loves cruelty

Hello, my name is Brianna, I'm 26 and painting is my passion. I started painting when I was really young , maybe around the age of 10 and it has just stuck with me since then. Painting for me has been just the most mind easing thing for me to do when I get upset or just want to relax. I decided to start putting my paintings in an art gallery to show everyone, but I don't think anyone will like my work unless they know the meaning behind the painting. A few days go bye and still no one has gone anywhere near my paintings, there are really hard to miss since I have a hole wall dedicated to them. I guess I'll just wait longer to see if anyone will notice them. The wall I had them put on was a very large wall indeed, I can't believe that all 25 of my paintings fit on just that one wall. It's really amazing if you think about it. All of my paintings represent some form of a dream I have had.Over a few months I have started getting really vivid dreams and each dream gets more and more real to me so I put it on canvas. An Example of a painting I did on a canvas is a dark alley in the middle of nowhere and there is a girl who is either being attacked or made out with because she looks like her neck was tilted sideways. She also has bruises on her wrist but she doesn't seem to fight back with the person attacking her or something yah know what I mean or at least I hope you understand. I started walking home from the gallery since it closed in five minutes and I decided to take a different route than I normally take, because walking the same way home every day gets hella boreing id say but hey s**t happens. As i'm walking I start to feel like i'm being watched, I look around and nothing to be seen. It's really eerie walking this way home at night time, so many animal noises definitely makes things really creepy i'd say. I am almost home, maybe 20 more minutes to go and I start to feel like i'm being watched again, it could just be my head playing with me but I insisted that i look around again to look, and yet again nothing around this time, not even the animals I was hearing before just complete silence. Im finally home, Yay I felt like i was walking for hours when it was only 35 minutes of a walk. I walk up the stairs to the complex I live in and notice something is off immediately. My door to my apartment is wide open like someone broke in but there were no signs of forced entry. I grab my baseball bat I always keep by the door because where I lived wasn't the safest part of town, I start turning on lights with the bat at the ready first few rooms there was nothing. I made my way to my bedroom and as I turned the corner in the hall to walk into the room something flew right out my window. I think it was just a bat or a bird and I turned on my light and nothing was there. Now that all the rooms are checked I walk back to my front door because my stupid self left the door open, you know just incase i had to run out kinda thing. I shut the door and locked it up for the night thinking everything was going to be fine for the rest of the night. I started walking into the kitchen because I wanted something to eat. I decided I was going to make some kind of quick snack, maybe fried pickles because it's my favorite thing ever. I get done making my snack and eating it and get ready for bed and as I'm getting dressed I notice something on my desk in an envelope. I wonder what it is an open it curiously. The envelope has a letter in it, I look closer and its actually a love letter. Awe how sweet but how did it get here. I'll keep the letter in mind but I definitely need some sleep. Good morning world. I think it's time for me to do a painting today. The painting I'm doing today is based off of the dream I had last night. It was like it was so real in every way but I knew it was just a dream. In this dream there was this really tall man. He looked as if he was a ghost. He was so pale. His hair was super white, and he wore a lot of jewelry on his neck and hand. His voice was so deep it was mesmerizing. When this man spoke I felt a shiver down my spine. As I'm listening to him speak I noticed I was sitting at dinner eating eggs, and pancakes. I also didn't notice how I got there and it was beyond me as to how and why I didn't remember when I arrived. I started thinking of places I went to and when I got there but I couldn't remember anything. I tried to ask him when I got to the dinner table but I noticed I was unable to speak which was odd. I never had this issue in any other dream I had so it's really weird. Now its time to start painting before the day runs out and it's night time. I definitely don't want to wait till the last minute get this finished. I want to be able to take it to the gallery some time tomorrow and hang it with my others. 9 hours later the painting is finally finished and I can rest. I think its time for some food now I'm starving. I sit down and start eating and all of a sudden I hear the voice from in my dreams. Is this real.? Am I really hearing this or is this just my mind playing games on me again. I turn around thinking I'd find someone standing behind me but there is nothing or no one there. Kinda creepy if you ask me. "Hello"? I said as loud as I could without waking my neighbors. I said it again Hello?, no reply I think to myself am I going crazy? when I turn around and start thinking I'm going nuts this guy just appears. I look at this man as im standing still frozen in place, why does he look so familer to me?. oh my gosh that's why he looks like I know him, he's from the dream I've been having. All I can think of while looking at him is how sexy he is. he's sexy as f**k, what I would do to this man behind closed doors. As I snap to from having very compulsive thoughts about jumping his bones I say to him, who are you and what are you doing in my home. He looks at me and says, I'm here for you miss. Did you get my letter I left on your desk? and as far as who I am you will find that out in a later time. I have come to claim you now I know you are of age. Your parents made a deal with me and I intend to claim what is mine. Now if you would please come with me its time for you to come home. I look at this man and clearly state the fact I'm not going with him come hell or high water. I also tell him he can go f**k him self because I'm not just some pawn that could be givin away or purchased. He rushes twards me and grabs my throat lifts me up against my wall and looks into my eyes and tells me that I have no choice and that he could make me do anything he wanted. What is this guy like a god or something, no he's unworldly like not of this world or universe. After trying to fight him off of me, He just let me go and left out the window. Why didnt he use the door it was litteraly to rooms over?. I have so many questions about this man. For a second I was scared but then also super wet from him putting his hand around my throat. It's was turning me on but why though I have no clue. How could this be that something like this happens and my body is like oh my God don't stop. I have so many questions about this man he looks so pale and dead on the outside but then is more alive as I am how, is that even possible?. What is it about me that's so amazing he chose me as his prize to claim?. Why didnt mom and dad tell me about this deal they had was it breaking the law or were they trying to hide me from something or someone?. A few hours go by and I think to myself, oh s**t his letter I completely forgot. I go to my desk and get the letter to open it and when I open it rose pettles fall out. As I take the letter out I notice a piece of paper still inside the envelope,the paper is the deal that mom and dad made while I was still in mom's belly. The piece of paper states that when I was to turn of age I was to be givin to Alexander as a token of debt payment. It also states that if I was not givin to Alexander my mother and father would face a death penalty for not abiding by the documents that were signed by both parties. The man's letter says that as I am his to claim that I am required to move in to his home and do as he says I'm supposed to do. I am also to dress formal in dresses all the time as it is required to attend many formal events like dinners and alliance meetings. Lastly the letter states that I am required to be marked by Alexander as it is a safety precaution to let the guest know that I am his and only his. Alexander so that's his name, That sounds like an older kinda name like a victorian Era kind of name. How interesting can this man get?. What the f**k am I supposed to do now, my life litteraly is someone else's to control now. How am I supposed to manage my gallery, painting new product and have someone control everything I do like this isn't fair at all. Honestly this is bull s**t to have to deal with something like this. Thanks mom and dad you now have the trophy for worst parents of the year. How the f**k am I supposed to afford formal clothing like im required to wear, I don't have anything formal in my possession like what the f**k. I also have no clue where this guy Alexander lives let alone know if this man is a psychological nut job who tortures innocent people. The next few days go buy but my brain was still stuck on the fact that I'm someone's property to bark orders to. Why was it me and why could he not choose another Person?. one day later and the man appeared in my home again, was I not aloud to have time to process I was someone elses property thanks to m parents?. Alexander looks at me and says its time to leave. Did you pack the items you wanted to bring with you?. I look at him as if he was going to murder me and say no I didn't pack, I didn't have the time to. Do you mind if I ask some questions about all of this and why I was the one you chose. he looks at me and says no you may not, not until you get to my home and we don't have any interuptions. OK when do we leave to go to your home so we can talk about all of this and why its happening because your letter didnt say a hole lot on the subject. he says soon my love soon, don't be in such a hurry. OK well I'm going to start packing now I guess since I have no choice in what I do with my life as of right now. it takes me and hour to pack and get everything situated and ready for our leave but something just does not feel right about any of this. As I finish packing my things alexander walks in the room. He looks at me and says ma'am I need to blind fold u so u cant see where we are going. I look at him an say, yeah right your not putting anything on my face let alone cover my eyes so I can't see. as if telling me I have no say in what I do is bad enough now your telling me I cant see were I'm going to be moving my entire life to, that's kinda f****d up you know. If I allow you to cover my eyes you owe me an explanation of why I was the one you chose to claim as your prize no ifs ands or buts about it. do you understand me alexander? He then rushes towards me and gets so close I could feel every breath he took as he spoke. I don't know who the f**k you think you are demanding me to tell you anything, he said. It was at that moment I looked into his eyes and noticed that they turned bright red, so bright it was like his pupils disappeared completely. A few moments go bye and I realize I'm now in alexanders car. How the f**k did I get here and when did I get here? When I realized I was in the car I asked alexander we're we were and he didn't respond. He just drove silently until we stopped at a gas station. He looked at me and said " Its time to blind fold you now no questions asked. I look at him with the most disrespectful look I could give him. Are you f*****g serious right now? I look at him and say " Why me Alexander? Why did you choose me I'm a no body and I don't have anything going for me at all nothing is worth keeping me. I start to tear up when he puts the blindfold around my eyes, I say this isn't fair I want to be able to see where you are taking me. Your an ass hole I hope you know this, To not have any compassion towards me the woman your holding against her will is the most ass hole thing to do. not but moments after he blind folds me he says to me "you will understand in due time why I'm doing this for you and you're safety". What felt like hours passing buy was only 35 minutes and we arrive where we are supposed to be. We are home he said softly, I will show you to your room and I hope it meets to your standards. When he takes off the blind fold I look at the place I now am going to be imprisoned in until I die and think to my self, Why does it feel like I know this home? This place looks so familiar to me but I cannot put my finger on where or when I've seen this place before. I stop and think for a moment taking everything in and then it hits me, I was here once with mom and dad when I was very little. I don't remember much detail on when I was here but I know for sure I was when I was younger. the house is beautiful and so big its like royalty lived here at some point in time. there are amazingly sculpted pillars at the main entrance with marbled stairs and two lions at the bottom of the pillars. there is a balcony on almost every floor of this home its absolutely amazing to see. the house is made of really pretty bricks and to be able to see all 5 stories in one day would be impossible to do. Alexander then grabs my hand and I flinch yanking it away, he looks at me worried like a mother does when her child is hurt or scared. He takes a few steps behind me and gives me space but I feel as if something is off about this hole thing. I wish I knew why mom and dad did what they did but I'll never find out because they both died a long time ago. I hope one day Alexander will tell me everything so I should be as obedient as I can and do as I'm told when I'm told. As we start walking alexander starts talking to himself or so I thought , I turn around to find a woman standing beside him. she looks familiar too! Have I seen her before? I look at Alexander and he shakes his head no as if I was going to do something I would regret so I just turned around and kept walking forward. Shortly after entering the main entrance to the house I stop and turn around to wait on Alexander and as I turn around and that woman is gone and no were to be seen. Alexander walks up to me and just gives me this look of disappointment like I did something wrong. I thought to myself what did I do to him to be like this towards me, if I did anything at all to deserve this. Alexander is everything ok? Did I do something to make you upset? I asked but he didn't reply. I then said to him that I was sorry if I did something wrong. He still didn't respond to anything I said. He then gestures his hand and pointed it up the stairs continuing to take me to my room. I started walking up the stairs and then Alexander spoke, your room is the one on the left down the hall with the blood red door. Dinner will be served in 3 hours, kitchen is not hard to find be on time and wear what I have laid out for you and please do your hair and makeup. That was all he said nothing less nothing more. What the f**k I have not even been here for an hour and I'm already being told what to do. I'm really starting to think he doesn't seem to care about how all this makes me feel. Why the f**k should I listen to him? Why should I do as he tells me to. Why am I the one who got the s**t end. I hate my life so f*****g much right now. I honestly hate my parents and Alexander so much right now , how could they do this to me. I look at my phone and I see the time it's past the time I was supposed to be at dinner with Alexander. I hope he's not pissed off I blacked out and forgot to keep and eye on the time. I start getting dressed and do my hair as I start my makeup I hear a knock on the door , it was so loud you would think its a cop knocking on the door. The next knock on the door was more forceful and I could tell someone was angry. For a second I stopped and listened and then I heard Alexander start to yell and pound on the door harder so hard he put a giant hole in the door. This hole continues to get bigger and bigger as Alexander beats his way through the door. He doesn't seem normal right now, his rage has taken him over like a ravaged animal. Uh oh I'm in deep s**t for this one. Alexander swooshes into the room and slams me up against the wall and again grabs my throat. I think to myself why does he do this, does it turn him on or is this his display of dominance over me. It was at that moment I felt leakage down the side of my leg and I thought to myself its not that time yet why now?! Out of all the moments for mother nature to be a b***h this is definitely not the right timing. Alexander's grip starts to loosen and I notice that his eye color changes quickly from a deep blood red to a very beautiful golden yellow color. I ask him if he's ok and he shakes his head yes but it looks like he's in pain as he does so. He lets me go shortly after me asking if he's ok and then looks at me and says "go clean up ur bleeding I can smell it". He then leaves the room and doesn't even turn around to say I'm sorry for how I acted, nothing, not one apology. In my head right now I'm at loss for words and thoughts on how he knew I started my monthly and then it clicked. The super strength, the eyes changing colors and the super sense of smell, he's not human,he's a vampire. HOLY s**t, I live in the house of a blood sucking maniac! Thanks mom and dad here's to another parent of the year award. Did they know he was a vampire? If they did why the f**k did they make a deal with him? Now what in the hell am I supposed to do? HOLY s**t, he has to mark me for my safety and make me do anything he wants me to do. It all makes total sense now. I start thinking of a way to escape but I can't, my heart is beating so fast I can barely breathe. I take a moment to get myself composed and calmed down but then I hear footsteps coming. My heart starts to race even more than it was before. What should I do? I start panicking and then everything just fades to black. As I come to I forget where I'm at and how I got there,which is odd cuz I never black out. I'm laying in a bed hooked up to an iv bag and have fluids given to me. I also have a wrap around my arm like a sling. I think that has to do with when I passed out, I may have fallen. Honestly, I don't know what happened. It all happened so quickly.A few moments later Alexander walks in, are you ok he said. I looked around in shock and remembered I was in the home of a vampire and now have to live here for the rest of my life. The next few hours go buy and on every hour alexander comes in to check on me. He makes sure I'm doing well and makes sure everyone is taking really good care of me. I like the fact he is showing he cares, its really sweet. Alexander then looks at me and asks me if I needed anything personal. I say no and politely thank him for asking me. It was time for me to rest again so I start to fall asleep until I hear alexander whisper, everything is going to be ok and that he was sorry he would never lay a hand on me like that ever again. a small tear rolled down my cheek as he said that to me. I think he's finally showing me he cares about my safety after everything that has happened. I dose off to sleep and am thinking, maybe living here won't be that bad after all. I hope things are starting to look up for me here. As I start getting deep into a really spicy dream of me and alexander I feel like I'm being pushed. I wake up half ass still asleep and its a nurse telling me its time for dinner. I nod and thank her for waking me to eat. Alexander comes in shortly after she arrived and has a gift bag with him. He hands me the bag and says I am truly sorry for everything, can you except my apology? I nod, thank you for the gift you didn't have to get me anything alexander.The nurse still taking care of me finally tells me I get to go and that I'm being released. Thank God because damn I'm starving, I wonder what Alexander is doing. I wonder if he could take me to go get something to eat. I wonder if he will stay and eat with me. Alexander, Alexander, Alexander I say for the third time. As I turn around to find where he went off too there he was standing in front of me. Just standing there with his beautiful space Gray eyes. I don't know what is wrong with me but I'm starting to feel like I like Alexander, only time will tell though. It's just something that I can't understand at all. How the heck could this happen, why does it have to be him of all people that I start to feel things for. Maybe like I said before I might actually like living here and then maybe I might end up falling in love with Alexander who knows. Wait, did I just say who knows I might fall in love with Alexander. Oh hell no, what am I thinking? But I mean he is starting to turn around and be nicer to me. I could get used to having him around or at least I hope so. I really like having him around even though I don't see much of him during the day.I hope everything goes smoothly for the time I'm here unless I croke early.I hope everything goes smoothly for the time I'm here unless I croke early. So I ended up totally spacing for a second thinking of Alexander and as I look at him he has this s**t eating grin on his face. Uh can he read my mind like I've read in the books?!. Oh my gosh I think he can because as I'm thinking this and he's just laughing. Ok um Alexander can we go get something to eat I'm famished?. Sitting in that bed for a day has been absolutely agonizing. Alexander looks so concerned like I have never seen before. He asks me if I ate at all when I was there,did they feed me anything. I said yea I ate once but I really don't remember much. I'm sorry I really don't remember much of anything after I blacked out. Alexander looked pissed off but then again he looked relieved at the fact that I asked him for help. Maybe I could possibly talk him into getting a pet to help me with how I'm feeling. I feel all alone, no one to talk to but I feel like that might change. Alexander then says with the strictest voice, how can you not remember if you ate. Never mind that let's go get u something to eat, is there anything you have in mind that you would like to eat. I shake my head no and say anywhere but here would be amazing. Thank you so much for taking me to get something to eat. Can we go shopping too? I need new clothes and shoes. I don't mean to push my limits but can we get a dog or something to help me cope with being here. If you don't want to, that's understandable. I will work on myself alone. I don't only ask not to have to do this alone. I don't want to have to fight anything alone anymore please do this as one big favor for me.that's all I ask for. Alexander looks at me and says yes, we can do that that is not a problem. If you need anything please don't hesitate to ask me. At some point we end up stopping at the animal shelter and we get to pick out a dog of my choice. So of course I choose the biggest of the biggest dogs there.I get a Cane Corso wolf hybrid, ugh he's super handsome and I'm going to name him lucifer. He is all black with beautiful baby sky blue eyes. I absolutely love him already but Alexander is skeptical.I look at Alexander and say everything will be perfectly fine I've got this handled.We get back to the house after the dog adoption and lucifer absolutely loves his new home. Thank you so much, you don't know how much this means to me Alexander. I appreciate everything you are doing for me to make my stay feel a bit better. Is there anything you need me to do, anything like laundry or scrub the floors. I promise I'll do everything you ask me to do or tell me to do. I also swear to make sure lucifer is taken care of as well. Thank you alexander I truly am very grateful of you during the time I'm in need. I would also like to maybe see if you would like to go out to eat dinner sometime soon. Alexander looks so happy the he smiled so big it was adorable.I think I finally feel like I'm at home. Man I hope maybe he would get me into painting again