The Alpha Mate's Secret

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CHRISTIAN

I should have known even for a split second that happiness doesn't last forever, even though for a second I wanted to live and be happy, it all came crumbling down, bringing me back to those dark days I had tried to avoid, to those days I wanted to die and be forgotten; to those days where I was better off alone than been in the open.

Those days of hate, sadness, and doom; those days I was lost with no hope of being redeemed, yet I was able to survive. But now I doubt I will ever be able to survive it this time.

My hands and feet kept trembling uncontrollably as he walked towards me with a smile on his face, that smile I once thought was genuine and filled with love for me, but hell! had I known it was a facade, if I had known from the onset that it wasn't love then maybe, just maybe I would have been able to escape his stronghold.

His footsteps and heartbeat were the only thing I could hear amidst the loud music and laughter being heard in the background. All my thoughts and attention were focused on him as he drew closer to me.

I could feel my heart beating fast and at the same time I felt like I was stabbed in the area by an unknown force; my lungs contracted as I was beginning to portray some symptoms of asthma.

I wanted to run away, to find a place to hide, but my legs wouldn't move. It felt so heavy to carry them. I was frozen on a spot with my eyes widened as fear was seen in them.

I gasped out when he finally stood close to me with that same smile on his face, the one I used to love and adore, which later became torment, pain, and my worst nightmare.

“Hey, baby boy… Did you miss me?”

EARLIER ON

Today was the happiest day of my life, or rather Jayden and Damien's pups' big day. They were celebrating their big four today. How time flies! I stopped in front of the big frame in front of me and I remembered when Cody and Caden were still trying to take their first baby steps and how many times they would fall and still struggle to get up to walk again. Those cute little pups are now like terrors in the house. Screaming the roof down and getting everyone trying to calm them down or clean their messes.

I wonder how something so cute could end up being something that I feared. I had become their source of joy, that each time they saw me, I wouldn't leave without having to do their bidding and when I refused them, I would become the most hated uncle in the pack as they were good at pretending and making someone look bad. Regardless, they were my favorite humans in the world.

“Cody, Caden, you both better get your asses up this moment and meet your nannies to get you both dressed or no birthday present for the both of you,” I heard Damien's voice as he yelled at them. I couldn't help but chuckle. They were probably up to one or two of their mischievous plans again. I should be helping out, but staying away from those pups at the moment will make me sane before the party. Still, I wasn't ready to be tortured by them given that it was less than thirty minutes before their big day.

I looked at my reflection one last time and I smiled at the person staring back at me. I never thought this day would come when looking at my reflection would bring me this much sense of satisfaction instead of disgust.

“You shouldn't be reflecting on those disgusting days, this is a new you and I promise that we will have nothing but good memories to erase those bad memories when I wasn't with you,” I heard Nyx through the mind link and I smiled, he was right. I've got him to help me forget about those terrible days, plus I also have someone who wants me, which I doubt he will once he learns of my past.

No one wants a broken record, he will definitely reject me once he knows of my past and the horrible things I have done and that's why I have told myself and made a promise that I wouldn't fall in love with him. I don't care if he was my mate destined to me by the Moon Goddess, my heart is the only thing that is important to me at the moment and I will make sure that I do everything to guide it.

The buzzing sound of my phone brought me out of my reverie and I hurried to the bed stand where I had kept it before going to bed. Sliding the phone open, a smile crept on my face when I saw that the one who had buzzed me was no other than Duke, my supposed mate.

I will be there in thirty minutes. I'm stuck in the mall trying to get things for the pups, and I'm confused as to what they would want. It's confusing, how do you know what pups want? Aaaahhh, I shouldn't be rambling to you when you obviously have your hands tied with responsibilities. I will get you something on my way. I miss you and can't wait to see you again.

I smiled to myself as I read the last line over and over again, it had been a month since I last saw him, and after that, he has been busy with his pack activities and also with business, and the only time we could get to communicate was through phone calls or text messages, and that's totally okay by me because seeing him always have made me crumble my resolute of not dating anyone and that would have me being stuck in between happiness and sadness for life.

“Christian, if you are free I need help with these scoundrels. They are about making me loose my senses since you are the only one they would listen to,” I heard Damien call out to me and I smiled.

Deep down I knew he was just saying that, those pups listen to no one except Jayden and Duke. I had begged Jayden and Duke to tell me the secrets but I was met with nothing but a smile from both of them.

I braced myself for whatever outcome I would experience from the exercise before heading out of my room. Their laughter and screams echoed in the living room and I shook my head before walking towards them.

“Uncle Christian!!!" they both screamed as they rushed towards me, and just as always, each of them grabbed onto my legs and requested that I walk while they held on tightly. If this was the only way to get them dressed up, I think I'd have no choice but to assist Damien who was looking tired already. He was meant to be resting since he was almost in his second trimester.

I had yelled in excitement when it was announced to the house that Damien was pregnant and was expecting a baby again. I couldn't help but tease an overly excited Jayden who had told us that he wouldn't put Damien through the stress of giving birth again. His words never left my head and that was the only thing I could tease him with and I doubt I would ever stop until the pup is born.

“Thank you, Christian. You are a lifesaver.” Damien said as we watched the duo struggle with their nannies and crying about not wanting to get dressed.

“You're welcome, sister-in-law. How are you doing, you know you should be resting?” I said to him and he smiled.

“I'm not a weakling Chris, I'm the luna of the Dark Wood pack.”

“- Luna of the Dark Wood pack," We both said at the same time and laughed at our silliness.“ Yeah, I know, Oh! Sweet sister-in-law. But you do know that sometimes you need to rest? Moreso, I don't want anything happening to my niece." I told him and he let out a grin.

“Quit calling me sister-in-law or I will be smashing your head against a wall next time," Damien threatened, and I quickly took a step back away from him, just then the door opened and Jayden walked in.

“Hey babe, hi Chris" he greeted, but his eyes never left his mate, which made me a third-wheeler in this situation, “the guests have arrived, but the celebrants aren't there. Where are they?” Jayden asked. Both Damien and I pointed to his pups who were still struggling with their clothes.

Jayden growled softly before heading towards them and with just a whisper to them, the kids were hurrying their nannies to get them dressed. I couldn't wait for the day that I would finally get the secret and have them in my control.

Soon we were in the hall. I could see my friends and my parents; Damien as well as Jayden's parents and friends too, with other guests. Everyone was happy and I should be too, but I felt distant. My eyes scanned the room but he wasn't here yet. His last message to me was that he would be here in thirty minutes, but it had been more than two hours and there was no sign of him.

I shouldn't have been worried but I was. I wondered what was keeping him; I was worried because I wasn't sure he was okay. He had become a friend, a friend I could rely on and he had come to agree with my terms of not pressuring me to be his mate, and so we decided to be friends for now until I was ready.

I was so lost in my thoughts when suddenly a familiar pheromone struck me and I could feel my lungs contracting, my airways clogged and I found myself gasping for breath as the pheromones drew closer.

My body gave way to those pheromones as it trembled in fear, every memory of my past came clouding in and for a few moments I thought I was going to die.

I could feel tears rolling from my eyes, I wanted to run away and hide in the shadows, which were my only safe place, but I couldn't; my legs wouldn't move, and neither was my body nor my brain functioning. I couldn't, even though I tried to run away from the impending danger that was drawing closer to us.

“Someone please help me, please save me", I pleaded. I couldn't find my voice at the moment when I needed it the most in my life. I had cried out with all of me to Jayden, hoping he would hear my inner voice or notice that something strange was happening to me, but the more I waited the more tensed and scared I was.

I gasped out in fear as he stood face to face with me, a few inches away from me with that smile on his lips that I hated with everything in me.

“Hey! Baby boy… Did you miss me?” he asked, I wanted to respond to him, I wanted to tell him to go fvck himself and burn to ashes in hell but instead, all I heard coming out of my lips were whimpers and his smiles grew wider as my sobs excited him.

“How I miss those sounds of yours. I miss you, my sweet baby boy… I have searched all over your old school for you when I returned and I heard you got yourself into a fight. Did you do that on purpose to hide from me?” he asked, but I remained silent, unable to speak.

“Use your words, Christian, or you will get me pissed. You know how I am when I get pissed?" He threatened, and for a moment I thought I peed on my panties; well... Maybe I didn't.

“L-L-Levi… h -h-how did y-y-you find m-m-me?" I stuttered, finding it difficult to look him in the eyes.

“Hahaha, there is no place in the world where you can run to, I'll find you, baby boy. You are mine and you are my little plaything forever,” he said as he bridged the gap between us. At this rate, I knew I was going to die if someone didn't save me, I knew it would be hard to escape from him, especially now that he knew where I was. I doubt I will be safe again. I'm back to my old life, my hell I couldn't escape from.

“Are you still a loyal doggie? Do you miss your master's touch? Because I do and I'm sure everyone does too. You know what I mean, right?” he asked as his finger grazed my lips.

This is the part where I run away to hide without looking back, this is the part where I disappear, but dammit! My body still wasn't moving. Was I going to stand still and watch him touch me? Wouldn't someone come to my rescue?

“Please save me… please help me, anybody please… please," I pleaded as more tears fell from my eyes and I closed my eyes, not wanting to feel disgusted at myself once more for not being able to protect myself.

Suddenly, I heard Levi scream out in pain and my eyes peeled open, at the same time widened in shock.

“You don't touch what's mine unless you have a death wish.”