The only wish
You were sitting on a swing in the balcony of your room quietly. All the children's who you usually plays along were down the ground making merry like there's no tomorrow.
But you were there quietly in deep thoughts. you were thinking about your wish to have older brother. you always wanted an elder brother rather than sister.
you thought that having brother can make you feel more protected. you envy those who have brother yet they would complain everytime about having elder brother.
some would say that having brother.
is like living in prison or living with monster.
while some complains that they cannot even keep boyfriend or talk to boys because of brother. some even complains how their brother forbids them to wear short dresses and blah, blah, blah..... they would complain with exasperation.
But you on the other hand always wanted to experience all that. you wanted to feel how it is to have Brother and being with them. you wanted to experience the brotherly love.
You were the only child and you couldn't even ask your parents to give birth so that you could atleast have younger one. you thought maybe the feelings will be same though elder or younger but your father died leaving you and your mother.
sometimes you become jealous or tears would just flow down your cheek unaware, whenever you see other children with their brother, holding their hands or giving them piggyback. Wanting to have brother is one of the biggest wish in your entire life.
Your mother who already prepared dinner came behind you.
"Hey! dear why are you alone,won't you go down and play with them?"
"I'm just fine here mom, it's good to watch
them play"
"oh dear is anything bothering you,you
don't look good"she said cupping your face.
" No nothing I'm fine" but your mother knew what you were thinking
about.
she knows that you wished to have
brother.once when your dad was alive and
when you were just 5years old ,you ask your Father
that you wanted a brother and you would
always whine about it. your mother have also
seen you many times crying or when your
eye's twinkle brightly everytime someone
tells you that you can call them brother or pats
your head.
"come let's have dinner than,it's cooked already" she smile at you and dragged you.
"Mom can I tell you something " you ask playing with the spoon.
"Yeah " replied your mom
" Mom can we adopt someone if possible someone who's elder than me so he could be my brother and I could call him my brother " you said with sparkling eyes when taking about brother.
" Dear it's not easy and even if we adopt ,we can only adopt some one who's younger than you since most of the children gets adopted at an early age " explain your mom and you pout looking sad
" Okay now tell me why do you want to have brother instead of sister ?" ask your mother.
" I just feel that if I have brother no one will bully me of course they don't but some still look down on us and also if I have brother he will protect me from all dangerous situation and I also want to know how it feels to have brother "
"it's so good when I see some brother helping out their younger ones and especially like girls they always piggyback them and take them to school and even carry their back and when some bad people try to do bad things , they're always there to protect them and so sometimes when I think all about it I feel so jealous and feels the life would be more better if you have someone you could rely on and someone who'll protect you " you said full of love in your eyes.
"Than what about sister why don't you want sister " ask your mom again.
"about sister I don't know, me being as a girl I think brother is more better than sister. it's not that I don't like to have I would want to have one but if I'm asked to choose I would choose brother " you said
"your taking about brother protecting their younger ones but you're a girl and one day someone will come e into your life to protect you, someone who will love you more than a brother too, someone who will be by your side forever."
"You know if you have brother, it's not like you're brother will always be by your side protecting you through out your life.
one day like you someone will come into his life and later he will only protect her woman and be by her woman side " said your mother
"I know mom but I don't why I can't stop this feeling of having elder brother even if it's for a day I want to experience what others do with their brother " you said.