Chapter seven
1111 Words
Grey POV
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"Mrs.Potter will see you now "
I walk towards the door , to meet the chief of the hospital
As I need to sign and fill a form
They need to update daily , that I'm in my best behaviour
If I fail
Or they mark me less , I will be in front of the court .
"Grey , come in "The old lady calls out for me as she notices me
Mrs.Potters
I used to adore her when I was a small kid
"how are you Grey ?
It's been so many days since i saw you last "
I'm broken as f**k and broke as well
And yes , i know
You saw me last at my mother's funeral
Giving me your condolences even though it didn't reach my heart
And why was I not around here?
Because it f*****g hurts
It kills me to walk around here , the placed I visited with my mum
The hospital premises , these f*****g doors
Which I used to open for her
She loved to come here with me
To play for the kids
She was a great singer , she knew to play so many instruments
She taught me along with these kids at the hospital
But after her death, I couldn't even utter a song from my mouth
Nor touch that guitar
For christ's sake
Its killing me to be here
That's how I'm feeling
That's how I am
"Grey "
I look up at Mrs.Potter
"I'm good
What should I do ?
Where should I start ?"I ask her
As I look away from those concerned eyes
"Just do the beds for today
We have few patients , getting discharged
Just change the covers and clean the room
Once your done , you can sign at the reception and leave "
I nod at her as I walk out
As a nurse leads me to the room
It looks empty with two beds
With a small table between the beds
I remove my jacket
I look down at my wrist
The scars are healing
You know , what makes me feel alive?
These scars
Just look at them
It was bleeding a day before
And today , a new layer of skin forming on that
How it's healing
No matter how hard to dig , it still heals everyday
That makes me feel alive
Seeing those scars slowly heal and fade
It's a pleasure
My kind of pleasure
I can't even f*****g smoke in this room
There are fire alarms
I walk around the small empty room
As I pull out the covers and pick up the cleaner ones
As I put the covers on , my back hits the table
Causing the box of things , falling on to the ground
I groan as I bend down to pick them up
I stare at the knife as I lift it up along with other medical appliances like small scissors, a hand towel and a knife
The knife looks clean and sharp
I stare at my wrist and the knife
As I lick my lips
"Mr.Emerson?
Are you okay?" The nurse who guided me to the room comes rushing towards me
She holds my wrist tight
It's bleeding
And yes , I cut my wrist myself
And I didn't even realise it
It feels numb
No pain
Am I on drugs ?
Oh no
I'm just numb always
"You should be more careful with sharp appliances " she wraps the hand towel around my wrist
Her eyes falls on my fading scars
But I quickly pull away
Before its obvious that I'm f*****g wrong in my mind
"I'm fine
It's nothing "
I take a step back
"Please, your bleeding
Let me do the first aid
Follow me " she walks through the door
Asking me to follow her
I step out , as I follow the nurse
That's when I see the girl , the girl who i saved back in school but she ended up calling me worse than those bitches
The same girl , whose hair is still down
Covering her face as she sits in the waiting room
Why is she here?
She is the most weirdest person i have ever seen
She's not like anyone else
"Do you know her ?" I point at the girl as i ask the nurse
"No , she's the new patient
Do you know her ?" She asks me back
I nod "She goes to my school " I add
As i walk past the waiting room
She don't notice me , she as her eyes glued to her feet
Staring at her legs
And I don't care so i walk away
By the time I finish my work and get home
Its past seven
"Grey
Come here
We need to talk "
I groan out loud frustratedly
"I just came home
Can we talk later ?" I snap at my father whose standing in front of room door
"No , I need to talk to you now
It's not even one day since your at school and the whole teachers are raising complaints against your behaviour
What's wrong with you ?" He raises his voice
Like I'm a small kid and his voice audacity will effect me
"What's wrong with me ? "I let out a small chuckle
"Everything " I yell
My heart pounding
"Everything is wrong with me
Can't you see that ?
I don't want to be here
It's making it worse
Making me worse
I don't want to be here at this place called home ,especially with you " I point at him
As my face burns with anger
"If it wasn't for me
You would have been in jail right now
You should be thankful instead of complaining "
I laugh at my father's words
I laugh out loud
Hard , which makes my stomach hurts
"I'm serious Grey"
"Yeah
Me too dad
I'm serious
Why don't you just let me go to jail instead of having both of us here and suffer more ?"
I turn around as I walk towards the house door
"Grey come back
Grey
Grey
Come back
Grey"my father shouts at me
Calling my name
But I just walk away not wanting to listen to him anymore
I slam the door as I step out of the house
I f*****g need money to get me some crack or a drink
But I'm broke
I call to the one person I know around here
"Nate , its Grey
Can you pick me up
I'm at Bailey's " I say
"I'll be there in ten mate "
- Writer
