Secrets That Kill

2. ISABEL

ISABEL’S POV

I was very careful not to be seen. I needed to be careful so that I would never get caught. This is the wrong thing to do but I am in love and I can't fight this feeling anymore.

When you are in love, you have to risk it for the person that you truly love. After all, it is love, only love that will take our loneliness away. Nothing else.

“Got yah!” Eric gushed as he hugged me tightly from behind leaving me scared a bit.

“Don’t ever do that, you have scared me,” I told him after catching my breath and looking around to ensure that we were not on someone's radar.

I was so careful to come at this side of the library at this very time so as to meet with him. He didn’t have to scare me for he would blow my cover and we have been hiding this for the longest time.

I am not a bad b***h. I never intended on hurting my best friend. it's just that, love happened.

“Come on, stop beating yourself up about this. No one would know, we are here, just the two of us. Plus, if Maggie finds out, then she will break up with me and that will give us a chance to be together.” Eric convinced me.

"No, please don't say that. I don't want to lose my best friend,"I shrugged.

"Come on Isabel. I love you," Eric said this and kissed me on the forehead.

“Are you sure?” I really didn’t want to f**k things up with Maggie. The last thing I ever wanted is her finding out about the affair I had with his boyfriend.

“I am sure, hey, be calm. I love you okay, I won’t do anything to hurt you, trust me,” He assured me and I gave him a nod.

It was long since we met and I was happy that he had texted for us to meet up. God knows how much I miss him. I love the way he kisses and teases me.

Yes! I want it all today.

“What about the librarian?” I asked looking around. It was on a Friday afternoon and she was in. Anyway, it was to our advantage, she is all alone in our vast library. She would never catch us even if she tries to. First because she is all alone and second is because she trusts me.

Every single person in this school thinks that I am that perfect girl. I have a good friend, I dumped my ex because he was not good for me. They think that I have it all but that is not true. I am the most clueless person ever when it comes to my life. I can have good grades, I can make good decisions but when it comes to my life choices, I can't anymore.

I have beat myself up about this for this long and at this point I am just like f**k it. I am a teenager and I am going to do what I think is right and also do what makes me happy.

Edgewood High has the biggest library in the region and Eric was fond of this spot. Rows away in the library, just at the corner, is where we normally meet to kiss and make out. No one would know.

I had faked being sick to be here with him. He had sneaked in. He is too naughty to be tamed and well, I like that about him. He makes our love so magical. It is as if I am out of this world.

“Come on, she will never come here,” He winked at me and I gave him a small smile.

“You look so pretty,” He told me looking me straight in the eyes as his hand traced my lips.

“Really?” I loved him repeating that to me. I love hearing him tell me all those nice words.

“Yes, you are so pretty Isabel, I should have met you before her, I love you so much,” He leaned in close and whispered this to my ears, word by word and this sent electric shivers through my body.

The way he talks alone made me feel the hairs of my skin rising. He had a deep soothing voice and that is why he is the head captain of the journalism club. Everything about Eric turns me on.

“Are you going to tell her about us?” I asked him just to be sure. This has been my biggest fear. I don’t want to lose my best friend Maggie. I love her and I cannot imagine life without her. I guess this means that I have to cook up lies so that she would never know that I am screwing his boyfriend behind her back.

“You know I can do that even right now. I want you. Only you, I don't really care about Maggie.” He gave me all the assurance that I needed but still it was not sitting right with me.

“I love you too Eric, I guess we should give it sometime, I will tell her about us when I am ready,” Well, I was not going to lose my best friend now, not now. I will tell her soon enough. I just have to look for a perfect time to do that so that I can keep the two of them.

“Too much talking about her, let us talk about us,” Eric got bored.

“What is there to talk about?” I pretended to be interested in the talk yet I knew for sure what he wanted us to do.

“This,” He whispered briefly before his lips captured me in a kiss.

I kissed him back immediately because he was my first lover. His fingers running through my hair and the way our lips touched made me know that he is the man I want to be with.

Eric didn’t waste more time, he opened my blouse with a lot of urgency and before I could even blink, he started sucking my n*****s making me feel a million tingles of ecstasy flowing through my body.

I gave a throaty moan and this made him chuckle a bit. He knew that I was ready.

Lifting my skirt up and making me sit in front of him was the next thing that was done. Thrust after thrust, I felt him inside me. Every pump he made, made me love him, even more. I know I am f*****g my best friend’s boyfriend but I can’t help it.

I love Eric so much and I guess when I am ready, I will tell Maggie about this.

Soon, we reached our c****x and I had to button up my blouse.

“You are so sweet,” Eric told me as he watched me dress up.

“I really feel guilty,” I reminded him. I just couldn’t get it out of my head that I was actually doing this to Maggie after everything we had been through.

“Come on, I thought we talked about this,” Eric reminded me.

“Yea of course,” I gave him a small smile.

“Okay, go now, we will meet later. I love you okay,” He kissed me on the forehead before he allowed me to leave.

I didn’t have the time to tell him that I loved him too. I was too guilty to even breathe.

“Hi Mrs. Rose,” I greeted the librarian who was deeply engrossed on the monitor of his computer.

“Hi Isabel, did you get a good book to read?” She knew that I loved reading thanks to me coming here on Fridays.

She really didn’t know what she was talking about, did she?

“Yes ma’am, have a nice afternoon.” I said politely.

“You too Isabel,” She said this as I picked my monkey bag.

Pushing the glass door, I walked out of the library just in time to bump into Lucinda.

“You are still seeing him? Don’t lie, I can see the glow on your face,” Lucinda was the only one in the squad who knew about me and Eric.

“Can we please not talk about it?” I pleaded with her.

“There you are guys, we have to talk about something,” Maggie showed up in a minute.

“What is it?” I asked her. I was guilty, the feeling never seemed to fade.

“We have to talk. I am calling Veronica and Becca. We really have to talk,” Maggie insisted and my heart dropped. Why is she calling the entire squad? Has she found something about me and Eric?

As if reading my mind, Eric walked to us, we were standing right outside the library.

“Hi baby?” Maggie kissed him on my watch.

Lucinda stared at me and she was telling me to do something about this.

“Can we hang out?” Eric asked her.

“No, I have just called for a squad meeting. We need to talk. There are some things going on that are not cool. I have to get to the root of it,” Maggie made it clear.

Maggie always knew how to put herself together.

She might have known of the cheating and she wants to confront me in front of the rest of the girls. This is bad, I can’t lose my squad.

This is really bad.