Trapped in the secular world: A boy born in a mysterious women country

Pregnancy is so hard

After returning home, I was on tenterhooks all day, fearing that my aunt would discover my secret. I tried to wear loose clothes and acted very carefully. Every movement was like walking on a tightrope, fearing that I would reveal a flaw. I didn't dare to look my aunt in the eye. Every time I talked to her, I seemed very nervous, and my voice trembled involuntarily.

As the days passed, my belly grew bigger and bigger, and it became more and more difficult to hide. One day, my aunt suddenly stared at me for a long time, her eyes full of doubts. My heart suddenly came to my throat, and I was so nervous that I could hardly breathe. As time went by, my aunt still found that my belly was getting bigger. Her eyes fell on my belly, and at that moment, time seemed to freeze.

She soon understood everything and knew that I was pregnant. Her face showed a complex expression, with surprise and a hint of worry. The surprise was that she was about to usher in a new life, which might bring her more hope and happiness. The worry was that she also knew that the arrival of this child was not entirely my will, and she was worried that I would be unhappy because of it, and even do something extreme.

My aunt started to care about me. She would prepare more food for me and let me rest more. But I felt extremely depressed. Every time I saw my aunt's care, my heart was filled with guilt and uneasiness.

One day, I had to go out to buy food. Walking on the path in the village, I felt that everyone's eyes were on me, as if I was a monster. I met other men like me. When they saw my belly, their eyes were full of surprise and sympathy. We looked at each other, then lowered our heads silently and continued on our way. At that moment, I felt extremely embarrassed and lonely, as if I had been abandoned by the whole world.

I also thought about going home to find my parents and asking them for help. But I was afraid that they would be disappointed in me and blame me. I didn't know how to face them, so I was hesitant. Finally, one day, I ran into my former classmate at the market. He saw my belly and showed a surprised and embarrassed expression on his face. We looked at each other and then quickly looked away. At that moment, I wished I could find a c***k in the ground to get into. I felt that my dignity was completely trampled on, and my heart was full of despair and helplessness. I don't know what to do in the future, nor do I know what changes the arrival of this child will bring to my life.

However, just when I was in despair, something unexpected happened. One day, I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my stomach, and then warm liquid flowed out of my lower body. I panicked and didn't know what to do. My aunt happened to be at home, and when she saw my situation, she immediately panicked. She quickly called the village doctor. After the doctor examined me, he said that I had signs of miscarriage and needed to stay in bed immediately. This news was both terrifying and a little relieved for me. The fear was that I didn't know whether I and the child could get through this difficult time safely; the relief was that if the child was really gone, maybe my life could get back on track. My aunt stayed by my bed, her face full of worry. She held my hand tightly and said, "You must hold on, child." At that moment, I saw the concern and expectation in my aunt's eyes, and a complex emotion surged in my heart. I didn't know whether I wanted the child to stay or leave, but at that moment, I felt the fragility and preciousness of life.