The Untouchable Ex-Wife

Noah's pain.

Noah's POV

The pain bursts through me as I am about to make love to Zaria. What the hell is wrong with me? Why am I feeling this pain? Zaria tries to touch me, but I push her away. My wolf is in pain and crying out in my head.

What the hell have I done? I chased away my true mate. I need to get out of here. I can hardly breathe because of this pain. Is this how it feels when you cheat on your mate? Is this how Clara felt every time I slept with Zaria? I need to get her back. I don't know how I'm going to get past my uncle. But I know I need to get her back. If this is the pain I'm going to feel every time they make love, I would rather kill her. What if my wolf gets angry with me and takes over when I kill our mate? Zar has not been himself lately.

"f**k this. How did Clara escape the river? If she had not escaped the river, we would not have felt this pain every time she made love to my bloody uncle. How did Clara get her second-change mate this fast? Why is Zaria, not my second-change mate? Before I had my wolf, I had always loved Zaria. Zar, what is all this? What is going on here? You wanted me to reject my mate because she was not a pure werewolf! Why are you crying for her now, Zar?" I ask my wolf. We are talking in my head, and Zaria does not know what is happening. She looks hurt because I have pushed her away. I don't care. She's not my mate.

"Because she is our one and only mate. I also thought that Zaria would become our mate. She did not. She's not our second chance, mate! We cannot kill our mate until we find a new mate. Zaria is useless. What if we don't have another mate? What if Clara was our only mate? Then we chased her away into the arms of your uncle. He is older than us, and he is pleasing our mate! Why do you think we are feeling all this pain all the time? It is because our mate is happy with another, and she is in bed with him now!" Zar says.

"Baby, what is wrong? Why did you push me away? Why don't you want to make love to me?" Zaria asks.

"Do not call me baby. I am not your baby, as you are not my mate. You are nothing to me. I should not have chased away my real mate for you. I have lost the most precious thing in my life. I should have never listened to you and my parents. I should have let my pack understand that my mate is significant to me. I may be the Alpha of the Storm Forest Pack, but I should have the right to pick my mate. The Moon Goddess gave me Clara. I should have never let her go. Now, she is in the arms of my uncle, and I am in pain. I don't know how you did it, but you messed with my head. You might have missed with my head, but you cannot miss with my heart and mate bond." Zar growls.

I know I must leave this room, as I currently have no control over my wolf. He is furious with everybody who made him lose his mate. That includes Zaria.

I'd jump out of my room's window. I shift halfway through the air into my wolf. The pain is too much to take. Zar stops at the riverbank and starts howling. However, I can still feel them making love. It hurts inside of me. I can feel the burning sensation, and I leave Zar as he howls for his mate.

As I am in wolf form, nobody can see me crying. What have I done? Why did I let Clara go? Why did I almost kill her? Now, she's lying in the arms of another. I will get my revenge! I will make her pay for falling into the arms of another so quickly. I know I never made love to her, but I thought it was the right thing to do, as I didn't want pups with her. I do not know how I can hate and love her simultaneously. It pisses me off!

I start running again to get rid of the pain. It does not help. I stop at the waterfall. I look down the waterfall. I can see my wolf's reflection in the clear water. He looks pathetic. He seems sad as if he cannot get it into his head that he lost her not by killing her but by his uncle!

Ryder black has to die with Clara Howard! Perhaps, if she makes love to me, I will forget all about the pain inside of her.

I return to my room, where Zaria is still lying naked in his bed, playing on her cell phone. I turn into my human form and get in bed with her. However, my wolf doesn't want anything to do with her. And he can try as much as he wants to. He cannot make love to her. In my mind's eye, I can see her face lying in my uncle's arms. Her naked body pressed to his. The picture in my mind is driving me crazy. Zaria gave up trying to make love to me as I turned my back on her.

"You are like a spoiled brat, crying over a woman that you cannot have. When you had her, you didn't want her. And now that she's gone, you want her. So she is in the arms of your uncle. There is nothing that you can do about it. I know you want revenge on both of them, so you must start training. We must begin getting allies to fight your uncle and his mixed pack! We cannot let the hybrid pack be the strongest in this area! They are also the wealthiest and after most land. We need those lands. Tomorrow, we will become mates whether you like it or not. I have not waited for you so long so that you can turn your back on me. Everybody is expecting me to become your mate. So, what if the hybrids had their Luna ceremony? Who cares? You have to get control over your wolf! You have to show your wolf that you are the boss. Zar cannot control you like this. We need pure werewolf pups. You need an heir! I will give you that heir. No, stop sulking. We need to get training harder starting tomorrow. We need to win the war against your uncle and his hybrids." Zaria says.

What she says makes sense. However, I wonder why she hates my uncle that much. Is it only because he's a hybrid, or did he turn her down at one point?

My uncle is handsome, and women find him irresistible. No wonder my mate fell into his arms like a ripe plumb! I cannot wait to kill him. I will have my night with my ex-mate. It is a shame I didn't use her when I could. I should have worn her out and not sent her to my uncle as a virgin, untouched and clean.