Colliding Rulers

Jealous

Gevia's P.O.V

"Everyone has their own partner, right? There will be no exchanging of partners throughout the entire sem." the teacher announced, eyeing my classmates behind me.

"Gee, I wouldn't want to partner up with anybody else." I heard Joshua say, but it was silent and low. He must've thought that I wouldn't be able to hear it.

I can feel that he has good intentions. Or maybe he has a death wish or something. Partnering up with me looked like partnering up with hell itself. Nobody dared to volunteer when I asked that day. He must be tired of his life. Considering how moody and how my temper is easily triggered, it means that I'm not fun to be with. Always annoyed, irritated and angry.

"Well, this topic was supposed to be about natural science, but there's a sudden change of plans. Due to the sudden increase of teenage pregnancies, the school asked if we could insert awareness as part of the class."

The teacher kept walking back and forth, each step a bit louder than the last. Hitting her heels on the floor. It made a clanking sound, which was, weirdly, pleasing in the ears.

"I thought maybe s*x was already interesting enough in your report, but I want to add something else." my classmates suddenly cheered, talking to themselves.

What's so good about s*x anyway? I could never understand the art of s*x. It's just two people touching each other's bodies. I don't understand what's so good about that. Is there something that I don't know about? Ah, right. In order for you to like the touch, you should like the person first.

Is that right?

In the first place, I don't like being touched. Unlike that f*****g Alex. That f*****g Alex touched me, and even stole my first kiss. But her lips were very tempting, kissable- even from afar. They were always pinkish red, fluffy and not dry. They were soft too. I noticed when she kissed me- what am I thinking of? Snap the f**k out of it, Gevia!

But why didn't I push her away from me when she touched me? Could it be that I liked her touch even though I don't like her as a person? Was that it? I don't know. I want to know the answer too. Maybe it's because I was too surprised, too shocked to move a muscle. Yes, that's right.

"I want you to enumerate two s*x positions, discuss them in front, what it is about them that makes them feel extraordinary, hence not able to withdraw nor put on a condom. And put in one reason why you shouldn't impregnate or get pregnant at the end."

"Sheesh!"

"That's right!"

"Let's do this!"

"I like this."

"Do put a warning at the end. Any warning, okay?" the teacher asked for clarification.

"Yes, Ma'am!"

"You got it, Ma'am!"

The teacher started discussing topics. I was buried deep in my thoughts. Pregnancy. Why would someone want to be pregnant? Raising a child is already tough, even more so if that child is someone like me. Who has trouble finding friends, and has trouble finding the importance of friendship and understanding.

All my life, before Joshua came, it was Alex who was in front of me. Beside me. Behind me. She was everywhere I went and everywhere I looked. Every time I cause a problem, I can always expect Alex to come and be in front of me in a matter of seconds. She's the only person who stood up against me and who was there whenever something happened to me.

Did that mean something? Now that she kissed me, I noticed little things. From her presence to where her eyes were looking. It was irritating. My eyes were always searching for her. It's a reaction to what she did to me. I'm very cautious now, and it's all thanks to her. I need to distance myself away from that motherfucker.

"Alright, that's it for today."

Fuck. I didn't listen. I was too preoccupied.

"You alright?" Joshua asked.

I can't tell him I'm thinking about Alex and our kiss and how Alex was slowly being tolerable. Crap. I can't believe I'm saying such things.

"Yes, I'm okay. Just a bit out today."

"You sure? Do you want to go to the infirmary so you can rest?"

That would mean that I would be alone. Alex would popup and she'd steal a kiss again. That's a no. I don't want to be left alone. She might drag me somewhere again and steal a kiss. I'm in danger. It's a new scheme, I know it. A way to tick me off. To distract me from what I need to do, giving her an edge to be ahead of me.

"No, I'm fine. Do you have any plans today?" he looked at me. Did I ask something weird? He inspected me from head to toe.

"Girl, are you sure you're okay?"

"What? I can't ask you if you have plans for today?" he squinted his eyes at me.

"That usually ends up with you coming if I do have plans."

"Is that how friendship works?"

He didn't stop squinting his eyes at me.

"Tell me you didn't have plans on tagging along first." I giggled and smiled innocently.

"Well, I do." he breathed out with an adorable grin, showing his cute dimples.

"I have plans. I plan on eating."

"You didn't eat breakfast?"

He shook his head. He shrugged it off, but I could tell that something was bothering him. His eyes looked so distant when I asked him. Was there something happening in his house that was making him skip a meal?

"You tagging along or not?"

"Pfft, of course I'd tag along. I'll eat with you."

"Alright, let's go!"

We went to the cafeteria. It was packed and it wasn't lunch break yet. Do they always eat here and not in their respected houses? I should just mind my own business. We hurriedly went in line and ordered our food once it was our turn.

"I see an open table!" Joshua happily cheered before rushing to the said table. I kept my slow pace, looking around. They ate so little. I doubt they're going to get full from that.

I sat down and started digging in. The smile on Joshua's face became bright when he started eating. I ate too, not wanting to appear rude by staring.

"What's gotten into you today?" he asked.

"Hmm? Oh, nothing. I just don't want to be left alone."

"Ah, it's one of those days. I got you." he cheekily answered.

Joshua was adorable. A ball of sunshine. Too bright for me to try and match his energy. Before I could say anything, a group of guys came to our table and greeted Joshua.

"Ey, Joshua!"

"What's up, man?"

"How are you doing, bro? Haven't seen you visiting in so long."

"Yeah, our number one cheerleader."

Joshua froze in his seat.

"Can't you f*****g see that we're eating?" I scoffed.

They all turned to me, their eyebrows angry. I didn't care. Joshua was uncomfortable and I didn't want to let that continue. They didn't notice how uncomfortable Joshua was.

"Well, if it isn't Gevia," they were big, bulky guys and I was small and little. I had nothing compared to their muscles. If only I had my gun with me, then I would have taken care of them easily.

"Shut the f**k up and leave. We didn't invite you here, now did we? Your unwelcome asses are not invited here." I growled angrily.

"Gevia, it's okay." Joshua silently uttered.

"No, it's not. They're making you uncomfortable." I hissed, pissed that he was willing to tolerate their shitty behavior.

Joshua shook his head at me.

"Ugh, do whatever you want. I'm leaving."

I grabbed my bag and walked away. Maybe I was a bit sensitive when it wasn't my situation to handle. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I was being too friendly with Joshua to the point that I thought I had the right to do something for him when he's uncomfortable. I walked like there was no tomorrow, not minding where I was going.

I suddenly got dragged into a corner. That familiar scent entered my nostrils as if they were welcome. It was a nice scent and I knew whose it was. I dislike this person, but this person has had access like no one else to me. And I can't believe that I'm allowing her to do these things to me without so much as a complaint from me.

"Mhm," she moaned into my ear. My knees were shaking from anticipation.

I wondered what she was going to do to me. I completely forgot the reason why I was with Joshua in the first place. It was so as to avoid this motherfucker and her perfect face and her kissable lips. She lifted my chin using her thumb and her index finger. I was lured in. I couldn't stop her from doing things again.

Her other hand snaked to my waist, pulling me closer to her soft body. She was an inch taller than me, so I had to,even just a bit, adjust to where I was looking. She kissed my neck out of nowhere. I had no visual aid as it was dark. My eyes still hadn't adjusted to the darkness yet.

Everything was very sensual. It was a first for me. Is this why people like s*x? To the point of gratification? To the point of teenage pregnancy? The feeling it was giving, almost as if butterflies were swarming inside my stomach. I couldn't even utter a simple 'no'.

"You've been such a bad girl," her husky voice sent shivers down my spine.

The girl side of me went and screamed, wreaking havoc. She sounded like a Papi, a hot and sexy Papi. She sounded so sexy, like she was using an ASMR mic. My senses were heightened because of what she was doing.

"I- I was not." I stuttered embarrassingly.

"Yes, you were. You need some punishment."

I don't know what it was about, but I was willing to let her ravish me for as long as she liked. Which was new to me.

"I-" I couldn't even finish. I didn't know what I was supposed to answer. A 'no' or a 'yes'. I didn't want to admit that she was giving me this effect that only she can give me.

"Hmm," she smirked.

She kissed my neck again for the second time and it felt moist, her lips were moist and she added a bit of tongue. She licked the area before locking in and kissing my neck. I thought it was just going to stop there, but no. Suddenly, I felt a stinging pain in that area. She was sucking on my skin.

"You're mine." she said before, again, leaving me there.

I was left gasping for air. Her effect was too much for me to handle. I couldn't breathe when she was there with me. The room felt colder than earlier and her touch left a lingering sensation on my stomach. Why did she say that I was hers? What was that about? Since when did I become someone else's toy? Pet?

I recollected myself before exiting the dark room. Since there were no classes, I just went home and slept. The next morning, as I was doing my morning routine, I saw a red mark on my neck. It looked like a bruise and it was noticeable.

"Huh? Did I do something yesterday- shit." she gave me a f*****g hickey when she sucked on my neck yesterday.