getting to know me?

The Man I Am To Be?!?! here we are 17.....................................

Here I am wild, and rambunctious, but still a simple man strong as strong can be by all means. For I might be 17, the worst of my life is now behind of me. You shall not weep mother, you dare not cry father, it is my brother's lie that made me want to die! "ME" 7 years old getting split like an upside down "Y" as I fall in fear for 9 straight years, Laying with me most every night, some how deep inside, I know I mustn't cry, as I know he sleeps nice in his lie winking at me because mother makes him right. For I am a young man who has been alone since 6 and raised himself down by the sticks. I must move on, but must I keep going, yet the sun rises all that's ever showing. my life is here, just about anywhere, nobody is here none on my side, except the voices in my mind. One night i did what's right protecting moms life from her husband who has a sick mind alright till I had to run out of sight he went hunting me that night. Though I'm 17, as lost as can be my friends mom is the only one to find me locked and loaded save my life, and instantly I forget everything insight. I am a 17 year old man but more is to come that I understand. At my friends house mid of breakfast my best friends mom say " Hey son .. How was your night?" as I begin to cry my best friend insures me it's all alright. He lifts up my head and says " welcome to a new life, but more importantly welcome to the family we'll never leave your side" in an instant I drop to one knee and ball historically. " I have never been able to say I have a family" I tell my brother under my breath. knowing that now I can go get good rest ton of weight off my chest. Still 17 years of my life and finnaly it was done no more restless nights, no more fear to close my eyes, most of all no more of a lonely life. For I was lost for now I'm found by a loving family in this small little town. I sit back in a chair and and think to my self wow I am really here. Finally I am home and off of that dirty broke down road. This is new to me but however here you live with respect, honesty, and integrity, if not you get whooped until your beat. Step outside and light my smoke while the boys all laugh and start joking that cigarettes kill you faster. One time worried hoping to just make my new mom happy..." Good night mom" I said, as mom says " I love you son, sorry for what you have gone through. but now you got a crazy family that she never wants to meet"... quicker than ever, I say " I hope to one day find a woman as strong as you, because to deal with me, she must be strong and powerful, while being able to coddle me goodnight" as mom agrees I clearly state "you have helped me more than I can believe, but now I can rest Knowing we're all nice and safe, this is my family ain't no better place".!

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