CHAPTER 4 For a heartbeat, nobody moves, but Blade’s jaw goes hard. He always looks angry when the subject of s*x comes up, and with good reason: of all the things he’s allowed to do here, he’s not allowed to touch me, not until he’s one of them. And I don’t have any idea what it will take for them to officially invite him into our group… into our bed. But after everything I’ve been through with Blade, maybe it feels more okay than it should to torture him. He still has secrets from me from the time we were together—I can feel it, hidden things scratching below the surface. Perhaps I’m okay keeping my downstairs from him until he comes clean. Ryder stands from his spot at the table and steps closer, the evening sun glinting against his close-cropped facial hair, the lines so straight it’