To Make You Come Back To Me (Completed)

Chapter 9

I couldn’t calm down. I am not in the mood for anything. When I walked inside the office, everyone looked at me but no one ever dared to talk to me. I went straight to my desk to review on the files of the applicants I interviewed today.

My heart is aching as usual, but the intensity of the pain right now is excruciating. I’m praying for the time where I will be immune to this intensity of pain. I hope it comes soon before I lose my mind.

I love Justin. Of course, I do. I can’t imagine the day I won’t. Even though he’s killing me with what he’s showing me right now, I still love him. But I also realized one thing.

I don’t possibly have to be with the person I love. Sometimes, loving someone brings in too much pain that would require distance in order to save oneself from impending self-destruction. Sure, I love him but if this love would hurt me, then I’d rather let go.

He has someone else now. I guess, that’s the only reason I need to let go of him.

I don’t want to be miserable. I don’t want to love while hurting. Like I said, I’m no martyr.

My phone vibrated.

From: Nildex

Are you still in the office?

I narrowed my eyes at the text. What would I even do? Do I have to respond?

From: Nildex

Sorry. This is Marion, by the way. ;)

I felt so relieved when he said it was Marion Villanueva. Although, I can’t be so sure, I am somehow calmed. I still didn’t respond, though. What does everyone want from me?

“Are you going straight to the dinner later, Miss Eury?” Allaine asked me.

I smiled and shook my head. “I’m going home to change.” I am not comfortable with my office attire. I need to change into something more loose.

Allaine smiled. “Well, then, we’ll see you there, Miss Eury!” She waved as she got her bag and went out together with Carlo and Senna.

Harris, Francis and Kiara left earlier for the field work they are about to polish tomorrow. They all said that they would see me later.

I would. If I decided to come.

“It’s now five o’clock PM.” The digital clock notified.

I took a deep breath and started to fix my things. I am going home. There’s no need to stay any longer. My principle at work is to always go home on time. People who indulge into overtime aren’t effective for me. So, as much as possible, I am always leaving the office on time.

I was about to enter the elevator when my heart fell straight to the ground.

Inside the elevator were the Villanueva cousins and Althea Belleza. She’s clinging onto Justin’s arm like she would never ever let it go.

I looked down and stayed on my post. I am not planning on getting into one elevator with Justin and his new girl. I am fine with them being together but I couldn’t stomach being with them.

The elevator door was about to close when I heard Althea Belleza call out Justin’s name.

I looked up and was surprised to see Justin standing in front of me. He’s still wearing a black suit and his disheveled hair.

He stared at me. “Why didn’t you get in?” He asked.

I narrowed my eyes at him. “What?” I don’t know why he’s asking me these questions but I believe that he doesn’t have to ask.

He doesn’t have to jump out of the elevator last minute either.

“The elevator’s wide enough for seventeen people. Why didn’t you get in?” He asked me again. Now, more accurate.

I looked at him, trying to read his facial expression. I want to know what he’s thinking when he saw me not getting inside the elevator. I want to know what he’s thinking when he jumped out of the elevator last minute just to talk to me. But I couldn’t.

His face was still expressionless like before.

I took a deep breath before turning back to him. “Why do you care?” I asked as I rolled my eyes.

He narrowed his eyes at me. “Eurydice, when you applied to this company, you should’ve envisioned all of these things to happen. You and me inside the elevator. You and me—”

“That’s not my point.” I told him, stopping him from his words. Tears are welling up and I hate myself for being such a cry baby when it comes to my ruined relationship with Justin. When will I be able to go on without crying?

His gaze on me softened as he saw my trembling lips and teary eyes. “Eury—”

I shook my head. “My point is I still love you.” I spoke. “But I know that I don’t have to love you. I don’t have the right to love you again after all the things I have caused you.” I sobbed and damn it I want to kill myself.

He stared at me. It looks like he wanted to do something he isn’t allowed to. But either way, he didn’t do anything. He just stared at me.

I wiped the traitor tears that escaped from my eyes. “I’m hurting.” I sobbed. “My heart is breaking every time I see you with her. That should be me! I should be the one holding your hand. Not her. But what can I do? I left you. I broke your heart beyond repair.”

Damn it! Why do I have to always break down whenever I talk about my feelings for him?

I took a deep breath and smiled weakly. “But I am still happy for you. You deserve it. You deserve to have someone who would never leave you.” I told him.

He was just staring at me. I wish he would tell me what he’s thinking.

“Don’t worry. I won’t do anything.” I smiled. “I’m just going to stay away the farthest possible. After all, that’s what you want, right?”

He clenched his jaw and I could see that he also balled his fist.

I looked at him. “Why did you get off the elevator?” I asked. “You didn’t have to do that. I heard your girlfriend call you. Why did you leave—”

I couldn’t continue talking when he punched the down button really loud and strong. I swallowed as I could see anger and frustration from his actions now.

I don’t want to speak. I am scared of him.

I looked away, not minding if my question goes unanswered. If he got mad about it because of me, because I didn’t get in, then, I’ll willingly take the consequences. After all, I am the one at fault.

I must admit, I was hoping he would choose me. I am hoping that he’s doing all these because he still has residual feelings for me. Wishing. Hoping.

The elevator opened revealing Althea Belleza who’s looking so worried at Justin. She ran to him and hugged him tight. “Baby, are you alright?” She asked as she looked at his face.

I took a deep breath and tried my hardest to ignore them. I walked inside the elevator without giving them a side glance.

I’m so stupid! s**t!

“I’m fine.” Justin uttered without an ounce of emotion.

I heard Althea sigh. “I don’t really understand why you have to get off the last minute.” I could imagine her pouting right now.

Justin went inside the elevator and so does Althea. I stood the farthest space possible from them because I couldn’t stomach being in a closed space with them.

I wished for the elevator ride to be fast but Althea almost clicked each floor number and it pissed me off. I want to get off and just use the stairs instead!

“Baby, Marion said there’s a dinner tonight. Can I come?” she asked Justin sweetly.

Justin sighed. “It’s exclusively for the members of the company, Althea.” He told her sounding so fed up.

A growing feeling gets to me again. Looking at how Justin treats her makes me hope that he’s just using her to make me jealous. But no. I shouldn’t think of it that way.

Althea whined. “But I’m your girlfriend and you’re the CEO. Can’t you make it happen?” She asked while pouting.

Yes. She has the point. Why can’t Justin bring her when he’s the CEO? He makes the rules to the company.

Justin was quiet for one second before letting out a deep breath. “Fine. You can come.” He said and my heart fell. But what was I really expecting? He looked at her. “But don’t you have a session with your derma tonight?” He asked.

He even knows her schedules! Damn it!

Althea gasped. “Oh my gosh! I almost forgot about that!” She beamed and sighed. “So, I can’t come to your dinner, really.” She said sadly.

Her words comforted me. I felt like I’m relieved a thousand times.

“I’ll bring you some other time.” Justin said. “For now, you need to attend to your appointment with Dr. Lopez.” He said, trying to calm and comfort her.

Althea sighed. “Okay. You said it. You’ll bring me next time.” She said and pouted.

“Of course, baby.” Justin said and planted a kiss on her temple.

I swallowed, trying to calm myself down. Seeing him do the loving gestures to his new girl live breaks my heart. It’s very different from just hearing it from others. Seeing it live makes me feel like s**t. Seeing it makes me regret my decisions even more.

The elevator door opened and I immediately got out without looking back. It’s not even the ground floor yet but I couldn’t really stay in it for another minute. I can’t. I’m not prepared to see my world crashing in front of me. Not now.