THE HYBRID'S Rogue Mate

~ Clay ~ Pain shot through my back all the way to my toes. And I wished just like any other day that death could once for all claim me. And just like every other day in the past it didn’t. And so I opt to just zone everything out just as I always did when the beatings got severe. Why do they still keep me alive. When will this ever come to an end. Its been going on for ages. And will most likely end with my last breath. Which I hope would be soon. I have nothing else in my life that id wish to look to. I try seeking comfort from my other half. He is still there but has also giving up. They were going to kill my wolf and if that happened I was going to follow him didn’t matter what they did to stop it. At this point the only reason I’m still breathing would be Doug. My other half, my source of peace my wolf. I can feel him but barely, the wolfs bane they kept feeding me plus the silver whips slashing against my skin every morning have really weakened him. Tears had long dried up only came once in a while. And they mostly were shed on behalf of Doug. He wondered how his own pack could do this to him. The people he was meant to protect turned on him, making him a subject of mockery. The same people he could have laid his life for. Those were bitter memories and they were more painful than the morning beatings he received every day ever since we got locked up in this dungeon. But more than the pain a feeling of resentfulness filled us both. After years almost four of trying to understand their betrayal the resent filled in. None of them deserved any understanding no matter which angle you viewed all this from. The me from three years ago had vowed to make them all pay. Had vowed to rain fire on them didn’t matter that they were family, my pack even. No. All that mattered was their betrayal and they all would pay severely for their misconducts. The me right now just wished for one thing only my end. But not even that did the goddess grant me. She sure was set to see me in misery. She had denied us our mate. At twenty two I was still mate less, that was before the betrayal of my pack members happened and I ended up in the dungeon being treated worse than a slave. Now at almost twenty six the thought of a mate was the last thing in my mind. I had given up, took Doug two years in the dungeon to give up as well. The goddess had decided my life was no fun at all with me relatively happy in peace, and so she decided to reduce me from a born alpha male to whatever I was now. Betrayed and shackled by my own pack and family. But I didn’t care anymore. Doug harbored enough hate for her for the both of us even though technically we were one person. A shadow blocked my view from the wall I was staring at tuning out their insults and the sounds of the whip eating at my own fresh. I didn’t mind looking at the owner I knew what would follow up. As soon as that thought closed my mind a kick to my stomach sent me swinging to the other side. With my hands tied above my head I just kept swinging without balance and my knees scraping the floor as I got passed around. I was passed the point of self loathing ,looking at how pathetic id turned up. Such thoughts only came once in a while unlike before when it was all I could think off. The next hit had me coughing up blood and I willed myself to let it choke me maybe then id be rid of this nightmare. I did just that holding my breathe and clumping my mouth shut. Not long after I could feel my trachea block up and could feel my lungs burning from both the kicks and lack of air. Black hazy started claiming me and I welcomed it gladly. ∆∆∆ I came to to the whimpers of my wolf. I didn't have time to digest the fact that it was a failed attempt once again or get angry all I could think about was Doug. His whimpers were barely there but I could here them though at intervals. And his voice... {No Doug, you cant leave me.} I whispered to him brokenly as I crouched next to him in my mind where he was lying motionless. I could feel it he was going. They had finally succeeded in killing me. his eyes opened halfway and a whispered whine left him as tears flew from his eyes. They had fed us Wolfs bane once I passed out and ... I broke down holding onto Doug. {I cant go on without you.} I whispered once again as I lay there holding on to him looking at his face but that just broke me further. He was struggling keeping his eyes open and soon gave up and they closed and a pain like never before tore through my body and a cry so painful came from my throat. He was gone. My other half , my best friend, my only family. They took him away just like they did my mother. I couldn’t go on living without Doug. I didn’t want to. Didn’t have a reason to. I looked up from my kneeling position to the chains the guards had left on me. Which they rarely did but I’m glad the did today. I tried with all my might to stand failing so many attempts but finally managed to while hanging on to the chains. I managed to have the chain go round my neck which had my hands in a weird position if not broken. It was hard and I wished my ancestors wouldn’t fail me and have the guards walk in. With me on my tippy toes and my neck tied up with the chains I knew it would be tight enough to function the way I wished if I go on my knees which I did gladly. Without Doug I couldn’t go on. This was it. My end. The end of Clay Davis. ,,,, ,,,, ,,,,