My roommate's boyfriend

So confused!!

Zoe pov

I was the happiest person when the lesson finally came to an end. Actually I am not like this all the time but I felt . The whole lesson I kept having so many thoughts from all that had happened yesterday. Yes, up to this point I had not yet got back to being the normal me.

I still could not believe that I let Chad kiss me.

The worst thing of it all is the fact that I actually liked the kiss that the two of us shared. It was not supposed to be like that . But then what was supposed to do . of course I had to like the kiss plus he is my number one.

Before him I had never been kissed by any one. I therefore don’t have any person with whom I can perhaps equity the kiss to .

Natasha came closer to me looking me straight in the eyes. I think she had actually observed that I had something that had actually occupied my mind. I did not know hoe I was going to lie her and also convince her that it was actually nothing .

Ofcourse I cannot tell her the real truth and that is it. Hahaha, I just cannot imagine what her recation could be once she found out that I indeed kissed her boicipatuons yfriend- but of course those are some of the things that will never be known apart from the two of us who were actually the ones wgo were the ones that had been in the act.

“Are you okay ?” my roommate asked me again with clear concern in her voice. Damn it, how I wish she knew that her words were actually getting me to feel more guilty .

“Ehmmm, yes . ….i am okay.” I replied with a stammer . Damn it ! I was actually making things to get complicated in one way or the other .

“Okay , if you insist but the truth is I cant tell that you seem to have so much that is going on in your mind.” She went on to say . At this point , I just wished that she did not insist on it as she is good at insisting on finding out so much about whatever goes around in my life. Such topics were the ones that I did not feel like discussing at this time.

“I think we should go to the cafeteria .” I said the first thing that I thought about . it was actually the only way that I had which could help me not to stick to one topic with Nats which topic I did not have the answers to due to quilt .

“Cafeteria?” Natasha asked with surprise on her face. I contemplated but I could not get to a conclusion as to why she was this shocked , I had just told her that we go to the cafeteria.

“Why are you this shocked?’’ I was prompted to ask her .

“You don’t get it girl . I mean you are one who has always insisted that you don’t want to go the café. You even insist that we carry our own breakfast from home other than being in that mob of students.”

Haha, the fact is I did not even remember that as I was telling her . I can now conclude that I am now totally confused . I suppose it is the guilty concise that I feel that has put in in this mode that I did not even think before what I said.

“Yes, I know I have always said that but don’t forget that it is you who did not sleep at home so I could not make the breakfast all myself.” I could hear myself at the way I was lying.

“Oh , this is a new Zoe but I think I like the new one more than the one one.” She said teasingly. I was so happy that I had been able to change her mind and she was left at a point that she actually did not suspect that there was even something that I was actually hiding from her .

The two of us finally rose up from our seats and moved drastically towards the exit door and so we got out of the classroom and moved towards the cafe. As usual just like many of the days, the place was crowded with so many students.

I swear I hated this place with passion. The noises from the fellow student , the gazes more so from the boys who at times even flirted with me. I just hated everything around. In fact Natasha has always told me that is spartly the reason why I don’t have a boyfriend.

I like isolation and therefore that way I am not able to meet guys who I could get into a relationship, those who could make me a complete woman- I mean as she says that a complete woman should be kissed and most importantly made love too.

How I wish she knew that for the kiss I have already got it and it is by non other than her oown beloved boyfriend. This was surely ironical.

The moment we got into the café, we got a table almost in one of the corners – atleast this was a comfortable place . it meant that I was away from most of the gazes.

“I will get our coffees.” Nats said and she moved to the countre leaving me all by myself. As soon as she had gone, my phone started to ring there and then.

I was puzzled the moment I looked at it and realized that it was Chad. There and then , I felt the whole of my body shiver as I looked at the counter seeing that Natasha was indeed busy and was not aware of anything . what was I going to do now?

If I did not pick it up then he was going to insist and call for ever and then if I picked up and my friend heard whom I was talking to then it was all going to be another task for me to answer the questions that Nats could fire me.

This left me in a state of conflicting royalties, I kept looking at both the phone in my hands and then at the girl who did not realize at one point that her boyfriend was now after her roommate.

In this state of confusion that I was going through, the phone stopped ringing just as my roommate turned around coming towards our table with two coffees; one in each hand.

What was I going to do now? Zoe, what are you putting yourself into .

My good readers, am sorry for taking some days without updating. I was down with a fever but I am right here and going to update one each and every day that goes by.