It's dark, cold and stuffy.
Was death supposed to feel like this?
It feels like I am drowning.
It's uncomfortable.
I thought, maybe if I could die, I could be free from loneliness, pain and regrets.
If only I had known that death would be like this, I wish I wasn't dead.
If only I could return back to the past. If only I could change everything and start all over again.
"…elle…"
Huh?
"…vielle…"
Someone's calling me. Was it that bright light?
"Evielle!"
I wanted to answer but my throat hurts. Air is the only thing that comes out from my mouth.
"Evielle! Evielle!"
I tried to touch that bright light but it is too far. Should I run? Should I take the risk and go to where the light is?
Is it heaven?
"Wait," I whispered and ran towards the light. Even running in here is hard, it feels like I'm running while my feet is stuck in the mud.
Heaven.
Could I find my peace in there?
Can I see my mother the empress once again?
Thinking about meeting my mother makes my heart skip a beat.
I tried my best to go towards the bright light and it came closer and closer.
I can finally get out of this place.
When I finally touch the bright light and went inside it, it feels like I was showered with a bucket of water, full of ice that makes me jump out of the bed.
Jump out of the bed?
My eyes widen in realization and pinched my face.
Was all of that just a dream? But it felt so surreal.
My neck.
My neck is intact! Thank goodness!
"Your highness? Are you up?" I turned to look at the door and Jeanna's face came to greet me.
"Good morning princess!" She greeted and motioned the other maids that brought a basin, a towel and a soap.
I was just staring at her the whole time.
This… Why am I in my room in the Misty Palace?
Why… Why is Jeanna here?
I didn't noticed the tear that rolled from my cheeks as I was staring at Jeanna.
Jeanna… She was supposed to be dead.
People that I know who were supposed to be dead are here.
I had come back five years to the past. I had the chance to change everything worth changing.
And I swore that I would never walk the path towards the miserable future that awaits me.
I will not be the perfect princess everyone wants me to be. I'll change my destiny. I'll change the destiny of the Solaireans.
I'll change the future of this empire.
And this time, I'll live not to impress, I'll live not to live the life that anyone wanted me to have, but I'll live the life the way I wanted it to be.