Secrets That Kill

4. LUCINDA

LUCINDA’S POV

I had plans with my boyfriend whom I was secretly seeing this weekend and now that the girls had something planned for us, I had to tell him in advance. I did not want him to feel like I am ignoring him. I have to make it up to him. My boyfriend is the needy type and since I understand where he is coming from, I was going to do all it takes to make him feel comfortable and wanted.

“Should we ride together?” I did not know that Ronnie followed me closely after recess.

“Yea, sure,” I told her and we walked to my car.

“I don’t want my dad to pick me up anymore,” She confessed as she fastened her seat belt after sitting on the co-driver’s seat.

“But why? I thought that this is a good thing,” I told her.

“No, I don’t want my dad to know that I am weak. I am not weak, I am okay now,” Ronnie explained as she bit her lips to stop tears from falling from her eyes.

“Veronica, don’t do this to yourself, you don’t have to act strong,” I advised her as I skillfully reversed the car.

“I am not, I have to accept that she left us, and that is it,” She said in a small whisper and I felt sorry for her.

Losing a mum was the toughest thing to happen to someone especially when they are teenagers and that is what happened to Veronica.

Six months ago, Veronica lost her mum in a greasy accident. She was high when driving and that killed her. She did not come out of wrecked car alive.

Veronica has been beating herself up about this and what I really wanted for her is to heal. She has to come to terms that she was not responsible for any of this.

This really hurt Veronica and also his dad, Mr. Lowry. His dad had to be there for her and that is why he kept driving her from and two school every day. Mr. Lowry had to play the role of both mum and dad as the two of them looked for ways to heal from the loss.

Veronica thinks that she was the one who pushed her mum to start using drugs because of the strained relationship that they had and I don't think that is true. The truth is that her mum made the decision to be high and that is not her fault.

We were always there for Ronnie and she knows that we are her sisters. Our parents are also her parents. She is closer to Becca more and Becca is really trying her best. My girls and I are also stepping in.

We are her best friends forever and always. We will always be her support system and therefore she has to count on us.

“Ronnie, you have to talk to me, I know that I have not gone what you have gone through but most importantly I am here to listen and to help where I can,” I told her.

“It is just a lot, let me not lie. I see her everywhere in the house. My dad is always working and I am alone. I miss her so much,” Ronnie broke down and started sobbing.

I didn’t say anything further. I watched her cry till she let her anger out. After that, I parked the car by their place and I asked her to follow me.

I was going to spend this day with her. She needs me more than ever.

“Are you serious? “Ronnie asked me after I told her that I was going to spend the night. I had called my parents earlier and they agreed for me to stay over at Veronica’s.

“Of course, I will always be here for you, you don’t have to worry about being alone,” I assured her as I pulled her into a tight hug.

“Thank you Lucinda,”

Ronnie calmed down eventually and we were in a good mood once again. She had suggested that we should cook dinner and that is what we did for the next one hour.

We talked about many random things. However, since we were starving, we decided to have dinner of course leaving some for his dad.

After dinner, I grabbed some ice cream in a bowl for the two of us and we went back to her room. We watched our favourite series Blood and Water before she fell asleep.

Ronnie had truly gone through a lot. I am happy that I am here for her.

I covered her well with a grey blanket before I walked downstairs. I had heard his dad come in.

“Where is she?” Mr. Lowry asked me.

“Asleep,” I mumbled.

“I am glad to hear that.” He arched his lips upwards.

“The girls and I will not be around for the weekend, we have to counsel our plans, “I told him.

“Come on Lucinda,” He nagged and this showed that he really needed me.

“Okay, we will make love tonight. Okay? I hope that will make you feel better baby,” I told Ronnie’s dad whom I have been seeing for months now. This is my secret and I intend to keep it that way forever.

“What about Veronica?” He asked drawing his eyebrows up.

“Then we meet next week,” I chuckled.

“Okay tonight,” He moved close to me pressing his lips against mine making sweet shivers run through my body.

No one is perfect, dating Ronnie’s dad is my imperfection I guess.

Everyone has a secret they keep from everyone. I know he is older, but he makes me happy. I love it here. I love being with him.