Her Wicked Proposal

Chapter 1-2

“I don’t think they will bleed further. You must take care not to do anything rough to them for a few days so you won’t excite the cuts again.”

Her scolding tone caught him off guard and shattered the warm bubble of desire around him. “Thank you, ma’am,” he replied stiffly, more from shock than anything. “Pardon my bluntness, but why have you come?” The burning question why still plagued him.

Anne was silent for a long while before speaking. When she did, her hands pulled away from his, severing their contact.

“I am sure you’ve heard about my father.”

“I have,” Cedric said softly. “He was a good man, and I do not say that about most men of my acquaintance. You have my deepest sympathies and condolences.”

Pain lanced through him, sharp and sudden behind his ribs. His own parents’ coffins being lowered into twin graves. His two little sisters clutching his arms on either side, their cherubic faces stained with tears. Those were memories he did not want, memories he fought every day to keep buried.

“Thank you.” Her voice was steady, but he knew how strong Anne was and it made him proud of her. At the same time, he wanted to draw her close and whisper soft, sweet things in her ear, to comfort her.

That shocked him. Since when was he the sort of man to comfort? He was a rakehell, a seducer and rogue of the worst sort. Not one who cuddled a woman to his body.

“It is actually his death which has brought me to you.”

“Oh? I can’t imagine how…”

“If you forgive me for my bluntness, my lord, the truth of the matter is that I need to marry. My father’s death has left me wealthy and unfortunately more of a target for the fortune hunters of the ton than I would have liked.”

He didn’t miss the tinge of desperation in her voice. As long as he’d known her, she’d always shied from the public eye, and the burden of being an heiress must have been a great one.

“And what has this to do with me?” Cedric asked. Surely she didn’t think…it was too much to hope that she would ask him to court her again.

“I need a husband, and most of the eligible men seeking a bride are not what I would ever consider to be suitable matches. I came here…hoping that perhaps…” Her hands grasped his, and the action startled him, but he kept calm and gently held on to her.

What did she hope? His chest tightened. “Speak your mind, Miss Chessley,” Cedric demanded, perhaps a little too strongly. Her grip on his hands loosened, and his hands dropped into his lap.

“Perhaps this was a mistake. I shouldn’t have bothered you,” Anne muttered apologetically. He heard her rise to leave.

Cedric stood with her and reached blindly in her direction, hoping to catch her wrist to halt her. Instead his hand curled around the flare of a womanly full hip. Rather than release her, he dug his fingers in, just hard enough to halt her escape. A startled gasp came from the sudden contact.

“Tell me what you came to say, please,” he half-pleaded, not wanting her to go.

He’d spent so much time alone of late, which he’d thought he preferred given his condition. But Anne’s company was welcome. It reminded him of better times, yet it left no sting of his lost sight. Rather it lit a fire in his blood, reminding him of the way he used to tease her and how she’d resisted him with her delightful verbal sparring. He restrained himself from a grin when she did not try to escape his hold.

“I came to ask you if you would consider marriage…to me.” The last two words were a breathless whisper so faint, he wondered if he’d imagined them.

“You want to marry me?”

He could have Anne at last! Yet he’d sworn to himself that marriage wasn’t possible, that any woman who tied herself to him would never be happy with a damaged shell of a man. How could Anne think he would be a good choice? If she thought she could be his wife in name only, she was mistaken.

If he and Anne married, he would get her beneath him in a bed and find the heaven he knew awaited him there. If marriage was the only avenue in which he could find paradise, then he would have the banns read immediately. Still, if he knew Anne, which he did, there had to be a catch.

“Yes. Well…‘want’ is perhaps a strong word. But I would marry you if you asked me.”

“Why me?” If she had her pick of fortune hunters and other young bucks, why would she settle for a blind, pathetic fool? It made little sense.

“Of all the men I’ve met, you have remained interested in me and have no desire to pursue me for my fortune since it is well known yours is far greater than mine. I am under no illusion of the true reason for your interest. My father’s stallions would become yours, of course, should we marry. You would be free to breed your own mares with them. I thought perhaps that might entice you. I would be willing to work with you on the breeding, since it is a shared interest. I also believe we could grow to like each other well enough to get along. You have my father’s approval as well as Emily’s, and that assures me of your character.”

Cedric laughed to himself. Even with his rakish reputation among the ton and rumors in the papers, her father had approved of him? They’d met often at Tattersalls to discuss fine horseflesh. He and the late baron had agreed on nearly everything, except politics, but those debates had been lively and well-argued on both sides over glasses of port at clubs like White’s.

A deep pang struck him then at the sudden sense of loss of the baron. He’d let his blindness become a reason to wallow in his own darkness and hadn’t even given much thought to how Anne must feel. Her father, a man she was very close to since she’d lost her mother so young.

And she came to me for protection from fortune hunters…

The thought made him feel warm in a place deep inside that had been left cold these many long months since he’d lost his sight.

“You would honestly marry me? I must warn you, Miss Chessley, I am no longer the charmer I once was. My life has become…complicated.” The admission hurt him like a blow, but it was unavoidable. She had the right to know what she would face if she married him.

“I know, my lord. I had a favorite spaniel that went blind when I was a child. I know the hardships you face.” Her voice was still a touch breathless.

“I don’t think comparing me to a dog is quite helping your case, Miss Chessley.” He laughed wryly before becoming more serious. “I don’t respond well to pity, and if we married I would be your husband in full. I am sure you know what that means. Therefore, you should see yourself out.”

A short gasp escaped her, but he couldn’t tell if it was shock or outrage. Bloody hell, he couldn’t read her, not the way he used to. A faint tremor moved through her, and he felt it through his hand that still rested possessively on her hip.

“I would offer to escort you to the door, but it takes me a while to find my way out of the gardens once I get here.” Despite his telling her to leave, he didn’t remove his hold on her.

Fight me, Anne. Don’t go.

He hated telling her to leave, but he knew how it would be between them. She would remain icy, he would remain blind, and neither of them would ever figure out what to do with one another outside the bedroom. Such a concern might not have bothered him before, a part of him had always expected a marriage in name only, but since the happy marriages of his two close friends, he’d discovered he longed for more than sensual satisfaction with his wife, should he ever take one.

At first he’d brushed it off as sentimentality, but being surrounded by couples in love had altered his perceptions, and as he reviewed his childhood with more frequency since the accident, he remembered the easy relationship of his parents. He realized that a large part of him had always yearned for something similar. He wanted what his friends and parents had: love and friendship. He used to laugh about such things, as though they were the naïve aspirations of poets, but now he needed them.

“I am aware that you would be entitled to your rights as a husband. I would not deny you.” It was stiffly and bravely delivered, and she still did not back away from him or demand he stop touching her.

Cedric’s lips twitched. He had enough memory of her to know what expression accompanied that tone of voice. Her chin would be raised, her high cheekbones rosy with embarrassment and her lovely eyes flashing with unspoken indignation. His hand dropped from her hip, but he did not hear her leave. She remained close, the sound of her breath teasing his ears.

“You may agree to lie limp beneath me, but I do not want that in a wife. I desire a willing bedmate, something you made clear to me last spring that you would never be.”

“People change,” she answered.

“Perhaps, but a woman’s nature often does not. You were always fashioned of ice, Miss Chessley, and I have no intention of worsening my already crumbling life by freezing to death in your bed. Simply evading fortune hunters is not enough for you to seek me out. Do you think me stupid as well as blind?”

He felt the air shift before the slap hit him full across his face. The attack sparked a fire of arousal in him rather than anger. Maybe he could melt her after all.

“How dare you speak like that!” Anne hissed.

“I apologize if the truth hurts, but I am weary of the pretense of civilities. Now, please leave or else I may spout further truths that may be upsetting to you.”

“You ruthless cad!” Anne moved to strike him again, but he had the advantage of anticipating her reaction.

By luck alone, he caught her wrist and jerked her body against him. His other hand settled upon her shoulder and moved along to cup the nape of her neck. He held her still in his strong grip and moved gently toward her face. He was able to find her cheek and kiss a soft path to her lips. Once he found it, he abandoned all pretense of tenderness and ravaged her mouth.

She trembled in his embrace, her own tongue retreating from his at first. But he continued his campaign, rubbing his fingers on her neck in a soothing fashion until she relaxed against him. The swell of triumph he felt when her tongue slipped between his lips was glorious. And then Cedric withdrew, stepping back from her, his breath coming fast.

“If you can swear to respond like that to me in bed, then I will ask you to marry me.” It was a challenge he didn’t expect her to rise to, but he prayed she would. His desire for her, one he’d harbored for years, protecting the low banked fire, now sparked into a slowly building inferno. If only she could agree to open herself to him…

“I…can.” Her husky, breathless response tugged at his baser side, his lower parts hardening with need. She continued to speak, unaware of the effect she was having on him. “What I mean to say is you kiss much better than I expected.”

“You swear then? To respond in such a way each time I come to you?” Cedric pressed.

“I swear,” Anne promised, but Cedric heard the hesitancy in her voice.

He gentled his hold on her and tried to soften his voice. “I will not ever force you, if that is your concern. But I will warn you my appetite for pleasure is voracious.” He flashed her a smile he’d broken many hearts with and only wished he could see her reaction to it.

“I would rather handle your appetites, my lord, than suffer one more night at a ball having to dance with those fools who see me as no more than a pile of gold in a ball gown,” Anne declared.

Cedric nearly laughed. There was the spitfire he remembered, the one who rose to every challenge he issued. Maybe it was only a feeble imagining that she’d come to him out of pity or the belief that he wouldn’t press her for a full marital relationship now that he was blind. He was a betting man by nature, and he’d wager, given her response, that she loved to spar with him just as much as he liked to with her. Perhaps there was a chance for them after all.

“I suppose that settles it. I shall endeavor to do this properly then.” Cedric reached out to find the edge of the fountain’s base and used it as a steady force to get down on one knee. He reached out a hand in her direction.

“Please give me your hand, Miss Chessley.” He gripped her offered hand in his own, feeling the faint edges of mild calluses, a hand belonging to a woman whose world involved horses. She wasn’t wearing gloves. Strange, he hadn’t noticed it until now.

“Miss Chessley, would you do me the grand honor of being my wife?” He smiled, the absurdity of the moment too amusing to remain bottled up. It was a tragedy he couldn’t see her eyes. Would their gray depths sparkle with passion or be murky with uncertainty?

“Yes, my lord,” Anne replied, breathless again.

Cedric wondered whether his smile had affected Anne. He rose with her help and searched for his cane. She put it in his hands, and he felt her grip tighten as he smiled again.

Had his smile affected her? Or was she genuinely happy he’d proposed? God, he wished he could see. Too long he’d relied on the language of the eyes. Now he was lost, a clumsy man with only his ears and hands to guide him.

“Excellent. When would you prefer to announce this? I believe it is tradition to wait six months, until you are allowed to go into half-mourning.”

A panicked hand latched on to his sleeve. “No! I wish to marry within the week. The season is in full swing, and a quick marriage will end the numerous assaults on Chessley Manor by the bachelors of London.”

The pitch of her voice changed as she spoke of fortune hunters, and he wondered if that was the truth. Still, he would not question her if she was coming to him. The idea of being married held an appeal he hadn’t thought possible before. He wouldn’t be alone. Not anymore. Her voice would break through the darkness and keep him from falling into despair.

Still, there would be consequences. “You know the ton will have our heads over the scandal. They’ll assume you’re with child, or imagine worse motives for such haste.”

“I didn’t think you were the sort to fear scandal, my lord.” Her challenging tone had him biting back another laugh. How well the lady knew him! They really would suit after all, he had faith now.

“Of course not. I thrive on it. I was unaware that you shared my…lust for attention.” He wished he could have seen her face. Did she blush at his suggestive words?

“I may not lust for it, as you put it, but I don’t fear it.” Her tone suggested truth. He’d have heard her uneven breaths or a tremor in her voice had she been lying.

“You would prefer then that I procure a special license?”

“Yes, if it is not too much trouble,” Anne said.

“Very well. I will write to you tomorrow.”

“Thank you, my lord.” Anne’s hands tightened in his as she leaned forward and brushed her lips on his cheek in a ghost of a kiss. Passion fought with tenderness inside him at the unexpected contact. She remained close by. “Would you like me to guide you back to the house?”

It was he who hesitated this time. Dare he agree and admit his fear of stumbling? Or would refusing upset her? Damnation, he wished he understood women better. He’d lived with his sisters for years and was intelligent enough to admit he knew next to nothing about the feminine species or their complex and often unfathomable views of humankind. Perhaps it was wiser to accept her offer than to upset her. “Yes. That would be good of you.”

Cedric was surprised when she tucked her arm in his and they proceeded along the cobblestoned path in silence. But it was not a rigid silence like he expected. Something between them had changed. He only wished he knew what it meant. But he would soon find out. They were to wed, after all. How odd that he was torn between dread and fascination.