-Javier-
While I was standing here on the balcony, I was looking at the brilliant full moon while drinking a half glass of Devil's Spring Vodka. It is nearly two in the morning, and after the wedding ceremony that Amanda and I had, all of the guests who came from different groups had already left.
Despite the fact that it was the night of my wedding to Amanda, I did not enjoy myself at all during this evening. Even though I am aware that Gabriella already has a place in my heart, I still find it hard not to blame myself. I am aware that I am not to blame for her disappearance; however, I feel guilty because I was unkind to her and tried to drive her away from me, and now that she was gone, I always wanted to see her, and I longed for her. I know that I did not do anything wrong to cause
