*Pipers POV*
Wade's lips were hovering above mine. I couldn't take it anymore. I had tried to keep my emotions in check. The kiss was so sweet and so passionate. I wanted more.
But I felt Jason coming but it wasn't like usual he used his speed to get to me.
We had no time. What he did to me with Wade under the bed. I feel so bad for Wade. I don’t care about my pain I have been through it so often now. But knowing he is in here, listening to this. I hope he doesn't do something stupid and get him self killed I never wanted him to experience any thing like that. It must have taken everything he had not to let his wolf out.
But I think the worse part of it all was that Jason actually decided to spend the night he has never done that before. The emptiness I feel having someone beside me not having warm loving arms wrapped around me. I didn't sleep. I couldn't not only did it feel super uncomfortable having Jason lie beside me. Knowing that Wade is under the bed. I am bruised and battered but I have definitely been through worse.
When Jason went to the toilet and wade snuck out it felt like the last piece of warmth left my body. I am so cold and so alone. I heard my door shut then a crash. Then some muffled talking. I guess it was Wade's door opening. He must of got away with it because I didn't hear anything else. Suddenly my door opens again. I look up wide eyed.
What's he back for?
Is he going to attack me again?
I haven't recovered from last night yet.
He looks at me.
"Today we are going for our run. When we get back you are moving upstairs with me, I will have all your things moved"
What no how could this be happening.
"With you?"
He laughs.
"Like I would want to share a bed with you, you mutt. You will have a your own room on the top floor. I don't know what's going on but is all going to stop"
"There is nothing going on"
He advances on me and hits me so hard I black out.
When I wake the omega that usually brings my meals is in my room running around packing all my stuff. I am glad that was has covered my naked and bruised body with a blanket. I clear my throat. She looks at me.
"Do you mind if I just have a second"
She looks at me with pity, I don't why as an omega she would nearly get treated as bad as me anyway. I feel bad I still don't even know her name but every time I ask she just runs away.
She nods and leaves me to it. I wrap my workout equipment in a blanket and place it in a bag and also grab my pill and stick them in the pocket of the jeans I will be wearing. No matter how much he tries I will never give that bastard a pup. I grab the bag with my work out great and walk out the door. I look towards the stairs up to alphas level. I have never been up there I don't know what to expect. I walk towards the stairs slowly. I wonder how far I could make it from here before Jason caught me. It could be like my own private suicide mission.
I sigh knowing that he wouldn't actually kill me he would just make me hurt worse than I ever have.
I walk towards the stairs. Once I am up there Wade won't be able to visit me.
My nights will be cold my life will be cold. Just abuse with zero comfort. That's when I strengthen me resolve. I am going to find a way to kill myself. This is no life. I don't want to live anymore.
There are a few easy ways to kill a werewolf. Tear the throat out snack the neck or tear out the heart. I don't know if I would actually be able to do that to myself. I need a better plan.
If I die Jason will be weakened. Wade will be able to take him out and Wade will also be free to find his fated mate. That is what is fair for him.
I start walking up the stairs. Why do I feel like it's the walk to my doom. I suppose because it is.
I finally get to the top of the stairs. And am faced with a big black door. I reach out my heart sinking even further. I grab the door handle and turn it.
I open the door the inside actually surprises me. It is white and clean. There is a small kitchen a 4 seat round table for dining. There is 1 2 seat couch and 1 3 seat leather couch. Facing the TV. There is a small set up of gym equipment in a room separated from the living room by 2 big glass sliding doors. There are 4 solid doors off the main area. The omega wolf and another omega rush past me. They run to the door closest to me.
"This is your new room"
I nod and proceed forward. They stack some things in the closet I hide the bag I am holding under the bed until there is enough stuff I'm my closet to hide it properly.
I look around my room. It is beautiful. It has soft light grey sheet curtains hanging ceiling to floor covering one entire wall. The walls are a a super light shade of grey nearly white. The king sized bed with big black bed head. The doona cover is a silky light lavender purple. A dark grey minx blanket is hanging diagonally across the end. I walk across to the window wall and pull back the curtains. There is a small window seat with a dark grey cushion. There is a 3 big soft looking lavender pillows. I walk to the side of that and open the large glass doors onto a small balcony. I walk out and look up. The sun bathes my skin it feels amazing.bi let it warm me up. Suddenly I feel someone behind me.
"We can get whatever you want for your new room"
I swing around. I am surprised.
I look into his cold hard eyes.
"Can I get a seat for out here?"
"Yes"
He says quickly his voice with no emotion like usual. I give him a small smile. He speaks again.
"Are we going for this run or not. I have important things to do"
"Okay sounds good"
He grips my hand and pulls me out of my room. I stop and he stops and turns to me.
I know I am probably pushing my luck but I have to ask anyway.
"Can I use the rest of the apartment?"
"Yes, but do not enter those 2 rooms"
He points at 2 doors that are the closest to the gym area. I nod. But he looks at me for a proper response.
"Yes Alpha"
I follow behind him as he walks, he pauses as he passes my old room. He speaks to the omegas.
"If all her things aren't moved by the time we get back I will kill you both"
They look at him with fear
"Yes Alpha"
They scurry around at double pace.
We continue down the stairs. I keep my eyes down. I never want a repeat of that first time again. We go for our run. It feels so amazing every time I get to do it. I am getting faster.
I keep up with Jasons big Alpha wolf now. I am still not stupid enough to think I could get away from him. We return to our clothes and get dressed. Jason takes my hand gently intertwining our fingers. The sparks exploding from his touch. We walk back hand in hand to the pack house in silence. We walk up the stairs. He opens the door to my new room. Everything is in and the omegas are no where in site. I breathe a sigh of relief for them. He walks me into my room and pulls me in close to him. Taking in my scent. He leans down and gently kisses my lips then his lips trail down my neck as he gentle kisses my mark. I throw my head back exposing more of my neck to him, letting my long hair flow gently down my back. His kisses are so light and passionate. He kisses back up my neck and under my chin. And up to my lips again he wraps one arm around my waist pulling me up to his level my legs instinctively wrap around his waist tightly. He places the other hand gently on the back of my neck then running his his fingers gently through my hair, before returning it to behind my head pressing my lips harder into his. His tongue exploring my mouth.
I kiss him. I am just picturing I am kissing wade. Being with Wade. My hunger grows. I kiss him hard. His body responding to mine. He carries me over to the bed and gently lays me down. He unbuckled my jeans and pulls them down slowly down he runs his hands gently from my toes all the way up my legs to my panties. His fingers grip my waist band and he slowly pulls them down. The suspense is killing me. I want him.
What is wrong with me. Why do I want him. My body is craving him. His hands travel up my body under my top as he lifts me slowly off the bed as he takes it over my head. I look in his eyes. They are brighter green than usual. He stands back up and slowly removes his shirt exposing his 6 pack and bulging pecks. He undoes his belt and unbuttons his jeans letting them fall to the floor. He lowers himself into me. Letting the sparks explode between our bodies. As he kisses me. He lifts him self gently off me with one hand and let's the other explore my body. Never letting his lips leave mine. His fingers pause at my thigh and then gently runs them to the inside of my thigh. I open my legs and wrap them around his body. His hand dangles just above me. The want is killing me I thrust up my pelvis meeting his waiting fingers. He runs me and gently inserts 2 fingers thrusting in a couple of times before taking them out and rubbing me once again. He repeats this process a couple of times before concentrating on my core. His lips leave mine and kiss my neck. As he rubbing increases speed and I groan as I release. The pleasure hit me like a wave. He looks in my eyes and then presses his lips back to mine as he lowers his body onto mine and thrusts in as I am still going through the motions. His movements slow and deep. My body is craving him. I need more. I wrap my legs tighter around him. He responds by thrusting longer and deeper. My back arches as I climax again he groans as he releases. He lays there in my embrace for a bit as we ride out the sensation together. He suddenly jumps up looks at me and turns his back and grabs his clothes and walks out butt naked.
I just lay there alone in my disgust and self pity.
What is wrong with me.
More to the point what is wrong with him. I don't understand how he can randomly be so loving and the rest of the time. He is a sadistic rapist.
My body and mind are in constant battles with themselves.