the Vampire Identity Journey to California

Seventy-nine years ago. I still remember what had happened to me and it still upsets me. I will always know one thing that I can’t or even won’t do, and that is to Forget. It’s hard for me; since I’ve been changed, but I do know that I’m not just different from all the humans I’ve stayed away from. I’m also different from every creature of the night. There’s something else that I’ll never, or won’t forget, and it’s a certain someone. The one who I need to talk to, I just hope he would be able to let me speak with him. It’s gone a hurt me for the rest of my life, there’s no way that I could do anything about it except minding my own business and not get anyone else hurt by me. I don’t want to be a monster, or feel like I’m the bad guy or in this case gal; so, I’ve already decided to go talk with the Lord and see if I could still be part of his family even though he already knows what I am, but frankly I don’t care anymore, I just want to be part of his family. It took me couple of days and nights to get to the mountain, As I ran to the mountain that touch by the clouds, (where he himself would be at) I’ve been wondering what he’s going to say to me; will he let me be in his heavenly Family?  Or If not, because of what I am, it probably won’t happen though I’m hoping other wise to be part of it, but will he think (because of what I am) it wouldn’t work since none of my kind were not supposed to go up to heaven and that we belong to Mr. Devil himself? Well I do know one thing for sure and very certain of, I’m not going to go to that Place where Mr. Hot shot, the devil would be and I’ll make very sure of that; all I should do is to ask and hope (for the best of it) I could be with the family, and hopefully I won’t be sent down to the devil Lucifer. As I looked up at the Mountain, i keep thinking the same sentence repeatedly over again, ~I’m hoping I won’t get the answer i don't want, hoping I could be part of his family~ taking a deep breath, than letting it all out, and started climbing the Mountain while the whole time wondering what he’s going to say when I do see him and hoping it’s not going to be any upsetting news. (Please, please I hope I won’t get the answer I don’t want to hear, Please), to any human it may take them a couple of days maybe a week or two to get to the top of the mountain where the clouds touch but to me I’m already at the middle of the mountain and still climbing. There’s one thing that I do have to say; for a twenty- nine thousand twenty- nine feet high, this for sure is one big Mountain I’m climbing on through blizzard ice and snow, while the clouds changing from light to medium then to dark gray colors for a weather as bad as this. Anyone would want to stay away from this, so, they wouldn’t want to die up here with all the Icy cold wind blowing towards you where it felt like you can’t breathe through their lungs. Ouch. It takes Days and Nights to get there. I’m almost to the top of the mountain where the clouds touch from everywhere that I looked, it was beautiful upon the clouds, the Mountain which the mortals called it Mt Everest, with lots of snow, big boulders with spiky tips and the little to medium rocks all around. With super vision like mine, you could see everything, trees, hills in every different direction, and towns with houses that looked like ant farms, even the humans would look like small ants, I’m still thinking of ways to convince him, getting him to understand no matter what the problem of what I am may be. I’m sure if the blizzard hadn’t been coming and the weather deteriorates that’s when a blizzard is formed, every human would want to come up here just to see the amazing view. even under the snow and ice where you might be able to find some-thing or even someone who is lost or a treasure; well you never know and for right now there are no humans or anything that looks like a treasure insight, but I don’t want to stop so I must keep going and hoping his lordship, the father of us all would reconsider of letting me be with the rest of the angels, his family up in Heaven. I didn’t do anything wrong besides being turned into a vampire and not just any ordinary vampire, but a different type of vampire. Unlike the other vampires that has weaknesses, I on the hand don’t have any; sure, I have: Super Vision, Super Strength, Super hearing, Invisibility, Speed, Teleportation, Change Shape, and Telepathically like any vampires, but i none of their weakness. now back to where I'm at. I’m now at the top of the mountain where the clouds touches, and as I look up; There it was, the golden gates were huge; almost the size of a giant close to be about ten feet tall and four - five feet wide and to my right side next to the gates was the gatekeeper, he looked to be about five foot eight inch tall, Burnett hair, blue eyes, with small facial of a mustache and beard, now that I’m already up here there’s no going back, not when I’m so close to what I most desire, walking up to the gatekeeper with a warm smile on my face towards him at the same time. “Hello, how are you doing?” I asked nicely to him, sadly no smile back to me, all he did was glared at me while crossing his arms to his chest at the same time. Sighed I said to him “look, OK, look here’s the ‘what’s going on’ I know you’re just doing your job, but I really, really would like to speak with God please, so could you please let me through?” I asked him, hoping but, “You know very well, I can’t do that, YOU. DON’T. BELONG. UP. HERE!” that last part of his sentence, he shouted at me. Go figure. If I do have a guardian angel with me or better yet through those doors I’m sure she or he would find a way to help I think and maybe hoped.  “Yes, I know all about that, but I’m not leaving here, please let me through so I could speak with him.” I Pleaded, begged. All of it that I had to the gatekeeper. “NO!” started yelling back to me. “Please I’m asking you nicely, just let me talk to him, Please!” I wasn’t being mean to the gatekeeper, just trying to get him to understand that I’m not leaving without seeing and speaking to him first, even though I did shout back at him from my last sentence. “I. SAID.  N~ ‘’the gatekeeper was about to say, but “Let her in Eric gatekeeper.” He, Himself said while interrupted the gatekeeper before the gatekeeper could even finish his sentence. The gatekeeper called Eric sadly sighed, with a wave of his hand opened the gates to the heavens for me.  I smiled to him again as I walked through the thresh hold to where all the angels lived, the beauty, and so much more. the path which goes on and on for a moment or two was very long, and it felt like forever, till I came across to all of them, the angels, every last one of them looking at me; staring at me with surprised, and confused, just watching me with their eyes; they all moved to make a path for me as I walked towards the Lord. Even the ones that I know and loved for so many years I’ve been with before I was turned, but I didn’t want to remember the past, I must look straight and keep going forward, never looking back and remembering why I’m here in the first place; to talk to him, taking a deep breath and letting it all go, while I walked up (but just a few feet away) from him. when I stopped, I keeled to the floor and bowed to him, stayed bowed, waiting and hoping for the words that I wanted to hear, waiting for what he had to say before I would be able to speak and hope he would understand; hoping I could stay here even though I am different, but that shouldn’t matter, or at less that’s what I’m hoping anyways. “What is it that you want?” He asked calmly though it did sound like a command. “Please My Lord, I wish to be part of your family up here in heaven.” I asked him. Everyone gasp, I even could hear some of them whispering, but I didn’t listen to anyone except the Lords voice only, no one else. I must try since I don’t want to be a monster that they say or called me, it upsets me how everyone of the humans don’t know anything, when they talk about us creatures of the night and shadows, they’re not the only ones that have to eat, but to us it’s feeding, though we don’t kill our prey unlike the evil ones that do; we just weaken them and then send them on their way, we also go after the evil that does the bad deeds to every human on this plant. ~What’s with their thick heads anyway; besides that, their hungry all the time, they really don’t get it that if they keep killing all the humans then there won’t be any more left for them to kill, where they would starve to death, wow the evil ones really don’t care~ thinking in my head when it comes to the bad vampires and any other creatures that are mean, vile, and evil to everyone we all known and cared for. “Why should I do that Miss Identity? Mm, tell me why I should let you be part of my family up here in Heaven?” That one word ‘Identity’ was the hardest and terrifying for a word that brings back memories from my past when he said it, it’s almost close to saying (‘I-don’t -know-why-your-here-since-you-know-that-you-don't-belong-up-here’ kind of a tone,) but I have to try because I know that I want to be part of this family I don’t want to be with anyone else or where it would feel that I don’t belong and I do want to be a part of something where I know that I could help and where I could do anything for my leader, and the lord is my answer at least I’m hoping. “You know, My Lord, that I haven’t done anything wrong, or harm anyone on earth, I haven’t even killed any of your people down on earth except the wild animals who were in a lot of pain from their home in the woods.” while I talked to him, I also glanced up to him so he would know that I’m telling the truth.  “the only thing I could do for you My Lord would be leaving your people alone and help the animals that are in pain, besides even from the word of my name means that I am different from the rest of the dark creatures that are not like me or anywhere close to being like me, ~hoping you would like to know my lord, I don’t belong to anyone’s kind except hope to be in yours. ~ I said in my head. “that we could kill, but there’s one thing that you must know, I don’t want to kill your people; I stayed away from every human when I came to their paths or they to mine; yes, my kind can kill the humans, but not me -never me my Lord never ever me-, “we could also kill the other creatures of the night, the second part which I know that you would most certainly won’t ignore and personally would indeed like My Lord; Is what I intended to do for you, I can and will kill every evil creature or being that would harm, kidnap, or even Tortured and kill the people, your people from down on earth.” I told him while at the same time pointed my finger down to where the land and the people are, He thought about it for a while, took his hand to his bearded chin, he glanced to the angels to his right, to his left and to the rest of the angels all over that’s in the crowd, before he turn his eyes back to me still thinking. “If you like My Lord I could leave and wait ‘til you have decided and have made your choice.” I stood up than bowed to him, was about to turned to head back to the gates, but, “KC, Wait a minute.” He called “Yes Fa~, I mean my Lord?” I stopped and asked while rotated my head to my shoulder and seeing him with the corner of my left eye; For the moment, I almost said it, I know it was a big mistake even every angel new I was not supposed to say it, but when I looked at the lord, he didn’t seem like he cared though that’s my opinion, but I could be wrong. “Well, I have thought it over and I think it’s a great idea, you could help me save my people down on earth from all the evil and help the wild animals that have been injured and are in a lot of pain and I’m speaking for all the angels and myself that you are welcome to be in my heaven family.” Smiling to me with kindness and caring in his eyes. “Thank you, My Lord.” Bowed to him again showing him my appreciation and my gratitude. The Lord reach out to me putting his hand on my back, and can you believe it, He gave me my angel wings. Now I’m part of the lord’s family, but all of them, the angels, including my own family, I’ll always loved were still thinking of staying away from me; sigh. I know this would upset me for a very long time, it’s going to be hard getting use too, but I won’t have to like it.           *****                     You all would think with us Vampires and any other creatures that’s out there can’t or even don’t feel anything or we all don’t have a soul; well you are right, but you are also wrong; you see the ones that don’t have a soul would be the evil ones, they are the ones’ that would want to hurt you, they even don’t feel anything except power; which they want and only. while us good creatures we do have a soul and we can feel everything; happy, mad, disappointed, caring, kindness, joyful, and anything else that you could think of: confuse, scared, terrified, stress, anxiety and yes even sad and being upset; well that’s what I’m feeling right now from up here in heaven. I’ve been feeling hurtful up in heaven, sure everyone kept saying ‘all the angels that are up in heaven are good, kind, caring, and lovable, that they won’t hurt you, not meant to be mean to you. Their supposed to protect you letting you know and see the differences between right and wrong, good from bad, all of it, even watching out for you.  hopping that you do good deeds and not the bad so you could get something good or even wonderful from the father one day when the time comes, when you do see him it’s what I wanted, what any of us wanted when that time comes for all of us when we move on, death is one of them, not just making a new chapter even though that’s what everyone has been doing for a long time, every year’s pass come a new Chapter for everyone down on earth. Everywhere I see was still breath taking, you could even have your own homes on a puffy soft cloud, no joke about it, I started flapping my wing and taking off to the sky to find the perfect place to make my own home, my dream home that I always wanted way before I was turned; some of the clouds were small which they’re not the ones since they make you have less to no room for you to make your dream home some of the clouds are to big which can be perfect if you want a big house with a family or to have a party, sorry, so not for me, not even if anyone would pay me a million dollars, I still won’t do it for anyone; any types of parties would lead to bad trouble and well that’s not me, and yes, I’m being a party popper. now what did the phrase you people use when it comes to something like this when you don’t like it that someone wants to do something different and all that, hmm oh yeah now I know what is the phrase was, ‘not having any fun’, or ‘I’m no fun at all when It comes to parties’ or something like that well I don’t care; now back to my fluffy cloud house. So, I’ll go for a medium size cloud, I just got to find the right one that shouts and screams, ‘me’, hmm. Even if I have to look for it all day and night, I’ll know the right one when I’ll see it; I have to admit there were a lot of clouds, so I decided to rest for a bit (hey; you do have to give yourself a break once in a while, everyone does, it’s what you have to do to build up your strength  and such) and sat on a good spot of a cloud that could fit for at least a few angels, and just looking around, hoping a cloud I’m searching for would pop up; it’s been several hours since I’ve been sitting on this cloud and still no sign of a cloud I’m looking for, none what’s so ever, except all the clouds that I do see were really, not for me, they were all big size of clouds, or small size of clouds, so I turned my head to the left, none same types of clouds that I’ve seen from in front of me, then I turned to the right, nope same clouds as the others, Sign with irritation and sadness, oh well, it’s like what everyone down on earth kept saying ‘if you don’t succeed try, try again; and never give up no matter what’; and that’s what I intend to do, just keep seating on this, Then suddenly I just remember (with a surprise look on my face) I’m sitting on a cloud, quickly flapping my wings I flew off up from the cloud to inspected it, and would you believe it, I found the cloud that I was looking for; the one type of a cloud which I was seating on this whole time without even thinking of checking this cloud in the first place, well shame on me, then with a smile, I started making my plans for my home. how many feet I would want this way and that, how many windows I would want, what kinds of windows and doors I would want to imagine, what to put in for my bathroom, furniture for my bedroom, and for the living room, ideas for my closet and all that cool stuff, through all of it would be made out of clouds, but everything would feel like they were real just like the stuff that you would see in anyone’s home. Few minutes later. I got my plans done and now it’s time to start working, with a wave of my hand and the image in my mind of a one-story house with a door and windows, a living room with a kitchen, small dining area and in the back, is my one bedroom with a walk in closet and a suite for a bathroom which has a Jacuzzi for a tub with a shower stall next to it; add all that in proper places and; done.           There, that’s my dream house, I like it, I like it, and I like it. Now I’m ready to take a nap since it’s getting late, walk to my door then placing my hand on the scanner (bet you didn’t see that one coming did yea). When it turned green, I opened the door and walked into my home, closed the door, passing through the living room to my chamber, open the door to my bed room, walked to my bed and flopped down; lights out for me. Well instead of a nap, it was a long, but great sleep, and I loved it; it felt great to be refresh and ready to take on anything or even want to do anything, so I decided to just go for a stroll and have a look around and just minding my own business like always before I came here; With all the excitement coming through my body, I ran out of my room, pass the kitchen, the living room, making the door open by itself as I ran out of the door; then stopped at the edge of the cloud where I made my home, lifting my arms up while turning around in a circle with the wind blowing calmly with a smile onto my face. Looking down while banded my knees checking out everything that’s been going on, every one of the angels were everywhere. -Hey, is that a lake, now this I got to see-. standing up, started flapping my wings and dived down from my home, soaring down, down and down to where the lake was at, and what it looks like some of the angels were having a great time with themselves; swimming, splashing, playing, and some were even resting, and bathing in the suns raze, but then they all turned their heads to me as I landed close to the water. I want to feel the water to see if it’s really was water, I step in to it and I couldn’t believe it was water, up here in the clouds in heaven, nice; I looked at everyone else with a smile on my face, but the place was empty; I searched around and spotted everyone walking away; I snapped; bending my knees putting my hands on my face and cried; and cried, and cried, I didn’t know what else to do except heading back to my house up on a cloud and never come out no matter what, and that’s what I did with tears running down from my eyes I flew up to where my home was at, put my hand on the scanner, the door opens so I could walk in to head straight to my bedroom chamber, laying down crying on my bed till I was too exhausted from it all, where I just went to sleep. Few Days Later: still living up in Heaven.           Seconds went to minutes, Minutes went to hours, then hours went to days, and that’s how long I have been up in heaven which was About seven days; how do I know that well I just know from the sun, from when it goes down and when it comes up from the sky. Walking out of the open with disappointment on my face, why am I disappointed? Well, all of the angels of course except the Lord himself, - at least I know someone who cares for me, even though it’s just one out of a billion, sigh- still waiting for that miracle to come, you would think from the days that I’ve been here they would see I haven’t done anything to them, yeah sure because I’m a Vampire and I drink blood from my prey, but I can also eat human food too and that’s another different thing about me for being an Identity where I’m not like the other Ordinary Vampires, or any other Creatures who runs around in the middle of the night.           Shacking my head, I decided to head to a spot where it doesn’t look like anyone would be occupying it; with a wave of my hand, I made a tree that was made out from the clouds; then sat down, looking down to the earth. checking out everything that’s going on for a few moments or until I think it’s about that time, or if I feel like I decided to head back to my house again, from up into the clouds where I could cry my eyes out for however long as I want to till I’m all out of tears, or when I feel tired again where my crying would just put me to sleep, whenever the case may be,  till whenever Father Lord does decided to call on me where I’ll be able to help him with whatever that might be.           I always hoped every Angel would understand what I’ve been going through, everything that I’ve been doing from down on Earth, but no, all they see is the monster that’s in their mist, in their sanctuary, in a place where no Werewolf, witch, goblin, shapeshifters, even Vampires would be here, sigh, if that is the case then why was I even born on Earth, what was the purpose, that Father Lord wanted me to do in the first place than, I’m sure it wasn’t becoming something like this, and yet here I am, an Identity vampire, where every human being would be scared of me for the rest of my life, Sigh.   *****                    -Running, I must keep running or they’ll catch me, where am I, got to fine somewhere to hide, Some where they’ll never fine me, but where, No, they’re catching up, but how, how could that be I- I’m supposed to be faster than them, Man what was that stuff they injected me, what, what’s happening to me I-I feel weak, no, no they’re getting closer, no (panting heavenly from running), someone please help me, anyone that’s out there please, help, me; Blacked out. “Where is that prick; Hey did any of you find him?” talking to them through his walkie-talkie. “No, Not over here from the south side, what about you Matt?” “Not over here either from the west side, what about you Sam.” “Not over here on the East Side, and I’ve looked everywhere.” “Dame it where is he, he couldn’t have gone far; I just know he couldn’t, one of you did tranquil him right?” “Yeah I did.” Matt said. “Then where the H-” the Leader stopped what he was about to say when he saw something at the far end of the woods laying by a tree. “Hey, did you get something?” Sam asked him. “Yeah, I think I found something, hold on a moment while I go check to see if it’s our missing monster, then I’ll let you all know.” The Leader replied into his walkie talkie. The Leader walked farther out in the woods to see if it was the Monster who almost got away from them and made them come out in the middle of the night to find him. When the leader got closer he found the one who they were looking for, and it took them almost a few hours.