" Where's Derek ?" I asked mum as I sat down by the side of her. She looked at me and I could see how tired she looked. It made me feel like s**t. I didn't want to make her ill or anything. I just, I guess subconsciously, I wanted her to make it all better , sort it out and let me live a life guilt free. " He's working away for a few days , listen flex tonight can you hear me out. Please " she pretty much begs. I felt guilt slap me in the face , I'd been horrendous to her. Dodging her at every turn and telling her I didn't want to talk about it. My eyes wondered at where Maya was sitting with her parents and I saw her dad looking over at us. He looked worriedly at us and it was the first time I'd ever seen him look anything but the confident man he was.
I looked back round at my mum and
