The Principal's Son

Chapter Three

Laine POV 

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I frown as the alarm clock goes

I don't want to go to school

I don't even feel like getting up from the bed and  go talk to anybody

"Laine , are you awake ?" I let out a small groan as I hear my mother's voice

"Wake up , it's your first day at school

Senior year

Laine

It will be so much fun  " she pulls  the blankets away,  as she smiles at me

I look through my window

This town is freezing always

Even the weather is horrible , the cold , the rain , the snow

"Laine ?"

I look up to my mom

"It's going to be fine

You need to restart your life

This isn't over " she holds my hand , pulling me up

I frown at her words

"Nothing is fine mom

Nothing will be

You think , i want to be like this ?

No

I want to wake up everyday,  and do something for myself

But I'm not getting the courage to do so

Every day , I atleast stumble once on my feet , making my legs hurt

It's just not physical but the fact that I can't accomplish my dream anymore

The cheerleading competition is in few months and I?

I can't even get up from my bed , without hurting my aching leg

What did I do to deserve this mom ?

Why ,me ?

Why is  this life so mean to me ? "

Tears starts rushing down my mother's face

I know,  it's going be fine

But when?

I'm sick of myself

I don't want to do this anymore

I will never be fine , because things can't go back to normal like it was before

"I'm sorry , Laine

I really am

Alright

But you got to get out of this bed and see the world

Because everything is still there , out

You just got to see it to yourself and embrace the life as it comes "

She walks away, sobbing

Every day , I hurt her

Every day , I make her cry

She will hate me one day and tell  me that

Instead of repeating the words "It will be fine "

She will tell me "I hate you Laine "

I splash some water agaisnt my face

I can do this

"You got this Laine

One more year

Concentrate on studies

You can be invisible

No one will care about you

You don't know anybody and you don't need to know , Anyway

It doesn't matter

Once you graduate , that's it

Focus

One more year "

I repeat the words slowly

Confirming myself

That I can do this

It's going to be hard and I got it

It's just like those hard practices,  were you have to push yourself better so you will get it done

I got this .

Just like the time I practiced the split,  so I can do it better than the other girls in the team

I take a deep breathe

I open my closet after so many months , I'm looking at clothes other than my pajamas

I pick up my boyfriend Jean's

And a pair of white socks

So my legs are full covered , I can wear the boots, my  mom got for me

I put on my bra as I pick a top

All my tops are either skin tight or transparent stuff

See through ones

But I don't want to wear them anymore

I look at my body in the mirror

My boobs have grown

Compared to the last time,  I checked myself out

"You got tiny boobs Laine " I remember Brandon laughing at me , when we got together for the first time

I became so self conscious hearing his comments , after that day I never let him grab my breasts

I didn't even let him , touch me

Just plain kisses and started wearing those  padded bras Leena suggested

So , my breasts will look big

But today , they have actually grown

I'm turning into a women , I guess

I'm eighteen

I go through my branded jackets and other things

All the glitters sparkling on the clothes

I'm not going to wear them

I don't want to be that girl anymore

I don't want any attention

I walk towards my dad's room

He's a lean man , I guess I can borrow his sweatshirt

No one will care , however

I put on my dad's sweatshirt and tie my hair up into a bun

Its grown long , it falls down on my waist touching my bum and I don't want to go to a parlour to cut it down

Usually we were not allowed to let our hair grow too long

So it will be hard for us to tie it up,  in a pony tail

But now , it doesn't matter if it's long or short

"Are you wearing daddy sweater ?" I frown at Leo

My brother whose in his school uniform

Junior high school

But if he starts talking , he talks like a preacher

"Leo , finish your breakfast soon

Daddy is waiting out for you " my mother comes out of the kitchen, looking at me down

"Liane , what are you wearing?" She asks me , surprised

"I don't want to wear my stuffs mom

They are skin tight and so much glitters and prints

Get me few loose sweaters , please " I grab my car keys as I walk towards the car

"Liane , wait

You can't drive

For few more weeks"

I stop at my step

"I'm done , eat your breakfast

I'll drop you and pick you up, once school is done  "

"I can manage driving myself mom " I frown

Not again

"Honey,  just few days okay ?" She asks,  pleading

I nod at her

Not wanting to argue anymore

Where the argument will point my condition and make me feel worse

I get inside the car as I wait for her

"Here , I packed the sandwich for you

So you can eat it while I drive "

I grab the sandwich from my mom

As I rest my head against the window

I lick my own lips as I feel them dry

I see the school at the corner

"Mom , stop enough

I can walk till the gate

I don't want everybody to see you dropping  me " I  speak , irritated

As I see her pulling infront of the school gate

"Laine , you can't walk too much

Okay  ?"

I shrug at her words

"I known, mother

I can't

I get it

I'm capable of taking care of myself

I'm an adult mom

Bye "