Addicted to Redemption

Nothing better

Dean

I rushed into her arms and inhaled her sweet scent. Kate always smelled like the fresh rain after a hot spring day. The perfect balance of freshness and sweetness now were combined with a flowery perfume and the smell of makeup. I didn't realize until later when I released her, how gorgeous she looked.

- Wow... - I mumbled stunned. She blushed as soon as she noticed my stare and her flustered face drove my senses crazy.

- How do I look? - Kate asked and words struggled to leave my mouth. Mom's laughter ended my suffering.

- Sweety, don't you see that you took his breath away? - she asked and Kate blushed even more. She avoided my glance and stared at her high heels.

- I see you two had an eventful day. - Dad said holding mom by her waist. Kate lifted her glance, still avoiding mine.

- Yes! Donna introduced me to Jolene and Rouge today! - Dad's eyebrow raised and he took a glance at mom, who just smirked pinching his nose playfully.

- She needed some different viewpoints before school starts again. - As soon as mom said these words, Kate turned pale. I grabbed her hand, but she ripped her hand out of mine.

- Sorry... Thank you for today Donna. - she said and rushed upstairs. We stared after her and dad mumbled something that didn't leave my mind anymore.

- What else could've happened? - mom rested her head on his shoulder and let out a loud sigh.

- Looks like I can still trigger traumas at the worst moments. I should talk with her. - she said but dad shook his head.

- Let's give her some space and I'll talk with her before dinner.

- What should I do? - I asked out loud feeling like a complete i***t. "Why didn't I run after her? What should I say, or ask now? She was so happy a few moments ago..." I groaned with frustration and exhaustion. I felt a pat on my shoulder and looked up at my father.

- You are too drained to take more pain in now Dean. Let me handle hers for today, okay?

- It should be my responsibility, she is my soul mate. - I mumbled and dad smiled proudly.

- Indeed, but that doesn't mean that you have to exhaust yourself. - dad said and mom hugged me from behind. Her hands on my chest and I enjoyed the warmth of her touch. I felt immediately a little better, like someone lit a candle in the dark room I've been locked up.

- There are days when both of you are drained and would need the other's strength. In and ideal world, one of the couple drowns their own pain to lift the other up. But my sweet baby, the world is far from ideal. Therefore, you have two options, either you wait a bit till your storm passes and help her once you are back on your feet, or you are just there.

- There is a third option. - Dad said and we both glanced at him. Mom smiled like a partner in crime while dad spread his arms and wrapped both of us in a huge hug.

- You can just turn to us for help. - I felt like a huge weight fall off of my chest in my parents arms. Tears fell from my eyes and mom caressed my head soothing me.

- There were so many of them... - I sobbed and she kissed my head.

- I know my baby. I'm sorry I couldn't help today. - I shook my head.

- No, you helped a lot. You helped Kate and that's a help for me as well. Thanks mom! - she grabbed my face in her hands and gave a huge peck on my forehead.

- I'm so incredibly proud of you!

- Go to your room for a little rest, I recommend a long and warm bath before dinner. - dad said.

- Use the salt next to the tub that has a rose label on. It usually helps to us as well. - I nodded and they squeezed me a bit before letting me out of their arms. I climbed upstairs like I've climbing to the highest mountains. I felt no strength in me and had no idea how dad was able to stay sane, to keep going on since the beginning of Earth. I passed by Kate's room and lifted my hand to knock when my mom's words popped up in my mind. I sighed and whispered.

- Sorry, I'm not strong enough today. See you later. - I walked to the bathroom and filled the tub with hot water. The mist filled the dark purple tiled bathroom, the calming scent of roses and chamomile immediately relaxed me. I slipped into the large, pure white tub and watched out of the window that was on the side of it. The sky was already dark and the moon lighted up the bathroom. I got out and turned the light off, lighted some of my mom's candles before slipping back into the warm water. I closed my eyes and turned the radio on, at the window sill. A lively music played and I dived under the water thinking about the lives that got lost today and the countless souls I had to accompany to the other side. When my lungs stung I came to the surface and wiped the water out of my eyes, that's when I started to pay attention to the song playing in the radio.

"I don't believe it, I don't believe it

I don't believe it's true

There is nothing better than you

La di da di doo, there's nothing better than you

All that we've been through, there is nothing better than you

Hot mess, hot damn

I'm always on by

But you keep me on my toes

Bury it, dig it up

I'm working hard

I'm reaping what I sew

A search for diamonds, yeah

But I found you

'Cause I've been high, yeah, I've been low

But I'm nothing without you "

My heart skipped a beat and I jumped out of the bathtub, almost tripping on the water that splashed out. I grabbed a towel and put it around my waist." f**k waiting alone for the strom to pass... I need her and she needs me, we can just wait our storms to end together." I ripped the bathroom door open and saw Kate standing with her arm lifted up, her hand in a fist ready to knock. Her gorgeous eyes widened and the song kept playing in the background.

" There is nothing better than you

La di da di doo, there is nothing better than you

All that we've been through, there is nothing better than you

La di da di doo, there is nothing better than you

All that we've been through, there is nothing better than you"

Without any second thoughts I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close to me. She gasped but hugged me back as well. We didn't say a word, there was no need for them. Both of us had our own demons to fight, we just needed someone in our corner, only the thought that we are not alone, was enough to light up the path that was ahead of us waiting for our next steps.