Addicted to Redemption

Haunted

Kate

School... School is going to start soon. Donna's words brought me back to the harsh reality, that summer ended, and the darkness will come for me again. I got a glimpse of the future that I could have if I'm strong enough to fight for it. I leaned against the closed door in my dream room and took a quick look around. Everything was mine but nothing really belonged to me in this house. I've met a few of my demons today and learned to find their strengths, I managed to look at myself in another light and here I am again. At the bottom of self pity. I felt scared and hated myself for not being able to embrace the good things without worrying about what's on the corner. School... They are there. I got out of the hold of my foster parents, but they are still there. God knows what they heard during summer. If any of them found put about the rehab... I'll be the bull's eye again. And he is there... Why?! Why did he also have to turn his back to me? He said he loved me, that we were meant to be, today and forever. He stabbed me in my back and there was no today, no tomorrow. My last lifeline... I was buried in my thoughts when I heard a soft sigh on the other side of the door.

- Sorry, I'm not strong enough today. See you later. - Dean whispered, his voice was almost inaudible. My heart skipped a beat and I waited with anticipation for him to knock or open the door, but the sound of his footsteps got away from my door. I heard the closing of a door and how he ran the water in the bathroom. I stood up and just looked at the door.

- How can I be so selfish? - I asked out loud and rested my head on the door. He is death... He has duties that are impossible for me to comprehend and they must be incredibly tough to handle. Yet, I'm crying here over spilled milk. Dean and his family is in my corner they help me and gave me space. In these few days I've started to rediscover what life and being alive means. I heard that Dean turned the radio on. Slowly opened the door and walked to the bathroom. I stayed there for a few minutes and listened to the song debating what should I do.

"You're right, I'm wrong

Every single time

You're perfect, and it's true

You're hot, I'm cold

Every single night

I'm nothing without you

I don't believe it, I don't believe it

I don't believe it's true

There is nothing better than you

Slow it down, hurry up

Never miss a beat

All the beautiful things you say

Button up, tuck it in

Always looking at me

You make me look so great "

I took a few deep breaths and lifted my hand slowly for a knock when I heard the water splashing and Dean ripped the door open. The music kept playing in the background and the whole scene was like in a cheesy teenage drama. I didn't care what it looked like, I wanted to be there for him. I wanted to close my demons out to help him. We hugged each other and Dean clinged on me like a child would at his mother. I felt desperation and pain in every breath he took and we just stayed there in each other's arms, while the soft moon light, bright up the corridor.

- Are you okay? - I asked with a low shaking voice, not being sure if I was strong enough to handle the truth. Dean pulled away and held my face in his hands. He looked deeply into my eyes and I felt like I've been drifting on a golden lake at the sunset.

- We don't need to talk about anything. - he said and I nodded. Dean pulled me close and gave me a gentle, careful and soft kiss. He was right, we didn't need to talk. Everything we needed to hear or wanted to say were in our actions. When he released me after the kiss Dean blushed a bit.

- Sorry. - he said and I didn't understand at first what he meant until I followed his glance. I looked down to see that my white fluffy blouse got completely see through due to Dean's wet chest. I wasn't sure if I could look into his eyes in this state since my bra was also visible. I chuckled and tried to brush the situation off before it gets even more uncomfortable.

- No worries, there is nothing to see anyway. - I repeated the words my ex told me whenever I became self conscious. Since I wasn't looking at Dean's face I didn't know if he agreed or not. I took a quick glimpse and halted back. The soft, kind and warm summer like eyes suddenly turned red as blood and all that was written over his face was fury.

- Explain to me Kate where the f**k did you get this stupid idea? - he asked and even the weather got colder around us. Causing me to get goosebumps and even my n*****s hardened by the cold. I couldn't move and Dean's anger scared me.

- It doesn't matter. It's in the past. - I said. He shook his head.

- Kate... That's a nice thought but your past is still affecting you. So please, tell me who I have to erase from the surface of Earth so you could finally see yourself through my eyes? Because damn Kate, you are alluring! You are so f*****g perfect to me! I have to hold myself back so I wouldn't scare you away or hurt you in any way. - I giggled.

- Would you unalive everyone who hurt me? That list is pretty long! - Suddenly a scythe appeared in Dean's hand and with the moonlight drawing around his silhouette he looked like a God. Towel half covering him, leaving his chest and torso visible, the muscles well defined. His handsome face with a ruthless and cold expression made him look like a morally grey fantasy character. The scythe in his hand only added to the dangerous vibes along with his sparkling red eyes.

- Hand it to me. - he said as if I really had a list. I laughed and Dean's expression softened. He tilted his head like a confused puppy while I held my stomach that stared hurt due to laughter.

- You are really something else! - I said and Dean dropped the scythe as I threw myself into his arms and he hugged me. I grabbed his face and kissed him deeply with passion until we ran out of breath. God knows what would've happened after that kiss if Grim's voice wouldn't echoed through the house.

- Where is my scythe?! - he looked into each other's eyes and laughed from the bottom of our souls. Yeah, everything is a mess, but everything is going to be alright.