To Be Loved

Chapter 3

"Okay, calm down, jealous guy. It's just a coffee with Mr. Alex. What's the problem?"

"Yeah, right, hahaha. What's the problem? My wife is going to drink coffee she's not supposed to drink in the first place with this strange man. Oh, what was his name again?" "His name is Alex Morris, baby."

"I don't f**king care what his name is." "You're the one who asked, Omar." I laughed at him.

"Don't change the topic, Mrs. Miller." "No, you need to stop your overreacting jealousy, Mr. Angry Wolf." He smiled at the old nickname she used to call him when frustrated. It reminded him of their old times. He never imagined he would love someone this much.

If someone told his old self that he would fall head over heels in love with her and that he would be frightened if she left him, he would smash this someone's face and laugh at him. She is his all; just hearing her talk and smile and the sound of her breathing calms him down and makes him feel alive and complete.

He needs to snap out of it. Now is not the time to surrender to his thoughts and feelings. He sometimes can't control his feelings and thoughts when it comes to her. He is still afraid of losing her again. It's frightening him. His jealousy is not due to a lack of confidence in her; it's due to a lack of confidence in himself. He still feels that he is not good enough for her, that someday she will realize that, and someone better than him will take her away. Despite his fears and insecurity, he won't let that happen and will keep her beside him until his last breath.

''Mr. Angry Wolf, are you still there?'', ''Yes, I am. So who is he?" He said in a calm tone, ''He is Sarah's stalker. She said with a slight laugh that she wanted to see his facial expressions now. He must look embarrassed about his outburst. She knows about his insecurity and fears of her leaving him.

''Hey, husband of mine, I will never leave you until you tell me to. You are my first love, the first touch, the first kiss, and the father of our children, and I love you so much that I cannot even think about leaving you or looking at someone other than you. Stop thinking about what happened in the past, Omar. The past stays in the past. I am not going anywhere. You will be stuck with me for the rest of your life''.

He could feel the sincerity in her voice, which wrapped around him like a blanket and warmed him up, but he couldn't stop thinking about that awful night recently, and he doesn't know why. That night, he almost lost her because of his stupidity, his lack of trust in her, and his damn anger. He could still feel her hot red blood on his hands, her body losing its warmth, and her eyes closing after a long breath of pain. His heart still aches at that memory.

Jasmine stopped walking, and, after realizing that she had reached Mr. Alex's Office, knowing what her husband is thinking about, he still can't find forgiveness in himself for something that was not even his fault or that he even did.

''Please, please stop thinking about that night; you know it wasn't your fault.", "I... I know, but I..." She cut him off, saying, "No, do not continue and listen to me, please. Do you know that if you hadn't come to rescue me that night, I wouldn't be alive or even have a new life? I'm still breathing because of you. I have a wonderful family because of you. Every damn beautiful thing I have now is because of you, after all, so don't think about the past; only think about what you and I are having right now, okay?" He didn't reply for five minutes. She thought that he would have hung up on her if it weren't for the sound of his breathing. She was sure he was thinking about her words."

''Okay, you are right; I will try to do that. Just know that I love you so much, and without you, I wouldn't change to be the man I have become now. If you think that what you have is because of me, you are wrong. Everything I have is because of you. You make me feel complete and alive. Thank you for everything, Wifey''.

She could hear her heart beating fast, even after they had been married for five years. He still can make her heart beat like she has been running a marathon and make every inch of her body vibe in a good way, and he is an i***t for not noticing that.

A long sigh leaves her lips. He hears it: '' Why the long sigh, beautiful?'', ''None of your business. ''Ouch, that's hurt, love. ''That's supposed to''. She heard him whine like a baby. She shook her head in amazement. She really married a big baby.

''أتعلم انك حقا احمق, ولكنني احبك كثيرا''*

He hates it when she speaks in Arabic; he can't understand it: ''Baby, What did you say? You know I can't understand it".

''I'm not going to say it, and that's not my problem. I told you to learn it, but you didn't listen. Bye, baby. I have reached Mr. Alex's office. '' But baby", "Bye, Omar; have a nice day, honey." She interrupts him and cuts the call off.

She stood in front of the office door and took a deep breath. She was going to knock on the door, but it was opened by Mr. Alex.

''Mrs. Jasmine, you are finally here. I was going to look for you; I thought that you had lost your way''. Said Mr. Alex with a reluctant smile.

''Don't worry, I will not lose my way, old man; have you forgotten that I studied here for a year and gave you a hard time? Oh, sorry, I have given you the best period of your life. Stop being formal. It's weird'', I said with a grin.

He shook his head when she called him an old man. He was relieved she hadn't changed and was still the same sassy and cheerful girl.

''You didn't change. That's a relief. ''Why would I? I am cool like this''. She gave him a smile full of confidence.

''OK, Mrs. Full of Confidence, come in; I have Brazilian Coffee." When she hears that he has Brazilian coffee, she gives him puppy eyes, and that makes him laugh hard at her. She will never change.

''Oh, I see you are still addicted to it, and for your information, I will give you a small amount of coffee. Put that in your mind. She whines like a lost puppy.

''Why are you so mean? If you have invited me to drink coffee, give it to me in full generosity, not in a small amount, old man. "No, I will not, and stop calling me an old man, young lady", ''You are so dead, Mr. Alex''. She said it with a scary smile.

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* You know you are an i***t, but I love you so much.