closed.

I glanced back at the entrance in a panic before closing my eyes and allowing a familiar heat to course through my hand and focused my attention on my palm, I hummed a sweet lullaby as the soothing effects took place and lulled the infant into a deep slumber. Her breaths were shallow but still evident within the bone-quiet room, I breathed a sigh of relief as I tucked the blanket over her face and pushed the bundle deep under the bed where the darkness hid her away.

I won't let him have her, I thought as I turned my attention to the opening door.