In The Name Of The Father

Chapter 2

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Jack Culverhouse sat in the armchair in his living room, as he had all night, looking at the clock. It was almost nine-thirty in the morning and he ought to be at work, but work could wait.

He’d just handed a big case over to the Crown Prosecution Service. It was the attempted murder of an investigative journalist who’d been about to expose a local political scandal and cover-up. He figured he was due a break. Besides which, he’d just seen his thirteen-year-old daughter for the first time in almost nine years, having tried to track her down all over the world before finding out she’d been living in the same county the whole time.

His wife, Helen, had disappeared with Emily in the dead of night all those years ago and had only recently come back on the scene. He had no idea why — she’d become a completely different person and now seemed hell bent on causing arguments and frustration. She’d led him a merry dance, right across Europe, trying to track her down and see his daughter again. But, through it all, Emily had been living with Helen’s parents barely a few miles up the road. Helen’d had almost as little contact with her as Jack had.

When Emily had got in touch with him yesterday evening, it had been the last thing he’d expected. He’d been to see her that week at the skatepark near where she’d been living, hoping to catch a glimpse of her but not intending on speaking to her. That had all changed as soon as he saw her.

The welcome he got had been less than enthusiastic. Although Emily had recognised him immediately, she’d made it crystal clear that she had no desire to see him or spend any time with him.

But that seemed to have been a momentary flash in the pan.

He’d called her back as soon as he received her text just before eight o’clock the previous evening. She sounded cut up, devastated. It was clear to Jack that the shock of seeing him again had made her react in the way she had, and he forgave her. Of course he did; she was his daughter.

She didn’t say much when she got to his place; she’d just wanted to go straight to bed. She seemed exhausted — more worn down than worn out — and Jack had more than enough good sense not to force the issue. As much as he wanted to see Emily as his little girl in pigtails, those days were over. And he hadn’t seen nearly half as many of them as he would’ve liked. Now, she was a teenager. She had her own ideas, her own direction. Her own life.

He’d opened the door to the spare room, just a few inches, around half an hour after she’d closed the door and gone to bed. It didn’t seem right having her sleep in her old bedroom. Besides which, he’d long since moved everything of hers into the loft. All that was in there now were boxes and stored furniture.

The first thing that struck him was how different she looked sleeping to how she did when she was awake. He would’ve said she looked just fine when she was awake, but only seeing the peaceful, serene look on her face as she slept had made him realise the pain and anguish she must be feeling in her waking hours. He wanted more than anything to walk over and cradle her, feel like the protective father. But he knew he couldn’t. This had to be done one step at a time.

The miniature clock on the mantelpiece gave one small, tinny gong to signal it was exactly half past nine. He’d been awake for well over twenty-four hours — almost twenty-eight — but he didn’t feel tired.

He looked at the glass of whisky on the table next to him, still untouched from last night, and registered the sound of movement upstairs. A few seconds later, he heard the noise of Emily’s footsteps on the stairs, getting louder as she made her way down and opened the door to the living room.

Jack looked at her.

‘Morning.’

Emily lifted her chin momentarily, as if to acknowledge him without saying a word. Her dark hair was tied back, part of her fringe hanging lank over one cheekbone, a black hoody coming down almost to her knees.

‘Bit early for a teenager to be up, isn’t it? I was expecting peace and quiet until well after lunch.’

Emily seemed unsure how to respond at first, but eventually gave a half-forced smile.

‘What’s for breakfast?’ she said, pushing the stray bit of fringe back over her ear, the ends of her fingers barely visible past the end of the hoody’s long black sleeves.

Her eyes fell on Jack’s whisky glass.

His followed.

‘That’s from last night,’ he said. ‘I poured it before you texted me. I just haven’t thrown it away yet.’

Emily nodded. Jack couldn’t tell whether she believed him or not. In any case, what did it matter? Was he not allowed to drink whisky in his own home? Or had Helen and her parents fed Emily stories about Jack being some sort of stereotypical drink-driven detective? He didn’t know, and he wasn’t sure he wanted to.

‘What would you like?’ he said. ‘I can rustle up a mean scrambled eggs on toast.’

‘Sounds good,’ she said, without any hint of tone whatsoever.

The eggy mixture cracked and sizzled as he moved it around the pan with a wooden spatula. He was aware of Emily sitting at his kitchen table behind him, hands wrapped around a mug of milky coffee.

‘I hope the milk’s still alright. I have mine black, so I don’t tend to use it much. Mind you, I’ve put a splash in the eggs, too, so at least we’ll both get it. Good job I’ve got two bathrooms.’

He turned slightly to look at Emily. She didn’t seem to register him speaking at all. Instead, she just looked down into her mug of coffee.

The eggs cooked, Jack spooned them onto two slices of toast and slid one over to her.

He took a mouthful and then asked the question he’d wanted to ask her ever since last night.

‘So. What brings you here?’

Emily shrugged, not taking her eyes from the mug. Jack could see her black nail polish was slightly chipped, the nails bitten back as far as they’d go.

‘Problems with Nan and Grandad?’ he asked.

She shuffled in her chair and let out what sounded like half a sigh.

He took another mouthful of scrambled egg.

‘How often do you see your mum?’

Another shrug.

‘I must admit, she didn’t tell me much about you,’ he said. ‘I didn’t even see her until quite recently, when she knocked at my door. I don’t know where she’d been.’ He took a sip of coffee. ‘Do you remember the house at all?’

Emily shook her head. He felt relieved that he wouldn’t get any backlash for moving all her stuff into the loft.

‘Not really,’ she said. ‘Bits of it. I remember the living room wallpaper. You haven’t decorated.’

Jack smiled. ‘Does that surprise you?’

She shook her head again.

‘I honestly had no idea where you were. All I knew is your mum had left and taken you with her. I heard something on the grapevine later on about Spain. I tried to find you. I even booked a flight out there, but I couldn’t find you,’ he said, not mentioning the fact that he’d not actually got on the plane. ‘Emily, look, I don’t know what your mother and your grandparents have said. I know it won’t have been nice stuff. I know how things work in the heat of the moment. But I... I just wanted to say thank you. For coming here. For coming to see for yourself that I’m not such a bad bloke after all.’

Emily put her knife and fork on her plate and pushed her chair backwards.

‘Can I go now?’

Jack looked down at her breakfast. ‘You haven’t finished yet. There’s still half of it on your plate.’

‘I’ve got places to be,’ she said, getting up and walking into the hall. Jack stood and watched her pick up her rucksack, sling it over her shoulder and open the front door.

‘Will I see you later?’

‘I’ll text you,’ she said, closing the door behind her.