Never too late: a lesson learns from a rejection.

Chapter 02: Wolf Chandra

Lucy’s P.O.V

My father was a lone werewolf. Lone werewolves are those who decide to live alone, not in a pack. They usually were belonged to a pack, but had decided to live alone or were kicked out, due to many different reasons. They have a high chance to go rogues. Normal werewolves normally ignore their existence as they make no trouble. They are different from rogue wolves. Rogues wolves are those who are enslaved by their wolf counterparts. They have no humanity left in them. They kill for joy and make trouble wherever they go. Werewolves normally hunt them down for the sake of their packs. 

My father's wolf had a red-colored fur coat with a pair of eyes like fireballs. Believe me, I am not exaggerating. His wolf was the most beautiful wolf had ever seen in my life. It was true that I had not been companied with many other wolves or werewolves, but I had seen them from distances, and I know what I told about his wolf was true. 

He let us play with his wolf in the forest every weekend when we went for picnics. We did not know the story of why he left his pack and how he ended up with my mom, his mate, who is a human. He said that I am a special and rarer she-wolf, like his. He promised me that he would answer all questions about myself and all other questions I had about our kind when I were18 years old and got my wolf avatar. He also said that I will find my mate, my better half, or the ever-loving partner after my 18th birthday. He did not exactly explain why, but he really hoped that my mate would be a human, like he had my mom. Whenever I asked this particular question about my future mate, he simply said that it will make my life far less complicated. I soon knew that I will never know the answers to all those questions, from his perspectives. In the end, I was left alone to seek answers to those by myself.

He taught both of his daughters how to fight. He said that it is for our self-defense when it is necessary and to prevent a fight, but not to start a fight or torcher innocents. Sometimes, training got really intense and ended up being very painful. I remembered those times when I and Lily cried together in pain at night, but he and my mom were always by our sides to comfort us, applying some balms, giving small massages, and telling us some weird jokes. We both could make him proud and became good fighters, always ready to take any bad guys down, but in reality, we never got our chances to show any of our skills. Those training came in really handy during my sports, which gave me no problems with flexibilities and self-control.

He was also a spiritual guide. He taught both me and my sister how to do meditations to control emotions, especially bad emotions, like anger, jealousy, lust, sadness from a very young age, as long as my childhood goes in my memory. It helps both of us a lot in many different ways in our lives. It felt like he had foreseen our futures. 

By the way, my sister is human with some wolf senses, like my mother. She was really happy about that, but well aware of werewolves as much as I was. Unlike me, non-wolf nature gave her no problems in integrating into society, with the people in the town. She had many friends while I had only a very few.      

We were living in the southern outskirt of the city. It was near the Moon Forest and to one of the known strongest wolfpacks in the country, Moon Diamond Pack. Their alpha is known to be both cruel and intelligent in battles. The pack maintains the reputation for over many generations as I had heard from my father.

Nearly half of my school body was young wolves from the pack. I never had any wolf friend, in their eyes, I was an outcast, cursed one with no pack, disgusted one with a bad family reputation. They never smiled at me but gave me some weird looks as I was a piece of trash. I can still remember the disgusting expression they gave to me whenever I saw them. They verbally abused me from time to time, but I grew out of it and always replied to them back with a small toothless smile. I had very few friends, all of them were human and they were from either my school or works. I have never been in a relationship and wanted to wait for my mate, as my father did.

It was my 18th birthday the next day. As usual, I finished my night shift at the club around 11.30 and started to walk toward my home, passing my never-changing familial background. I looked at the sky and appreciated the beauty. I was a huge fan of star patterns and the moon. Today the sky is full of stars forming various patterns. There were some occasional dry clouds to decorate its beauty. It was a full moon day and I felt that the Moon was extra shining. I was only a few meters away from the home and it was just past 00.00.

“A very happy birthday to me”. I wished to myself and started to walk toward the door. Once I opened the door, my sister jumped at me and said.

“Wish you a happy birthday my sweet sister. May all your dreams come true”

“Thank you, Lily”. She started to drag me toward the living room.

At that very moment, a huge pain struck my head, like I was going to explode. I screamed so loud and tears started to come down from my eyes. It was really painful. Lily grabbed my hand and led me to the sofa in the living room.

“What is it, sweet sis?”

I suddenly realized what was going to happen.

“My wolf is awoken, and she wants to come out”

My father explained to me that my first time will be hard and painful. Even though I had heard a lot about it from my father, from the internet, and some books,  I had no practical clue about how it was going to be like. 

I remembered some of his advice that I must concentrate on my breath and relax, letting my wolf take care of it. I was really afraid of myself and wanted no harm to my sister. After all, I didn’t know anything about my wolf and how she was going to look like.

“Please Lily, please go upstairs and lock the door with mom. I am afraid. I have no idea what will happen. I know that you are not afraid of wolves, but for this time, please do as I said”. I pleaded to my sweet young sister.

“But I want to see your wolf…” she persisted.

“You will, darling. I promised you. Just give me some time alone, to be sure that my wolf is under control and you are safe with her”. I promised her. She complied and went upstairs.

I removed my clothes and sat nakedly on the floor on my knee. I came to know from my past experiences that the Moon can always help me to relax, as it does to many other wolves in stories. I looked at the Moon through the window. I concentrated on my breath and let myself relax. My pain in the head went away and a voice spoke in my head.

“Hello, Lucy. I am your wolf”. I smile and take another deep breath in.

“What is your name?”

“What do you wanna call me?”. I thought for a moment.

I looked at the Moon.

“I like to call you “Chandra” for the Moon”.

“I like that. I am your Chandra. Do you like to see me?”

“Yes, I do, a lot”

“Close your eyes. This will hurt a little”. I closed my eyes and let Chandra take control.

It hurt, not a little, but a lot. I could feel every bone in my body cracked and rebuilt. Red golden furs started to come out from my skin. It was very itching like I was touched by thousands of needles at a single time. Tears escaped from my eyes and soaked my cheeks uncontrollably.

It lasted only a few minutes. I got into my wolf form. I could hear sounds that I had never heard before. I could hear the heartbeats of my mom and my sister clearly down from there. I smelled things that I had never smelled before. I wanted to see how my Chandra looked like. 

My wolf was in control and it felt really different. I felt like I was a ghost living inside Chandra's wolf body. She took me to the nearest room where I could find a standing mirror. I could not believe what I was seeing. My wolf was exactly like my father’s wolf, with a red-colored fur coat and fire glazing eyes. It reminded my father so badly. I really wanted to cry, and uncontrollably, wolf tears started to form in my eye.

“Calm yourself, Lucy. You will never be alone again. From now on, I will be with you in every step of your life”. My wolf said. I smiled and believed her.

I really wanted to run with her, but I was surrounded by people, which made it a worse idea.

I was sure that I was bigger than an average she-wolf. I was as big as my father's wolf and it somewhat made me proud. 

I could not talk in the human tongue when I was in my wolf body, but I could mind link with them. I heard panicking sobs of my sister. I mind linked and asked her to come down. She got super excited and came down within a few seconds.

At the very first moment she saw me, her eyes started to fill with tears. I could understand what was in her mind 

“You are just like our father”

I went to her and licked her face. She stocked my head. We held each other for quite a while. I wanted to show mom, my wolf. Chandra and Lily went to her room together, but she was in deep sleep. We did not want to wake her up, because she rarely went to sleep like that. We came back to the living room.

“Can you be back to your human form again? It is your 18th birthday. I arranged a surprise for you” She said. I nod.

I concentrated and focussed on my breath. I transformed into my human form in front of my sister and it took less than one minute. It hurt, but not like before, only minor sore feelings in my limbs. I forgot about my clothes and was fully naked in front of Lily. I picked my clothes from the floor and run into the nearest room to put them on me again.

 “It will not be a big surprise like you just showed me but close your eyes”. I closed my eyes. She grabbed my hand and led me to the dining room.

“You can open them now”

Tears started to come into my eyes again. My beautiful sister baked me a beautiful cake by herself. We all knew how excellent she was for cooking and baking.

“Thank you, darling. It means a lot to me”. I kissed her checks. She lit the candle on the top of the cake and started to sing the “Happy Birthday” song. We fed each other some cakes.

“Here you are, I made you a present”. She gave me a small red color fancy paper bag. I greedily opened it. It contained a handmade birthday card and a neckless with a heart-shaped pendant. There were two uniques pictures Inside the pendant. One side was mom and dad, the other side was me and my sister when we were very young. Tears wetted my eyes and chicks. I hugged her tightly and kissed her forehead.

“Thank you, sweetie. It is so far the best birthday gift I ever got”. She smiled and kissed my chicks again.

“How did you afford these?”

“I made the card and the neckless by myself. I had some savings enough to buy the pendant. I know it is not much, but do you like them?”

“Very much. I did not know that my baby sister is this talented in handy works”

“I am not a baby”

“Of course not. It does not mean that you are a baby, but you will be always my baby sister. I love you, sweetie”

“I love you too my big sister”. She hugged me again and went to the bed.

It was already 1.30 AM the morning. I quickly put the remaining cake in the fridge and got ready to go to bed. That night I hoped that I would dream of my mate.