30 Caterina “Show me the chair that the throwing up incident happened,” I tell Marcus as we walk with each of our hands clasped to Lily's around the c****x Cove summer festival. “Right there.” Marcus points to a table filled with people that rests just under the street light. “That's where she threw up all over me.” Lily laughs. “Daddy, you always tell that story.” I look over at him. We share a smile and then face forward again. After our conversation last week, there's an underlying fissure in our relationship. Almost like he’s waiting for me to blurt out a decision and I’ve wondered more than a few times whether he really wants me here or not. I wanted to scream at him that of course Lily comes first. I would never assume she didn't. But I've learned over my time with Marcus, he