Four by Forever

Chapter 22: Alex Loves Sunny and Sunny Loves Alex

Third Person POV

The Next Day

Greasy_Hamster: Good morning my sun! Are you ready? I’ll be there in an hour.

SunnyBunny: Good morning too Alex, I’m getting ready

Greasy_Hamster: I’ll see you later ;)

SunnyBunny: okay :)

Alex put down her phone and checked for the nth time everything she packed and see to it that the car was in good running condition. The plan is that she’ll go to Sunny’s place early in the morning to get her and her things then they’ll drive to the countryside, hike the mountains, enjoy the nature, camp there for a night, stargaze and then go home in the afternoon of the next day. She prepared so much for everything to go as planned.

After an hour she drove to the vocalist’s place and honked the car before going out to supposedly knock on the door but Sunny beat her to it. The door opened before she could knock.

“Hi.” Alex shyly greets the woman in dress standing by the doorway.

“Hello, uhm, let’s go.” Sunny greets her with a half-smile. The action didn’t go unnoticed by the taller woman.

She helped Sunny put her things into the car.

Once they are on the way, Alex keeps stealing glances at the older woman. The air was heavy with unspoken words. Sunny is facing towards the car window but not really looking at the view outside. She wasn’t even aware when tears started streaming down her face.

Upon noticing, Alex decided to park the car to the side. Cutting the deafening silence, she started to talk.

“Should I be worried?”

“Huh?” Sunny turned to her, surprised to realize the sudden stop of their vehicle.

She is still unaware of the tears in her eyes as Alex put a hand on the side of Sunny’s face and wiped the woman’s tears with her thumb. Worry was all over Alex’ face.

“I’m sorry. This was supposed to be a fun - ” Sunny was saying as she hurriedly wiped her face, removing Alex’ hand in the process.

“No, you don’t have to say sorry and you should have said it you’re not okay with this right now. I’ll understand.” Alex’ soft voice sounded, soothing the crying woman.

Sunny looked at her. She couldn’t imagine how much understanding and caring this person has been to her. She is supposed to be the one to be relied on but she always finds herself relying on the younger one recently. She’s been out of sorts lately with her break up and her friends have always been there despite her dismissing their worries, especially Alex. She couldn’t hide it anymore.

“His flight to America is today.” She started. For the first time, mentioning about her ex.

Alex just looks at her, pained at the view in front of her yet she gave her space to continue speaking.

“I thought breaking it up and cutting him off right there and then was the best. He heeded my requests of not contacting or seeing me anymore, until his departure…

… then these past few days, I realized a lot of things. I still have a lot to say to him that I haven’t said and a lot of things I want to ask. There’s just so much inside of me it feels like it’s eating me out inside.” She croaked as the tears keep flowing again.

“What do you want to do right now?” Alex asked, not really sure if she’ll like where this conversation was going, definitely Sunny wouldn’t come with her, but she’s not the one to decide that and she doesn’t want to force her as well.

Sunny thinks hard before answering.

“I really want to go camping with you today…” She starts, looking intently at Alex as if to say it’s the truth, and it really is.

“But?” Alex continued, asking for the bigger inevitable truth.

“I don’t know; I only know that I don’t want to feel like this.” She sobbed.

“Then I guess you shouldn’t let it eat you alive inside. Let it out Mitchelle.” Alex concluded.

She knows what she is suggesting will probably mend the two’s broken relationship but she won’t be selfish.

“Then, I need to talk to him before he goes. Will you help me?” Sunny pleaded, eyes still brimming with tears.

Alex put her hand over Sunny’s. “I told you before and I’ll tell you again. I’ll always support you no matter what.”

Even if it pains me so much. I’ll help you even if it means a chance for you and him to be together again, if that’s what will make you happy.

Alex thought but didn’t say as her lips curled into a smile, masking her pain.

She then dropped her to the airport and went back to return Sunny’s things in their house. Alex thought it’d be better to let her off the camping trip altogether to sort out her problems with Jack. Then her phone buzzed.

SunnyBunny: I’m really sorry Alex and thank you for understanding. I promise I’ll make it up to you next time. I love you and stay safe

She parked the car on the side to reply.

Greasy_Hamster: Don’t mind it my sun :)) I love – 

She suddenly stopped typing.

“LOVE”

Funny how that single word mean differently between them, she thought. Sunny love her as a dear friend but the love Alex is feeling for her is more than that.

Alex loves Sunny she wouldn’t hate her even if all her efforts for the planned camping go to waste.

But that doesn’t mean she is not sad.

Alex loves Sunny that she is okay with losing even the chance of confessing to her.

But that doesn’t mean she is not disappointed.

Alex loves Sunny that she is willing to let her be with someone other than her.

But it doesn’t mean she is not hurt.

Alex loves Sunny and Sunny loves Alex.

But that doesn’t mean Sunny loves Alex as much.

So she typed instead:

Greasy_Hamster: Don’t mind it my sun :)) I’ll be okay and safe. Be careful as well.

She presses the send button then went to her contact list to call someone.

“Hey Sel, why don’t we have a bonding time. Wanna go camping, like right now?”

Then she speeds away with the broad daylight threatening to spill on the horizon.