6. BECCA
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BECCA'S POV
I wanted to catch up with Ronnie so that we could go home together but then I saw her with Lucinda.
Oh boy, I am on my own again.
Ronnie was the only person I was close to ever since I joined Edgewood High. She was actually the one who introduced me to Isabel's squad. Anyway, since I am a shy girl, I have not been able to get close to other girls yet.
Lucinda of late has been close with Ronnie and it made me jealous. I was lonely because of her. Right now I should be hanging out with Ronnie but she ruined that for me. I low-key hate her.
I took the opposite lane from where they were heading to and this landed me in the school field. The school bus was ready to go and I hopped in.
The boys sat at the back of the bus. I really wanted to avoid them but I couldn't just find a front seat.
The only empty seat was next to the school bully Bryce Walker.
Shrinking myself, I sat next to him and crossed my fingers that he would not bother me.
Anyway, he is not called a bully for no reason. Immediately I sat next to him, Bryce started bothering me.
"Cute thighs," He wanted to rub my thighs that were showing under my blue skirts but I quickly moved a bit.
"A virgin, huh? Tell me that you have never been touched before," He said this loudly and the boys at the back started laughing at me.
As soon as they did, I held my fingers into a fist and hoped that this would contain my anger. I wish that I could be Wonder woman at this time so that I could fight them without fear.
"Come on, let me touch them," Bryce tried to hold my thighs once again but I couldn't take it. I quickly stood to my feet and ran off the bus.
The sound of the boys laughing at me as I ran was enough to get tears forming at the slit ends of my eyes. I felt so much abused. If I could only fight for myself.
This ordeal made me remember her. I had promised myself not to ever think about it but of all days, this is the very day that I remember her the most.
I remember her sweet kisses when she reassured me that everything would be okay. If I could only go back in time…
I fastened my pace along the grass field hoping to make it home in time. My house is forty five minutes away if I go on foot and I wanted to go there before darkness started kicking in. My dad paid for me to be using the bus but the kind of treatment I had been getting for the past one week made me ditch the bus.
I was never going to compromise anything that would take away my peace. I better be weary during the night but at least I had a calm heart.
Ronnie was the only person I mentioned to about my bus situation but it turns out that she has forgotten all about that already. I am lonely for sure. If Ronnie is the only person who cared about me yet she forgot something that meant so much to me, then she doesn't really think much about me as I had anticipated.
Making new friends is really hard. I wish that I was closer to some other girl in the squad. I have always looked up to Isabel. I wish that I could be closer to her. Closer than she is to Maggie.
But, is that going to be possible? Of course not. Maggie and Isabel had been friends since 3rd grade. They are the best people to define friendship goals and everyone in Edgewood High knew that.
I was happy when I moved to this town a year and a half ago. Please don't get it twisted. I found love. Deep true love. I was so happy with the love of my life till life happened and I lost her abruptly.
Fuck! I hardly think about it. I should stop now before I get emotional and angry at the same time.
Darkness was soon approaching and it did not bother me much. It is not like my dad was going to be home anyway. My dad was a cop and he is rarely home. This leaves me with so much time to be on my own and this s**t is lonely.
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I took a cold shower once I was home and changed to my pajamas. My nanny had left some food for me in the fridge and all that I had to do was to warm the food.
In solitude, I ate my food as I went through my social media page. I got caught up in celebrities pages trying to pretend that they made me happy but they didn't. They all slapped me with the fact that my life is boring and that it sucks.
I decided to do a little bit of journaling and that is when I found the letter. How long has it been here though?
Dear Becks,
I love you so much. I can't handle what am feeling anymore. I want you to move in with me. Please, I am willing to give up my family for you. You are the only person that matters to me.
Yours, Jane Knight.
As soon as I read the note, tears started streaming down my face uncontrollably like water from a faulty tap.
I bit my lips hoping the pain would go away but it didn't. The pain made me feel as if gasoline had been spread all over my heart and then someone set fire on it. The pain was unbearable. The pain was like an evil monster eating me alive.
I wished that I could hold her. I wish that I could kiss her once again. It kills me even more to admit that she died because of me.
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