I'd stormed out of the room pretty damn quickly. I couldn't even look at them. Storming to my room, I slammed and locked the door. I was meant to be going over to Maya's but I couldn't face it. Everything in me felt crushed , I thought my mother would love me more than that. How misguided she was , love. How the f**k can that be love? She remains in a shitty situation ,after the next shitty situation, while the guy she loves and apparently loves her goes back home and lives the white picket fence life.
I couldn't stay in the house. I felt like all my nerves were firing off all at once. I felt like I could smash the place up at the same time as going into a corner and crying. And I wanted to feel neither , I wanted to feel nothing. None of it. So I snuck out of my window , but not to Maya
