Chapter 12
Derek…It’s Nick. Your Nicolai…
Don’t abandon me. Oh, please, don’t check out of this world without me. The doctors say that you’re responsive, but somehow refusing to come around. Can you hear me? Derek, can you f*****g hear me? Are you lost in the silence? Are you wandering in the darkness? I’m here. I’m right here, baby. I can’t let go of your hand. Can’t leave this chair. Your eyes move under your lids. Are you here with me? God, Derek, f*****g say something. Open your eyes. I can’t be here in this world with you. You’re the beauty. You’re the promise. Nothing I ever did meant anything if I couldn’t share it with you. Every grand scheme I ever schemed. Every dream I ever dreamed. They were to impress you. To keep you at my side. I just didn’t know it until I walked into thi
