Akira
Later that night I decided it'd have to stop, whatever it is. Never in my life before had I felt a sentiment with such vehemence. It scared me to the core, I've no idea how to to deal with it.
Not at all.
And not knowing is worst.
It's terrifying.
Most of all the hurt it inflicted was unbearable.
The pain was burning.
Oh, it was too much to handle.
If it wasn't for Syd, who noticed my discomfort that night and asked me leave, I'd have had a full mode panic attack right then and there. That's when I felt depth of this attraction. I realized he is really no good to me. I have to stay away from him if I want my sanity with me. I acted upon it, obeying my conscious mind not my heart.
Never in life before my heart ached more.
The whole next week I have been successful in avoi
