FOREVER YOURS

Chapter Five: The List

I woke up  late the following day, it was almost  noon. I sat up and stared at my Ceiling. I have not been taking my leaving seriously, I need to make a preparatory list to plan things so that i would leave and start fresh in luxury and comfort . I cannot run away to be homeless, I didn't chose this life for myself and I will not chose to live in poverty.

My new life list

1. Get a Job at least apply for one

2. When I get Job look for house in new location

New location Hmmm? I haven't even decided where I wanted to start my new life, living the US will be hard for me because I don't know much about anywhere. And living the country will make it easier for them to find me . I need somewhere within driving distance  somewhere like Washington or California. They are interesting states and are also big I'm pretty sure I can thrive there. I will look for jobs in both Washington and California and the best opportunity  or better still the job that accepts me will be the place I'll move to. Hopefully my parents won't search for there that if they even bother to look for me.

3. Buy a new car ,  maybe a Mercedes Benz G 550 , it's fancy enough and It's good for traveling. I will miss my Rolls Royce, maybe I should have it taken to the mechanic to remove any tracking device on it, and I can have it repainted and shipped few days after I leave. Thumbs up to me for being a" good escape planner" maybe I should start an organization like that....

4.A new account , I don't need my parents tracking me using my credit card. I'll withdraw almost all the money in my account the day I'm leaving, I'll have to risk traveling with all that cash on me.

5. Keep my movement a secret from everyone, once anyone knows I'm leaving they might be tempted to tell my parents and ruin my chances and the punishment I will get from my mum. The thought alone is giving me shivers ,I can't take that risk

6. Pack all my clothes and Jewelry, I might leave behind a few clothes, the outdated ones and the ones I've outgrown. (I made a mental note TO start as soon as possible cause sorting out my clothes will be difficult).

I felt my stomach rumble and I walked into the bathroom brushed my teeth and showered while allowing my thoughts drift to my parents, first they left without letting me know, and secondly they were going to watch Lily's movie  premiere without me . They didn't even call me to let me know what's going on. Well the line works both ways, and I didn't call to know if they landed safely and ask other things like normal children do, but I'm not a normal child after everything I've been through because of them, to be honest I couldn't care less if they died in a plane Crash, the only thing that will happen is my freedom.

I quickly dressed up in a black shorts and a purple vest, I tied my hair up in a messy bun ( I always do this when my mum travels cause she will never condone such) I like feeling free. I quickly made way to the kitchen  , there was nothing going on yet!! Because someone has to cook for me.

I opened the fridge and picked the jug of orange juice and drank from it directly. My mum thinks it's a dirty behavior, but I feel bliss whenever I do it.

"  someone is in a good mood today"

I heard Susan behind me

" yes I am, but my mood would be ruined if I don't eat something soon"

" don't worry the girls are preparing

Nova Scotia lox and scrambled eggs with Bagels for you,

I baked cookies earlier for breakfast, you can have some with milk. When lunch is ready I'll bring it up to your room"

" okay Thank you Susan you spoil me too much." Muahhhh . then I pecked her cheeks continuously until she started laughing and I was laughing too, times like this were what I cherished the most, The thought of leaving her behind saddened me...

" Nene...I hope you are fine, I'm really worried about you.. Last night made me worried, it's been months since you had night mares and yesterday, even after you took your pills, I came back to check on you and you were mumbling in your sleep. And it's been so long since all this , I know I've failed you, all those years I didn't stand up for you even when I knew what she did to you, I'm so sorry Nene...i wou...

Stop Susan, we were both helpless in that situation, there was nothing any of us could do, and I knew the times you stood up for me what she did to you. It's not your fault, if anything happened to you because of me I wouldn't have forgiven my self. I'm so grateful to you. And don't worry about me I'm fine, I've just been stressed this days but I'll be fine. I promise to take my pills. I don't like you worrying about me so much. It makes me feel bad..

" you know I love you like how I would love my child  , I've not been blessed to have children and that's why you were sent to me to love and care for. Promise you'll always talk to me whenever you feel burdened. I can convince your dad let you go for a Therapy. You've been keeping to yourself a lot this days"

I didn't want to risk telling her about my plans to leave, I felt so guilty she worried about me a lot and here I was planning to leave this family and house and did I think of her or even include her in my plans.

" I'm just really bored, and It's getting depressing staying in this house all the time, I spoke with Lily yesterday and she told me, She was going to talk to dad to allow her invite me to Paris. I'm so excited, Although I am not sure if Dad will agree to it. Please do tell Dad I've been gloomy and sad and I'm not eating well, you know the words that will get him. So he will agree, I really need a Change of scenery for once"

"  That is in every literature the definition of emotional blackmail and manipulation ,Nene , when did you learn all this

I grinned sheepishly at her.

" you know I'm not usually like this but I really need to go out and explore, I really wonder why they keep me so caged up like this, why I'm I the only one they choose to treat this way, what wrong have I done"

I wasn't actually sad about it , I just wanted to guilt her into talking to my dad, He always tends to listen to her a a lot and if she talks to him about it I'm sure he would consider.

Her face became sad, then she decided to help me talk to my dad . I picked my favorite bowl and filled it with Susans chocolate chip cookies, they are the besttttt. I went up and decided to check out some movies on Netflix to pass time before lunch is ready, I opened my Mac Book and logged in to my account, there's this new Series they've been advertising for some time,"The Witcher".. I decided to check it out . Half way through the first Episode, my phone rang. After seeing the name on my screen a huge grin appeared on my face, NICK. I picked up immediately, I didn't want to think first

' Hey,

'Hi, Good Afternoon

I slammed my head into my palm why I'm I sounding so professional

' hope your day is going well'

"Yes it is, thank you"

" urhmmmm......

"Whatsup" I encouraged he sounded a bit nervous

" I was wondering if you would like to hang out later in the evening, you know to know each other better and..urhmmmm"

Awwwn he sounded cute when he was nervous,

"Ohh.. Okayyy let me check my Schedule and see if I'd be able to make it"

What was i doing? I didn't want to look too desperate hang out with him..I counted thirty seconds before answering, hoping it wasn't too short time  to go through a schedule, that doesn't exist.

" I'll be free this evening, what time do you have in mind? I answered quickly, also trying to hold back my laughter at my pretty obvious pretence.

" I was thinking 7pm, I want to take you to an art Gallery, Hope you like it?

" yes that will be nice, I love art actually,that's so thoughtful Nick" I was almost squealing with excitement, I love going to view art and It's been so long.

" I'll pick you up at you house by 6:59"

" that won't be necessary just send me the location I'll meet you there"

"Urmmm.. sure okay, I'll send it to you"

" okay later then".

"Later"....

As soon as I cut the call I was jumping round my room, why was I excited to go Art siting?

I couldn't concentrate on watching the movies any more, I kept my mac book aside and decided to go through my clothes to pick the perfect outfit for tonight,I wanted to look perfect.

Not long Susan came in hold a tray of my  lunch, the aroma of the Nova Scotia lox and scrambled eggs and bagels  filled my room ,soon enough i was digging in .I didn't realize how hungry I was . After eating I decided to sleep a bit so I could look Fresh and agile for my "DATE" .