life story of a girl @different thoughts @struggle behind her sadness

a girl named lovely who was born in a small town and her parents joined her in a school well she was so lazy and not able to get up on time so her mother was so punctual and wakes her up as well as help her to do all the daily things to go to school eventually when she reached on time so she goes to an assembly where all the students were lined up for the school prayer so she will join and participate on the activities joyfully because on that we all are naive and believe that something good was going to happen on our school days. when she goes to class she got to know some friends and on that time we all are not mature enough to know how all can behave right so she sat and listening to the class which she doesn't like the studies and also she was an angry bird.on our childhood days where the teachers would assume like students shouldn't sit in the same place everyday that they need to change and introduce themselves to the new ones everyday. our school has some rules to come to school on time, wear uniform,polish shoes and to speak in English. describing our school it has a large playground and they were tuitions and we have some sports programs as well as raising funds etc. actually in our school we have a church it belongs to Christian community they used to run inn. like everyday she has a fresh mind and she is also a messy girl that one day she got her books all down and their neighbours were searching her because she didn't reach her house on time atlast they found me and take me to the home by searching all my books around. In my home I have a sibling named preethi and my parents were so strict my father was so disciplined and was so serious about my studies like all parents they also care about our grades compared to my sister I will get a lower grade because I am not into studies so much. on that time we don't have so much money so my father was doing business to earn some money and my mother was an housewife. they used to care us love us but at some point I felt I was so scared of my father because he was so strict and they were rules. I have so much anger and also I am weak in studies so my mother put me in a tuition so that I will get good grades in my exams as usual I was a lazy girl sometimes I used to bunk the tuitions and play in the ground. In my life one day in my class a boy named Ayan sat after me because my teacher changed our places as usual. we both will fight like hell and don't like each other forcefully we used to sit on the same bench and listen to all the classes. he used to irritate me and he hated me a lot. one day my sister and me bunk a tuition and go to her friend house to ride a bicycle so she started to ride then we started enjoying but a stone has came in the middle then we fell down In that situation I am so old enough to handle it that my sister was hurt her chin and the blood in her mouth we felt trembling and went to the house then my mother called to my father to take my sister to the hospital then the doctor has stitched and give her injections and her reaction was so funny because she was so frightened of injections and used to run here and there eventually we got her given all the predictions at last we went home. After as usual parents will scold the elder ones why you guys don't went to tuition and go somewhere to play afterall we will act like we understand and will go to bed. our tuition teacher was so tough to handle she used to twist our ears and it will cause a lot of pain to handle. we want to our tuition on that day I was not concentrating on her class and talking to some other person then she got angry and came to me asked me explain what I have said now then I was speechless then she scolded me yesterday you were not there and today you are disturbing the other students is this way that you behave and she twisted my ear so eventually I have cried and went home. my mom was not happy on my grades because I used to get lower grades so she came to my school and used to talk with all the teachers. myself was so cunning and acted like I was so disciplined but In reality it was not my character. my father will come lately because he used to work hard and I love my father obviously I would afraid of him don't know the reason but he was a tough person to handle. I have so many friends in school we used to gather around and play around. In childhood we used to play hide&seek,see saw and more activities. one day at school in class Ayan and I got quarrelled and he poured me the water and also I have done same because we both hate each other but after that we will forgot what was happened on before day that was the speciality of our bonding. Ayan was also not so good in studies I used to improve some what apart from failure because my mother after when I have reach home she was my teacher and she helped me with my studies if I was sleeping she used to beat me with the belt and pinch my thigh not so hardly because now I don't remember the feel so I am thinking then I have started studying.In exams I will help Ayan to see my paper because he was also my friend no matter how many battles we have fought but still at the corner of our hearts know that our bond was strongest. on our holidays we used to go to grand father house and enjoy a lot on sleeping with your relatives on that time the bond was so different there were no phones and no tensions life was so joyful my grand maa will love us unconditionally she will make the favourite dishes that we like and used to bath us. old days were so beautiful and fantastic experience with all those memories. now a days was typical to stay close to each other they were lot many options. generations were passing but I think that phase was so memorable to me. my father was used to picture us and makes an photo album on that time my sister and myself have quarrelled to see first and after going to bed we used to fight then I have took my sister chain and pulled so on that time it got broken she used to cry but I was laughing that I have done a great job. actually I used to hate Ayan so much for his behaviour towards me compared to other girls. you know he behave like he was so cool and humbled as well as he used to talk to other girls very nicely apart from me. I used to feel jealousy because I liked him. seriously I didn't know the meaning of love at that time but I fell for him. my mother and his mother were friends they both talked during the lunch period when they used to bring us lunch.I have one more friend named Alie but I don't like her that much I used to know her because of my father's friend daughter and her sister as well as my sister were classmates.in the bench we have three members Ayan was first second was me and third was Moni I used to talk with Moni so much but I have studied until fifth standard so I don't her contact after when I left but she is my true friend. one day I have took my family album to the class so Ayan took that and see my pictures and started cracking jokes at me but I used to enjoy them like silent love. in the serious class when teacher was so busy in her work Ayan and myself was pretending as studying and he used to talk to me and crack a jokes so we used to laugh at that time teacher saw us and gave a punishment to kneel down and touch the legs some huge one which I can't remember exactly on that time she used to beat us with a stick and Ayan cried. I have also done the same not willing but I am afraid and I also hurt but not cried. after that you know on that time we will wait for a bell ring and go on time and do our activities so we are so innocent and not so broad minded to worry about the future. on one fine day the rain has came so we used to walk because I didn't bring bicycle on that day so I thought to walk on the way and he also started walking towards me and the car came suddenly in the middle of the road and throwed the mud water into my dress so he started laughing so hardly because I have remembered till this date. we used to live in the same village and I used to remember his house till now. I don't whether he knows or not. I have loved me a lot on that time apart from knowing that he hated me. those were the little memories I have been remembered and sorry I forgot to mention that there was one more member in my house was my dog I have loved her so unconditionally she is so attached to me her name was tiny. everyday how many problems no matter I have faced when I go to home and see her I will forgot all my fears and tensions she was like my best friend and we used to sit each other she didn't talk to me but she was like my second mother.