I opened my eyes to see Lily holding my hand and I wondered why. "Don't ever put your hand down there, it'll only get worse" Lily cautioned but I don't think I knew what she was talking about, it didn't take me long enough to find out because she held my hand when it was in a quite compromising position, I know that instant what she meant. I was trying to please myself. She slowly let go of my hand as my face fell... "I can't do this Lily" I tried not to sob, this was torture. The feeling was so new and unusual to me that it making me mad. "You've rest well enough, get yourself inside the training clothes. We are going down to the water" Lily said and I nodded despondently before heeding her words by going into the closet where she had kept my boxes. My clothes were yet to be unpacked b