Bonnie “I don't understand.” He's just thrown a major curve ball at me and I have so many things I want to say but at the same time, I feel speechless. “I thought you… you didn't want me as your mate?” He runs his hand through his hair before letting out a long sigh. “It was never that I didn't want you as my mate. It was never personal to you, I just didn't want a mate full stop. Well, I wouldn't allow myself to. It's all so complicated." He lets out a huff of frustration seeming to match the frustration that I feel inside of me. "It's complicated how? I don't understand?" He has to explain this because there's no way I can figure it out alone. "Do you remember how I said that Lottie's arrival was not your usual story?" I nod. "Well, her arrival and my whole complicated mate situation