Chapter 38: Regrets And Making Up To Do
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Rudra
It's been five long and suffering days since I was in a rut and during that time, I was confined in my room. Rani told that she put an enchantment spell on my door so I couldn't come out but everyone else could. She gave the omega servants some of her clothes to send to me, to help me with my rut. When my parents heard what that I was in a rut, they send some omegas to sleep with me. I was furious and send them back. The only person i would ever sleep with is Rani, my pretty little demon. She barely spoken to me the past five days. I don't blame her though. I wouldn't speak to me either to what I almost did to her. If she hasn't stopped me, I would of gone through with it. I couldn't forgive myself if I did. I need to make it up to her.
Now that my rut is over, I have a chance to make up my pretty little demon. So I looked over the pack house for her. I almost gave up until I saw her in the garden. She was planting some roses. She looked so beautiful. She was bending down on the ground, her face and hands covered in dirt. Whipping the sweat from her forehead. I walked up to her and hoping she won't run off.
"Rani, my love, can we talk? Please?" I asked. Hoping she'll listened. She jumped and squealed at the sametime.
"What the hell Rudra? You scared me half to death" she snapped.
"I'm sorry" I rushed out.
"It's fine Rudra but I need to put a bell around you so you don't sneak up to me in the future" she grumbled.
"I would gladly wear it if it makes you happy" I said honestly.
"That was cheese Rudra" she said plainly. I just shrugged.
"Can we talk, my love?" I asked softly.
"Ok, sure. Just let me clean myself first then we'll talk" she stated.
"Of course. Meet me in my study" I stated.
"Ok I meet you there" Rani replied. I was going to offer her to company her but she blinked before I got the chance. I signed. I guess she doesn't trust me yet. So I headed to my study and waited for her there.
It's been an hour I've been waiting for her. Is she avoiding me? Did she just agreed with me to meet so I could leave her? Maybe she's afraid to be alone with me? I wouldn't blame her if she did. This was a bad Idea. I should of asked her to meet more public. I was about to leave when thee was a knock on the door. I didn't need to know who it was. There scent told who. Apple wood and cinnamon, It was Rani. I rushed to the door and opened it.
"You came" I said quickly.
"Won't you the one to say to meet you here?" She questioned. Looking at me puzzled.
"Yes I did but I thought you wouldn't" I said as I Rubbed the back of my neck.
"Why would you think that?"
"I was afraid you didn't want to be alone with me" I said truthfully.
"Oh" is all Rani said.
"Can I come in?" She asked.
"Oh right, yes. Of course" I said and feeling like an i***t. I opened the door wider and step to the side do that she can walk through. I closed the door behind her and I suggest she sit on the sofa by the wall. She sat down on the sofa and I sat next to her.
"What did you want to talk about?" Rani asked. Getting straight to the point. I took her hands in mine and I cleared my throat.
"I wanted to talk what happened five days ago and what I almost did to you" I started.
"Oh that" she whispered. She looked away from me. That crushed me. I must really hurt her if she can't even look at me. I took her chin gently and made her face me. Her eyes watery. She was about to cry and it's all my doing. I hate that I'm the one made her sad. There was a tear fall down her cheek. I whipped it away with my thumb.
"I want to apologise to what I done. I hate myself to what I put you through" I said with remorse. She was just staring at me.
"I'm so sorry, my love, so so sorry. If I could turn back time, to stop myself, I would in a heart beat. If you didn't stop before I could of gone further I would never, ever forgive myself for not giving you a choice. I regret to what I did to you. I'm so ashamed of myself. I'm ashamed that I wasn't strong enough to control my beasts. I'm sorry, I'm sorry" I said sincerely. My emotions starting to get the better of me.
"I know saying I'm sorry wouldn't change what happened but I would do anything in my power to let you know that I you're mean the world to me. I'll prove to you to what happened in the bedroom will never happened again. Your my everything, Rani. I would die for you if it means that you'll happy" I said honestly.
"Rudra...." Rani started but I lifted my hand up to stop her so that I could finish what I'm saying.
"Please let me finish? I'm sorry. You don't know how much I love you. I would give up my title, my wealth, my status, everything if you asked. I would burn the this kingdom down if it put a smile on your face for five second" I sniffed.
"Rudra there no ....." Rani try to answer but I interrupted her.
"All I asked of you to don't leave me even though you have every right to, but I beg you that you don't" tears started to fall out of my eyes.
"Uh Rudra...."
"Don't leave me. Please don't leave me"
"Rudra...."
"I can't live without you. I couldn't bare it if you left me"
"Rudra, could you just...." Rani trying to say something but I just needed her to know how I feel.
"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. Don't leave me, just don't leave me. Your my world, my shining star, my hope"
"RUDRA, could you stop talking and let me speak" she snapped at me. I shut up immediately. She took a deep breath.
"Can you stop apologising please? I know you're sorry" She stated.
"But I just want to know how sorry I truly am" I reasoned.
"I know. I know you're sorry and there's no need for you to say sorry cause there's nothing to forgive. I know that you didn't mean what you did and that you lost control" she said sweetly, whipping my tears away from my face.
"I've already forgiven you five days ago" she admitted.
"Really? You forgive me?" I asked hopefully. Making sure I heard her right. She nodded.
"Yes. You're forgiven" she said reassuring. I couldn't help but jumped up on my feet and pick her up, and spin her round. I hugged her tight; afraid that if I let go she'll vanished. She laughed at my excitement. My goddesses, I love hearing her laugh. It's like a sweet melody.
"And Rudra" Rani started.
"Yeah?"
"I'm not going to leave you. Ever so there's no need to worry about that" she said lovingly.
"You won't?" I asked quickly. She shook her head.
"No, never. It will take a lot more than what happened five days ago, to get rid of me, swamp beast" she joked. I frowned.
"Too soon?" She asked nervously.
"No" I said sincerely. She smiled at me. I kissed her all over her face which made her giggle.
"Rudra stop. It tickles" she laughed.
"I can't help it. You're to adorable" I cooed. Licking her scar on her left eye. It breaks my heart every time I see it. Rani nuzzled me and I nuzzled back. I put my forehead to hers and sniffed her scent. Apple wood and cinnamon; can't get enough of it. It suits her. We stayed like this for a while until they're was a knock on the door. I groaned.
"What?" I snapped. Rani slapped my chest and gave me a look to behave. I rolled my eyes which gave me another slap but this time it was a back of the head.
"What was that for?" Grumbled. Rubbing the back of my head.
"For rolling your eyes" she said annoyed.
"Sorry" I mumbled. She peck my cheek.
"Your majesty?" A servant asked nervously.
"Yes?" Getting annoyed.
"The king asked for your presence" the servant said. Can I have a moment of peace with my pretty little demon?
"Fine. Tell him I'll see him soon" I stated.
"Yes your majesty" they replied respectfully. I signed. I better see what he wants. This better be important.
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