Starting over

Chapter 5: The football

Chapter 5

Nova

"Katie what are you looking for?" I ask.

Katie has been looking around every corner we pass and looked behind her like ten times now. "Oh um... nothing", she says, and I can see a pink color turn up on her cheeks.

"Is this about that Grey guy?" Paisley smirks.

Katie's cheeks are now red instead of pink, and she nods her head. "I thought he was cute", she admits.

"He was evil", I giggle and remember how he wouldn't tell me the name of the boy I've been abusing with my clumsiness.

Apparently, they're buddy's, and he knew about me, but he didn't know who I was and now he does. I don't know if he has been talking about me with that poor boy and told him what my name is. Or has he kept it a secret? That he met me that is? I don't know. Maybe it would be a good thing to let Katie find Grey, so I can ask him.

We walk out of the building and to the rest place outside. It's beautiful.

A football hits my foot lightly. "Hey girl! Can you pass it over?" One of the boys yells nicely.

Looks like some of the football guys are playing around. And in the group of boys I actually spot Grey. He's grinning at me and the girls. I pick it up. Should I throw it or just walk over with it? I've never been much of a thrower to be honest.

Katie is waving at Grey with the cutest and sweeties smile she can put on her lips. I decide to just throw the ball. I close my eyes and throw the ball with all the power I'm mighty, so I can try to get the ball to them and not only halfway.

As it's in the air I realize that I shouldn't have thrown it. It hits a blond boy straight into his head as he was walking towards the boys, making him fall over by surprise and the pressure of the ball. As he's sitting on the ground, I spot his hand, which is bandaged.

I can't believe this. It's the same boy. Before he can stand up, I grab Katie and Paisley by their wrists and pull them with me as I run away from there and back into the building.

"Again!" Paisley shouts but I can hear that she holds herself from laughing.

"I can't believe this!" I say and mentally curse myself as I finally stop outside our room. “What the frick? The universe has something against me, I’m telling you”. I open the door and walk in. I dump my bag on the floor and throw myself onto my bed, with my face facing the pillow.

I can't believe I did that. How many times am I going to hurt that poor boy? This is really getting ridiculous. I could blame it on him, stating that he's the one that's in the way all the time. But that's actually not true. I'm the one who turned around without being careful and caused him to spill his coffee over himself, I'm the one who ran in the corridor without looking and ran straight into him. He was waiting or his coffee like any normal person would when I smashed my books onto his hand, and now this, I closed my eyes I threw the ball with all the powers I had. What's wrong with me? Why the hell did I close my eyes?

"Did you see that cute boy?" Paisley asks suddenly and I feel how she sits down on the edge of my bed.

I turn around to my side and look at her. "It was a lot of boys there Paisley", I smirk. "Who are you referring to?"

"The boy standing beside Grey, with the bronze-brown colored hair and green-blue eyes", Paisley says.

"Oh yeah I saw him", Katie says jumping up on my bed, leaning against the wall. "He was cute, perfect for you".

"Hey wow slow down there Katie, I only said he was cute", Paisley says holding up her hands. "Who says he's perfect for me? He might be a player or what if he's really means? Besides, I haven’t even spoken wone word to him".

"Well he did wave at you with a cute shy smile", Katie says. "Very mean, right Nova?"

"Oh totally!" I say. "The biggest jerks of all".

"Yeah yeah you two", Paisley giggles. "Enough".

"So, if you meet him again, or when", Katie says, correcting herself. "You are talking to him, right?"

"Should I?" Paisley asks uncertain.

"Oh of course you should Paisley", I say. "Of course, you should, I mean it's obvious that you're mesmerized by him only because of a smile and wave".

Paisley's cheeks get a pink color and she smiles shyly.

As I look at Paisley and Katie and talk to them, I realize how much I like them and how they are my best friends. And I really do think that I can trust them. But I can't tell them what happened to me. I had a best friend before, but she turned her back on me when I needed her the most, everyone did. What if Paisley and Katie do the same thing if they know about my past?

I do want to tell them, but I wouldn't be able to bear the consequences if they would turn their backs on me. I wouldn't be able to stay here. And I really like it here. I wanted a fresh start, and I got a fresh start with no one here that knows me. No one to judge me. And if I tell Paisley and Katie about my past, maybe they'll see me differently, maybe they'll despise me.

It hurts me deeply to think these thoughts. My former best friend, Alicia, she meant everything to me before she turned her back to me. And if it's even possible Paisley and Katie means more to me than she ever did. I don't want to lose them; I'd really die if I lost them. I haven't had friend like this for years now, and at first it felt wrong, but now it doesn't. It feels right to have Paisley and Katie as my best friends, it's like pieces falling into place, like they always should've been my best friends. It sounds ridiculous I know that, but it's true. I don't know if someone can know it without feeling it themselves.

"You know I love you, both right?" I ask looking at them.

They look at me. First startled than with smiles on their faces. "We love you too Nova ", Paisley says and takes my hand.

"No, you don't understand", I say, shaking my head.

"You'll tell us when you're ready", Katie says and takes my other hand. "But we love you as well".

I smile at them.

"Maybe I'll be ready soon", I sigh. "And trust me, I want to be".

I feel tears fall down my cheeks slowly. Paisley wipes them away. "We may want a lot of things Nova, but we also know when we're ready for certain things or not", she says. "And clearly you're not ready and that's okay".

"Really?" I ask.

"Really", Katie says.

"Okay but promise me one thing", I say.

"Anything", Paisley says.

"Promise me that boys will never come between us", I say.

Paisley and Katie start to giggle, and so do I. "Promise", they both say at the same time.