(Trigger Warning, Self Harm, s****l Content)
Eva
I walked back from the library so angry I could taste it in the back of my throat, I needed to meet this woman they were choosing to give my husband his heir. I went back to my room and screamed at the top of my lungs, this was not going to happen, I needed to get pregnant and mind-link my mother, it took her almost an hour to get here but she came nevertheless. She saw how angry I was and sighed saying, "You need to calm down, Eva, what did the King do this time to have your undergarments in a bunch?" I told her about my predicament, she looked at me confused saying, "You can't get pregnant!" She waited for me to confirm what I was telling her and said, "This is bad, Eva, it has been over twenty years, I thought you were just putting it off, he legally can impregnate someone else since his son refused the throne."
I tried to hold back my tears when she said, "You will lose favor with the King if the other woman starts popping out babies, we need to fix this." I knew she was right but I didn't know where to start, what was wrong with me? She said, "Did you ever consider maybe trying with someone else and passing them off as the King's son?" I looked at her as if she was crazy and asked, "Are you mad? He will tell if the child is his or not, the King is different than random peasants," she said, "Then we need a witch to get you some sort of potion to get you pregnant, we don't have much time if they already chose someone." I nodded and she left to get it done, I was left alone in my random thoughts of paranoia, I was anxious about the whole situation when I heard the door and turned around to see my husband.
He looked at me and smiled faintly, looked stressed, and walked towards me, but I backed away slightly when he asked, "Are you backing away from me?" I didn't feel that I did it purposely, it was a natural reflex of uncertainty because I was feeling down about the situation at hand which had me uneasy and I wanted him to tell me the truth. He held out his hand for me to take and I looked at it, I didn't know if I should trust him now but my love for him won over and I gave him my hand. He walked me over to the bed where we sat to talk, he sighed and said, "It's been a rough week, so much happened when you left to visit Volterra but we will get through it," as he kissed my cheek. It wasn't enough for me, so I blurted out, "Who is she?" He smiled not hiding his emotions, he knew he was caught but said, "Now is not the time to talk about this."
I looked out the balcony door with water in my eyes, it was true, he was going to take another mate to give him heirs, I swallowed my disappointment and said, "It's fine, you can go f**k yourself or whoever else you desire." I got off the bed when he pulled my arm stopping me from walking away and said, "Eva, I need time to figure it out." I slapped him twisting his head to the side and said, "Let go of my arm, Emile, if you take that w***e to bed, I won't forgive you for this and we are over," I pulled my arm out of his grip while he licked his lip that splitter open from my ring and walked away. It hurts me to do this but I still had a semblance of self-respect, I will be the laughing stock of the Kingdom, labeled a baron Queen. He tried to link me but I blocked him out, I was going to celebrate being a baron Queen tonight, so I got two of my best friends and headed to the Pub with a few guards.
The pub was a bit different than the ones inside the Palace walls, I was out in the town around the land and planned to drink my sorrows away. We had our table, I was surprised no one approached us until I saw Prince Dai, this was his father's place, "Well, he had spent his money wisely," I thought. My mother approached me and handed me a bottle saying, "This will help, take it once you reach back to the Palace," I nodded before she left. I put it in my pocket, I didn't know if I would take it since she got it so quickly, I was surprised she found me at this place but the Palce already knew I was here if this was Mendai's Pub. The Pub was full and I was having a great time with my friends, I saw out the corner of my eye, Malric, with a few of his comrades. He was back from his trip and I assumed he was heading home to Lamira. I hated her, she was everything I was not, and although mated to someone, she still held a flame in my husband's heart.
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I returned home, and I was a little tipsy from the drinks, I guess not something a Queen would do but who cares, I will be tossed aside soon enough. I looked at the potion that my mother gave me in the bottle wondering what it would do once I took it, will it save my mating with my husband or will he still take a mistress? I was torn about this but I drank it because I convinced myself nothing would happen tonight anyway, I walked down the hall and bumped into Malric, I was shocked because I left him at the Pub, I think, and stopped him and asked, "What are you doing on this floor?" He said, "I brought a gift to the King's future mate, she will be staying with him tonight, it was an order, but now, I am heading home to my family, goodnight, Your Majesty." I pulled him to my room and said, "Tell me everything," I was no longer that tipsy.
Malric hesitated at first since he gave too much information, I guess the drinks let it slip where my husband would be tonight, he told me about the gift he was sent to get for, Lady Marabella. We argued back and forth and it dawned on me, that this was happening sooner than I thought, this is what Emile wanted to talk to me about before I told him off. This is why he looked so sad and depressed about the situation, he is f*****g this b***h right now. I was taking out of my thoughts with a slight heat in my lower stomach, a feeling of need when Malric looked annoyed, for some reason. I felt weird, I couldn't explain it so I told him, "Leave," pushing him towards the door but the pain intensified with our touches and he kissed me as his eyes glowed. I kissed back and before we knew it, we were f*****g as he had me bent over on the bed as he pounded into me from behind.
I wanted it so badly, his c**k doing wonders, I didn't care at this moment about being caught or unfaithful, I just wanted to be filled, I needed to be filled to put out this burning fire deep in my honeypot. The moans and groans were loud in the room but it was soundproof for this reason, he flipped me getting between my legs and burying his c**k deep. I clawed his back because it felt so good and I couldn't think straight, he groaned, "f**k," going deeper, my juices soaking his c**k until we both climaxed. My mind finally cleared and so did his after we stopped f*****g, I felt his c*m run out of me and I was shocked this had happened. Malric said, "Omg, no," his eyes clouded with tears, he looked at me in disgust, covered his mouth with shaky hands, and asked, "What did we do?" Before backing away from me like I was nothing, dressing, and running out of my room.
I was shocked and started crying, my mother did this to me and I quickly got in the bath, I needed to keep this from my husband. I woke up to Emile touching my face, he smiled and said, "We need to talk," honestly, I didn't care anymore, we were broken. He sat next to me and I turned to back him, I had finally given up on us because when he found out what I did, I would be banished or killed for treason, why would my mother do this to me? I understood why she told me to take it when I got home but she expected it to be, Emile, I was afraid to ask for the tea because it would get back to him, so I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. He said, "Eva, I wanted to tell you what will be happening going forward yesterday but it got heated and things got out of control." I closed my eyes drowning out his voice, not wanting anything to do with him or anyone in this Palace, I was done.
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Two Months Later
Emile
Since our talk two months ago, Eva has been distant and absent in court, she let her duties as Queen slide and honestly, I can't blame her, she hadn't left her room, not even going into the garden. That place was her sanctuary, 'her baby' if you wish to call it, I didn't sleep with, Lady Marabella, but it was customary to spend the night talking about expectations, it gives the illusion of things moving ahead. I did it with Eva but Eva thought differently, she never argued after that night, I was able to delay having another mate for at least a year, it would give me time to focus on, Eva. Hopefully, I will finally get enough time to stop the mating altogether and work on getting my son to forgive me and back home where he belongs. I heard a knock on the door and Levi walked in and said, "Eva has not eaten for two days, and nothing is staying down, Emile, they think she is with child finally, Brenda confirmed it, you need to go to her."
I got excited because this would mean no Marabella and looked at my brother, he looked happy for me but saw that I was going to do the right thing. However, I was afraid I may have lost Eva over this, I got up and he asked, "Is Brenda with her?" He nodded 'no' and I told him, "Start the meetings without me," then headed to my wife's quarters. I entered her room and she was by the window looking outside with a book in her hand, she was still in a nightgown rubbing her belly with the other one, I saw the tray still full of her breakfast from this morning again, she had lost weight but I was excited to be finally having a child with her. She hadn't acknowledged I was in the room, I touched her shoulder and she asked, "What do you want?" I sat next to her and she pulled her hand from near me, I said, "I won't be taking a mate after all with the good news," she said, "I am happy for you, anything else?" I saw the look of a broken woman, she had stopped loving me and I don't blame her but I would make her fall in love with me again.
I got up and headed towards the door, I wanted her to rest and not upset her well-being, she said, "I hate you, I wish I had never gotten in your bed, I reject you as my mate and King." I turned around because she had rejected me but never said the words correctly, a slight burning but nothing major, was she trying to scare me? She stood up in the window and I got scared saying, "Baby, step down, please, our baby," she laughed and said, "Screw you, I refuse to be shamed out of existence," before jumping out the window, I yelled, "Eva, no!!!" I looked out the window in shock, I couldn't believe that she had killed herself taking my child with her, her lifeless body on the ground with pools of blood surrounding her, I screamed in pain feeling the bond break, I breathed heavily and then I passed out. I woke up to servants in and out of the room, I saw the healer and they all looked at me sadly before bowing. My brothers rushed in and the look on their faces told me that it wasn't a dream, my actions led to the death of my Queen and unborn child.