Chasing His Ex-Wife

Chapter 4

It felt as if a bucket of cold water was poured on my head. While I was overwhelmed with pregnancy, Christian was preparing for our divorce. It was stupid of me to think that Christian would want to keep our marriage for as long as he can.

To be honest , I was just trying to push this divorce out of my mind. Not wanting to think about it anymore, not when there is a little one growing in my belly.

Why would he want to stay in a marriage with his ex-girlfriend's little sister?

“I have decided to ask Stella out for a date.” He said with a dreamy smile and I tried to keep my tears at bay. No amount of love that I had given this man could ever replace Stella's place in his heart. “We have been meeting a couple of times but it was just for work. Now that we are finally getting a divorce, I want to get back with her.” He said with casualty and I smiled at him.

He explained even though there was no need for that, considering that I was just her substitute and nothing else. Each word that left his mouth felt like a knife twisting in my gut and Christian seemed pleasantly oblivious to my pain.

“Eager, aren't you?” I said with a smirk, mentally clapping my back because my voice did not wavered from the inner turmoil that I was experiencing right now.

“Eager for getting rid of you, sweetheart or eager to get my love back?” He asked with a smirk of his own as my heart began to sink.

“Maybe both?” I asked instead.

“yeah. Maybe. I have waited way too long to make stella mine again. I don’t want to lose this chance for anything. ” He said softly. “anyway, what were you going to tell me?” He asked.

I am pregnant with your child, Christian.

I wanted to tell him that but now I know that I can't. Not when he is so happy with our divorce. I can't just force him to stay in this marriage. I can't do this to him. He deserved to be happy and obviously he was not happy with me.

“I'll be moving out of this country next week.” I told him. Though that is half lie but it is not untrue . Right at this moment, sitting in front of him seeing how happy he is , I realised that I will never have a place in his life again.

“Suddenly?” He asked almost like a whisper, his eyes wide and I let myself believe that my absence would have at least a little bit of effect on him, which I knew was not true.

“Yes. My company is collaborating with another company and few of the employees will have to go there for this project.” I told him what I know. Though I had initially decided that I don't want to go there but right now this option looked more fascinating.

“Good luck then.” He said at just that moment his phone began to ring and the name Stella began to flash on the screen. A smile came on his face , a smile that was reserved for stella only . I looked away while Christian hurriedly stood up. “Bell, look I need to go. I am meeting Stella.” He said and I just nodded as he gathered his things. He was about to leave when he stopped and looked at me for a moment as if he wanted to say something but I spoke instead.

“You should go. Don't want to keep Stella waiting.” I urged him and he just nodded before walking out of the cafe , leaving me sitting alone wearing his favourite colour. My heart broke into a million pieces as I watched him go. He didn't look back at me even when he stepped in his car and I knew that this will be the last time I am seeing my husband.

…….

“Are you sure about it?” Ava asked me as she folded another dress of mine before placing it in a bag. I will be moving out next week. There is not much to pack since I just moved out of Christian's house a few weeks ago. All I had in my rented apartment with ava were just few necessities.

“Never been this sure in my entire life.” I told her and it is the truth. “All my life people have made decisions for me, including my marriage and this is the first time I am willing to take this decision on my own.”

Ava bit her lips before looking back at me. “Don't you think that he should know that you are carrying his child?”

“I know he should but what will happen after that?” I asked instead. “He would think that I am trying to trap him by using a pregnancy card. Or he will try to keep this marriage, trapping both of us in this unhappy life.” I told her. “It's better this way. He gets to live his life with Stella and I get to live mine with my baby.”

“I hope that you don't regret this later on.” Ava muttered as she sat on the bed beside me, her arms circled around me as she placed her head on my shoulders.

“I hope so too.” I whispered more to myself than to her.