My Peculiar Human Mate

3. I’m so confused

HEIDI POV

Is it possible that the girls that left here are going to suffer the same fate as the ones on the beds of those trucks? They may have called to check in, but was that purposely done to give me a false sense of security? But why? That’s what I can’t figure out. What reason do they have for pretending and lying to me? They could easily force me to do what they want... why try to trick me?

I can’t ignore what I just saw, but if that was their intention all along, wouldn’t they have killed me already? Why do they need me to be complicit, to believe them and accept them? Is this a cruel game that they like to play? There are so many questions running through my mind as I sit here with Rob. What is his part in all this? Is he even really human?

When Alex walked in, I felt this strange feeling in my chest. Betrayal. It didn’t make sense though. I didn’t know him well enough to have any kind of faith in him. Why does it hurt so much to think that he lied to me, that he’s not what he seems? It made me angry and disappointed. My emotions were confusing me, I was in a place between anger and terror.

For some reason, his presence gave me the confidence to lead with anger and throw caution to the wind. If my fate was to die here, then I at least needed to know why, to get some answers. “What do you really want from me? Where did you really take the other girls?” I demanded. Rob sighed and rubbed his hand over his face and Alex’s shoulders slumped. Not the reaction I was expecting. This would have been a perfect moment for them to reveal their true intentions.

I caught Becky peaking around the corner before she walked into the lounge where I was sitting and Rob and Alex were standing on the other side of the room. She sat on a chair opposite of me and looked at Alex. It looked like they were communicating without speaking. After a few seconds, he took a few steps forward but didn’t get too close. “Heidi, the only thing I want is for you to accept me. The girls are safe, you can call them anytime to check on them.” He assured me and I believed him. Does that make me stupid?

It didn’t make sense. My eyes saw what they saw, yet my heart was pushing me to believe him. Just because he said so. Something is wrong with me. “Those women.” He paused as he looked down at his hands. “They were victims like you and the other girls. We didn’t have the chance to save them.” I could sense he wasn’t telling me everything. He was holding back. Does that mean they weren’t as innocent as their making it seem?

How can I believe what he’s saying when it’s obvious he’s not telling me everything. “What happened to them is upsetting for all of us. Though I know it affects you more because you see yourself in them.” Becky spoke, bringing my attention to her. Tears began to slip down her cheeks. “I don’t know what to believe… I’m so confused.” My mind and heart were not in agreement.

How can I trust people... or werewolves I just met. “Give us a minute.” Alex spoke and Rob looked at me. For some reason I didn't hesitate to nod, and he and Becky left the room. “Luna, we didn’t hurt those women and I would never let anyone hurt you. Believe me. The only thing I want from you, is that you stay by my side.” I shook my head, not yet satisfied, or completely convinced that they didn’t have ulterior motives or have some blame in the deaths of those women.

What do I know about werewolves aside from the teen movies I once watched? Nothing. “I didn’t come here of my own free will. Therefore, I don’t belong here with you.” I stated and raised my chin at him even though it felt wrong to say those words. I waited for him to get angry, for him to show his true colors and put me in a cage. What I did not expect was the broken look on his face and tears in his eyes.

What he did next, I did not expect either. He got down to one knee as if he was going to propose. “I know the last thing you need is someone to tell you where you belong or who you belong to, but you’re my mate.” His voice almost cracked, and it did something to my heart. I didn’t understand how or why, but it hurt to see him so sad and vulnerable.

That’s when I realized he had got down to one knee to seem less intimidating. So, I would hear him out. That didn’t change the fact that I didn’t belong here. Or that I had been held captive for months and didn’t desire to continue being in his world. Add to that the c*****e I just saw… those poor women that didn’t belong in this world either. I’m sure they were human, like me.

ALPHA ALEX POV

Whatever progress we had made in the past few days had been washed away by today's events. “Was it me?” Logan asked pitifully. “Yes and No. I don’t think she really believed what we were telling her or at least she was downplaying it. Maybe she thought we were like those humans who pretend to be vampires?” I tried to put him at ease, even though I felt crappy myself.

Seeing me turn into a wolf had flipped a switch in her, but seeing the bodies was what triggered her the most. “I’m not sure I can live among your kind. Maybe the wolves here didn’t kill those girls, but tell me that a werewolf was not responsible for killing those women.” There was some accusation in her tone, but it also had hope. She wanted me to assure her werewolves didn’t do something so heinous.

I don’t want her to assume we were all like Holly or Michael, but I couldn’t lie to her either. “I can’t deny it, but I can tell you that we are going to seek justice for them.” Her face fell. “I think it’s best if I go back home.” Her words were whispered but I heard them loud and clear. Logan was whining like a baby at the thought of her leaving us. “Back to SoCal?” Something told me that wasn’t an option, or it’s not what she wanted.

Did that mean she wasn’t going to accept Rob’s help? I hated the idea of her leaving me but I couldn’t force her to stay with me. “I’ll figure it out. I can make it on my own.” Great, now she didn't even trust Rob. The thought of her going out there on her own had me on edge. “Tell me, how did you end up in that camp?” I didn’t want to be an asshole, but it was obvious she didn’t know how to take care of herself. “Probably because she never had to.” Logan defended her.

I knew I had made a mistake when any fear she had vanished from her face. She glared at me and pursed her pink lips. “I’ve had a really shitty couple of months. I don’t need you to remind me that I was to blame for being so naive.” She bit her bottom lip and her eyes watered, in anger, I’m sure. “I’m sorry Luna, I wasn’t trying to blame you.” I was backtracking like my life depended on it. Because it did.

How did she not see how much power she had? “Good because victim blaming is bullshit. You’re lucky you apologized because I was about to throat punch you.” She scolded me. Why did I find that sexy as hell? “Throat punch yourself now!” Logan demanded. “Bite your own tail!” I countered. “I don’t doubt you would.” I chuckled, trying to lighten the mood. “Maybe I could accept Rob’s help.” She shrugged her little shoulders.

That was better than her going off on her own, but it's not what was supposed to happen. “If you insist on leaving me, you should. Your world may not be as dangerous as mine, but it kills me to think of you out there alone. Remember that you will never be safer than you would be if you stayed with me. I will always stand between you and any danger that comes your way. Without you… my life is meaningless.” I waited for everything I had just said to sink in. It had to be enough for her to make the right decision.