My Best Friend
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Her name is Rose ♡ ,her beauty justifies her name. I've had crush on her as far as i remember back when we were kids.
I can't pin point exactly when but all i know, i never had eyes for anyone else than her. We know each others every single secrets and details.
Despite our promise to never hide anything from her , There's this thing about me being gay she doesn't know.
What would i even tell her ? That "Umm rose I'm gay and I've crush on you" Or like " Do you know some people are attracted to same gender and i fall on it"...Puffff..... I blow my imaginary bangs.
In last two years I've practiced coming out to her thousands times Infront of mirror but whenever we were together i never realised when day turned into night , by only me admiring her beauty.
Her non stop chattering while i patiently listened , holding my chin with both hands. Doing small things like homework, grocery shopping and being her fashion advisor.
Sometimes i feel like we're old married couples whose love has crossed something wise beyond physical romance.
She can hug me whole day while Moping how bad her exams went, or lay her head on my lap complaining how rude were her mom's words when she asked for 'just 50 dollars'.
I would laugh or cry whole day with her and wouldn't complain a single thing because spending my every second of day with her is pure blessing.
It all came crashing down when she began to date that creepy looking guy who was equally popular as my bff in school. Students began to ship them as perfect match which would annoy hell out of me.
I have fired atomic bombs at their direction thousand times inside my imaginary world or blending them in mixer......creepy, i know but what can i do when my heart's on fire.
I cried thousands of times at night listening to "Cry me a river" by JT, my pillow has been wet like a lot in non romantic way. I even got a big size of his picture posted inside my closet to hit pointed darts on him.
Rumors spread soon like a plague to me that my bff is officially in a relationship with that donkey. And to make it worst she's asking advice and tips for their first date.
"Come on Alex , tell me what should i wear ? I want to look perfect tonight " She says throwing piles of clothes from her closet , whereas i just kept neatly folding them while she kept blabbering about that donkeys perfect looks....blah...blah...blah
"Are you even listening to me ?" She asks looking at me intently, her slender hands perfectly set in her hips. Her brows lifted up a little as her lips pout out of annoyance.
Damn she looks like a model right now. I can't believe my gay heart, she's about to go on a date but here I'm checking out her like a pervert.
"Y....yes...umm.... I'm " I said stuttering. She huffs saying "No you're not. If you were you'd answer when i asked 'do you think i can kiss perfectly' ? you said nothing. You kept folding that damn clothes"
She says tearing up a little which breaks my heart. Although she's going to waste her precious 1st , she's still my bff I can't see tears in her eyes.
I wipe her tears and make her sit in bed. "Rose you're perfect without even trying. You always have been and you'll always be. He's gonna like everything about you because you're so likeable.
Even kids follow you in malls whenever we go shopping and when I hold them somehow they puke" That makes her laugh as she wipes her nose with tissue.
"Making love or being intimate is not something you plan babes. It just happens and you need to live the moment. Even if you mess up , time n on you'll get better. I'm sure he has lots of practice. You'll be just fine"
I say turning my face opposite hers in disgust, imagining my crush having intimacy pierced my heart in more ways than i could ever imagine. She holds my cheeks in her hands, looking adorably "If he has practice then it's only fair that i should have one too"
She says excited , making my heart stop in unbearable pain. She's gonna have practice ..!! with some random dude now ...Noooooo. I scream mentally inside but my words get stuck in my throat.
"Say something I'm asking for advice Alex. I should have practice too right ?? Would it be wrong to be prepared " She asks so innocently that my head automatically nods in agreement.
Why am i so whipped. I curse myself thinking how stupid i sound agreeing on my bff's stupid suggestion.
"Yeah you should. So how are you gonna practice having a date and intimate moment. I don't think some random dude will just fake a date and romance without actually trying to take advantage of you rose" I say staring at ground, wishing it would swallow me.
"Why would i need a random dude when i have you buttercup ?" She says winking at me while my eyes snap up at her looking surprised.
"Me ?? You mean in real ? dates , intimacy ??" I ask feeling flustered. I'm sure she can see me all red as tomato in this moment because i can feel all warm blood rushing in my cheeks.
"Yeah you Alex. Just look at you, all adorable and attractive. You're just girl physically but your style and mannerisms can surpass a gentleman.
Have you ever noticed girls drooling over your attention towards them and boys being all jealous of you whenever you talked with their girlfriends" She says circling around me while tracing her fingers on my shoulder.
"And you being my date I'll be all carefree and confident that I'm being treated right. You'd never take advantage of me plus you'll correct my mistakes , Awesome right ?" She asks all happy happy.
"Yeah right" I saw scratching my head , feeling shy. "So my date , I won't go out with you unless you ask me. Now be a proper gentle- women and ask me out" She says pointing on ground.
I instantly get what she meant because she always dreamed of someone purposing her on their knees, she likes filmy props. So i get on my knees , hold her right hand in mine , kiss her knuckles gently that makes her blush a little.
"Miss. Rose Conner will you give me the honours to take you out on a date tonight?" I ask her because her actual date is tomorrow.
She smiles cutely nodding her head "Better than i imagined. Yes, i will go out on a date with you Miss. Alexandra Miles " she says making me stand on my feet hugging me in joy.
At least I got a chance to date her, Something is way better than Nothing. Even if it will break my heart later.
- Writer
