The Gangster's Girl (English)

Chapter 10

Things are slowly falling back to normal. The university was close for two days after the incident and for the investigation. But the classes resumed immediately with a lot of police around to secure the safety of the students and the faculty.

They still don't have any lead in finding the gunmen as well the reason. I learned that the detective also interrogated Kim, Xian and the girl Sean was with that day. But he got nothing from all of them as well.

I've been absent for a week already because I undergo professional therapy to avoid post trauma stress disorder. The university allowed me to go get special activities from my professorts and just submit it at the end of the week so I can still keep up with the discussions.

My parents also want me to rest just for a month but I told them I can go to school after a week. I don't want to be gone for that long. I think I can handle my trauma properly.

“Samantha? We're leaving, are you sure you'll be fine here alone?”

I nodded as I wave a novel for her to see, “I’m okay mom, you should go now. I'll go read at the balcony, I'll be fine.”

“Are you sure you’ll be fine? I can ask Sean to stay here with you.”

I shook my head, “No mom, I’ll be fine.”

She sighed, she leaned to kiss me on my cheek before leaving me alone at my room. She doesn't want to leave me here alone but their meeting has been repeatedly moved because of me. I’ve been causing so much delay so I told them I can stay at home alone.

I went to the balcony to read a novel but I couldn't keep my attention to it. I decided to go out and have a walk. I've been locking myself inside the house for a week now, I feel suffocated now.

I changed into my sweat pants and a plain white shirt. The sun's up and the surrounding's so quiet I want to hear the wind.

I was stretching at the frontdoor when I saw Sean standing on their veranda. He's leaning there like a supermodel who doesn't give a damn to the world. He's watching me with a serious face. I rolled my eyes at him before I went out to have a walk.

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“You can get your special exam tomorrow, Miss Marcoitte.”

I nodded. Mrs. Dela Cruz gave us our homeworks before dismissing the class.

I inhaled deeply before leaning on my chair. My classmates are leaving the room now, it’s already lunch.

“I can lend you my reviewer Sammy,” Kim sat at the vacant chair beside me. I smiled at her and murmured my thanks. I started compiling all the paperworks I have to finish in order to cope up with the activities I skipped.

I'm finally going back to school after two weeks of rest and I'm so bombarded with a lot of papers and books to read. I need to spend my weekend doing this so I don't have to worry anymore.

“How about the other subjects? You need to catch up? Maybe I can help you.”

“I'll probably ask for special exams. Some of my teachers allowed me to take my quizzes and activities home, I already passed them last Friday. I don't have anything more to catch up, it's just this subject.”

I only lost the discussions from other subjects but so far I think I can study at home alone. I sighed, remembering that Sean used to teach me whenever I get a hard time understanding some topics from my subjects. Yes, he's not only looks, he's everything I guess.

“You want me to help you?” I went back at my senses. I sat properly and started putting my things inside my bag.

“No need Kim, I think I can handle this alone. Let’s go, I’m starving.” I smiled at her.

She nodded and smiled back. We went to our usual spot at the cafeteria. I felt uncomfortable when the students began looking at me. I used to be just a simple student before that incident. Well, a lot knows me for being close to Sean and for being part of our circle of friends but no one knows me with any other tags.

I rolled my eyes, avoiding to see the look on their faces. I don't have time for this.

“Hi Sam, are you okay now?” Naomi greeted me while sitting beside Kim.

I smiled tiredly, “Yeah.” It's too early to be tired but I feel so damn tired since this morning.

“Where’s Dylan? He's not with you?” Kim asked. Naomi rolled her eyes but we noticed the tears that are just about to roll down her cheeks.

“Hey, are you okay?”

She nodded, bitting her lower lip trying to stop the tears from falling.

“Lie better, bitch.” I rolled my eyes. I think I know what happened.

“Where’s that f*****g douchebag?” I asked. I know Dylan very well, just like how I know Sean. They're both our fuckboys, we never agreed to their relationship before, because we know what's gonna happen.

“Samantha, I’m okay. If he doesn't want this anymore then it's okay with me. It’s not like I'll beg him to stay. He’s an asshole.”

“Wait..what’s happening? Can you guys please stop cussing?” Kim looks so troubled hearing all the swears from us. She's our good girl by the way, she don't swear.

“It’s nothing, Kim. Let’s go grab some food, I’m famished.” Naomi wiped her tears. She took her wallet and started walking towards the stolls to buy food.

We bought our food and started quietly. Naomi's not in the mood, I'm tired. Kim doesn't want to open a conversation.

Sean and Dylan came while we're peacefully eating. I know they'll ruin the mood immediately. I place the spoon and fork at the table, losing my appetite.

I heard Naomi murmuring some curses. Kim seems oblivious of what’s happening around her.

“Hi girls,” Dylan greeted us like it's just a normal day. His eyes landed at me, “Hey Sam, you okay now?”

I shot him daggers, “Can you please fix your problem with Naomi before talking to me?”

He chuckled, he looked at me playfully. “We don't have any problem my dear cousin.” He peeked at Naomi beside me.

I shook my head in disappointment. I was trying to focus on Dylan but I can feel Sean's intense stare at me, he's staring at me so obvious that it makes me uncomfortable.

I didn't finish my food, I took my bag and told Kim I'm leaving. But that's when Sean's large frame stepped forward, grabbing my hand.

“What the hell?”

The students around us are now watching and I'm starting to hate him evenmore.

“Let’s talk,” his eyes are full of restraint but I am so sure behind those eyes is him begging. Sean doesn't let his guards down infront of everyone, only to me.

“We have nothing to talk about,” I saw his jaw clenched, his adams apple moving. Tell me who the hell cares?

"Let me go Sean."

“Samantha--“

“I suggest you talk somewhere private guys.” I glared at Dylan but he just shrugged. I pulled my hand from Sean in irritation and just walked out without even getting Kim.

I thought he's not gonna follow me but when someone grabbed my arm and started dragging me somewhere, I immediately knew it was him.

I pushed him away when I realized he dragged me inside the male's restroom. What the f**k?

He locked the door and pinned me behind it. My heart's growling inside my chest. I'm just not sure if it's because of anger or because we're this close again.

"Let me go Sean," I tried my very best not to give in to him. Sean knows all my soft sides, he knows how to tame me but I know to myself that I am bent on ignoring him this time so I should be tough.

“Samantha just hear me out,”

“What should I hear from you?” I looked into his eyes so he'll see I'm not afraid to melt infront of him, “Your lies?”

He wasn't able to answer.

I laughed sarcastically, “Let me rephrase it because you never said you like me, you never said you love me. You just kiss me, act like you own me and then I’ll find you kissing another girl the next day.”

“Samantha I’m sorry--“

“You’re sorry? You’ll tell me you own me then I'll see you kissing another girl the next day and you just say sorry? Do you think I'm that stupid Sean? Do you think I am like the girls you f*****g bedded?”

“Samantha it’s not my intention to kiss that girl, whoever she is! I just had to do it for you!“

"f**k it, kissing another girl for me? f**k you and your stupid reason!” I pushed him away with all the remaining strenght I have in me. “I don’t want to hear anything from you. I saw it, I saw it with my two f*****g eyes! You were kissing so intimate like a hungry beast! And you tell me what you did is for me? Who the f**k would believe you? What I saw is enough for me to believe you never excluded me from the pile of f*****g girls you’ve fuckin’ bedded! I hate you Sean, you’re sick! You’re f*****g sick and I hate you! I despise you!”

And just like that, I think a friendship has been torn apart. And it fuckin’ hurts.

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