getting to know me?

The widdow with in me. at least I got to know the real me at 17, and found true meaning of family, but I'm the darkness youd see

Ahh, Family I have finally found mine at 17. This feeling boiling inside of me it seems like a dream. That was until the darkness took over me, not even a year down the stream. It was like something, or someone had taken over from inside of me. like as if I was kicked out of my own body. "what is this?" I ask myself in a freak " WHO AM I?" I say scared and confused, then out of nowhere whispers " we are the widow, we are fear, we are death, so don't be scared". As I'm looking myself in the mirror talking, thinking, panicking I become unaware. Unaware that I started to love the way the widow sounds in my ear. Unaware that I hated so much even the devil would stay clear. Unaware that my eyes with in 3 minutes of looking in the mirror, my soul got lost in the dungeon downstairs. Locked in a cage yet there are no bars, can't even move and there's no restraint, and looking through my eyes as the widow becomes the true star. Alone once again, lost and I can't even begin, what can I do when I can't even move. I am but a soul in a place so unclear, as the widow takes over my body with out any fear. Looking through my eyes so hasty and clear time went by so slowly it's hard to think it's only been a little more than a year, and still trapped down here where ever that shall be. Still feel restrained as I'm standing in pain looking around but can't see anything, except this movie that plays in the windows eyes. This movie that should be my life but with someone living in my body as if it were a disguise. As I try to make sense out of the windows separate life I start to pick up some unspeakable lies that may of caused her to die. My soul gets movement and no longer feel trapped, but still in a place I can't seem to unwrap. Suddenly a whisper so beautiful yet faint says " find my body, find my pain, find the one that left me in vein". I hit the ground. went straight to my back like I was just attacked. It's a house with wood floor and b****y walls with dozens of chains. I'm back I think to myself, but where am I and who's house is this that feels like a trap. In a stunned shakily voice " this house, it's where I've been this whole time, no bars but I still feel trapped and can't move" I tell myself as I things start to make sense. sitting on the ground thinking about exploring the house I hear foot steps, they are getting close to me whoever they are. Quickly I rush to the cabinets and hide under the sink. This fear is like nothing I have ever felt before and as I look around in the cabinet I notice female hair. all kinds of female hair, and a must that stank so bad it made me so sick to my stomach. I start moving the hair and looking through it and all of a sudden my heart drops and I notice female faces that were skinned off. With this man still in the kitchen standing with a Bowie knife and a revolver dressed like a cowboy, I start freaking out and notice a trap door underneath of me. I open the door and jump through to the basement not being able to see, as I jumped lights started to flicker crazy like and this girl started laughing like a witch then as soon as I hit the ground lights went off and the laughing stopped. A sudden whisper " you are getting close don't forget to tell people" the widow said to me as I felt her hand on my back as if she was pleased. Lights come back on as I run for the first thing I see, a dryer with poop and blood all over it. The man from the kitchen is walking down the stairs humming a sketchy toon. he says in a deep dark voice " how is my wife to day" as he has her tied up to base boards. "That must be the widow" I whisper to myself, she's standing the scared and though she is covered in blood guts and grime I can still see her beauty. Or so I thought, as he beats her and mocks how filthy she is and how he loves doing this to her. Out of no where another girl comes in same height and body build but with a bag on her head as she is crying. " you wish you were her don't you. you filthy fake w***e" the man says as he strips both him and the new girl. He starts rapping the new girl laughing looking at his wife and the cuts the girls head of with a hatchet still laughing and rapping her. The man, no monster doesn't stop until the girls skin is all off of hey body. Looking very pleased with himself, he takes the skin to his wife and says scarcely " put this one one the other girl her skin is getting to old on you" and finally it all made sense to me as I am so sick to my stomach right now, I drop into darkness like I am falling into nothingness. I then see the widow in her true body " Thank you, please don't forget to tell the cops, he is still alive and doing this to people" she says as her very perfect and beautiful body fades away in the lights of heaven. Just like that I wake up at moms house and told her everything. As were dealing with the cops I hear a whisper " thank you, your job is done now" look over to mom and I just smiled from ear to ear because I knew that I had saved tons of lives. Before the officer left he says " the dead are mysterious and not safe, thank you for your help, may God be with you" as he slips a bible into my hands.