Nightmare of my Dreams

Wishful Thinking

Chapter 2

I sit silently as the car passes through town. I watch all the places I have ever seen pass by the window. I wonder where he is taking me. I take a deep breath and sit back. I just need to relax. I close my eyes and pretend that I am somewhere else. I try to relax, but my heart is pounding.

“Probably the palace,” my wolf says to me.

“Oh, you're back?” I say sarcastically.

“Yes, I am. Now what is your plan? He is our mate but I do not want to be mated to him, he’s a monster. You must have some ideas to get us out of this.” She says to me. I take a deep breath and try to think of something.

“Yeah, no idea yet. With him being our mate I doubt he will accept a rejection. Do you know where the Lycan palace is located?” I ask her.

“Nope,” she replies.

“Me neither. It's been kept private. Not many people get invited. The palace grounds are only for Lycans and their mates and that is it. They don't even invite any of the wolves to their parties.” I say to her with a sigh.

“So we are heading into unknown territory with a monster.” She says to me with a sigh as she curls back up in my mind. Leaving me to myself and my thoughts.

“So Val, where are you taking me?” I ask him.

“The Lycan palace.” He says while still doing things on his phone.

“And where is that?” I ask him.

“Do you know anything at all?” He snaps as he turns around to look at me.

“I know that you are a monster. I understand that you are taking me away from everything that I have known for my whole life. I know that you don’t say much and stick to yourself. I know that you have spent the last five years looking for your mate, who happens to be me.” I say to him sarcastically with an eye roll.

“So you do know things.” He says as he turns back around.

“The palace is kept a secret from everyone. Only Lycans and their mates live on the palace grounds. Everything is kept locked into Lycan territory and not many Lycans leave the grounds, and when they do it is only to find their mates.” I say to him.

“It is kept secret for our protection. Lycans used to be treated the same as a werewolf, but over time we got stronger and larger than any other supernatural creatures. So when that happened that is when the first Lycan King came about, he wanted to lead the Lycans over the Wolves. Allowing the wolves to keep their Alpha’s and Lunas for their packs and each of them just reports back to the Lycan King. Things went really well for a few years, until someone decided to poison my grandfather and grandmother, the King and Queen at the time. We never caught who did it, so we keep the gates locked to protect the Lycans that live within the palace grounds.” He explains to me.

“Okay, that is a lot to process, so I am just going to keep that all in the back of my mind and move on to the next topic. So my pack is located in Saint Edward Nebraska. The town is very small and in the middle of nowhere. Everyone knows everyone and their past. How far away is the palace from my old pack?” I ask him, trying to change the subject.

“To get to the palace we will be taking a plane and then driving up to the palace. It is located in Florida. I cannot give you any more information than that.” He says to me before turning to watch my reaction.

“A plane? I have never flown before. Actually I have never been outside of the little town my pack has.” I say to him, as I start to panic. He must have heard the fear in my voice, because he smiled.

“All day you have seemed so tough, but now the thought of flying has you scared.” He says with a chuckle.

I admit, I was scared of flying. It felt like I was being pushed out of my comfort zone and into a whole new world. I had never done anything like this before and I wasn't sure if I could handle it. I have a breaking point, and I am sure Val will enjoy finding it.

I turn my head and look out the window. He goes back to his phone. Times like this I wish I had a phone, anything to distract me from what I am suffering through. But no, as the cursed child, I was never allowed to have any device of any kind. I spent all my time at school or taking care of the house. I was basically a slave to my parents. I did all the cleaning. They ate at the pack house most nights so I didn’t have much for food in the house. My clothes were all given to me by people in the pack who felt bad for me, but it was only done in secret.

I have nothing with me. I used to draw a lot with art supplies that I have hidden in my room. The art teacher gave me an art set a few years ago and I had to hide it from my parents. Anything I enjoyed they would destroy. So I would draw or paint late at night when my parents were sleeping.

I never had many friends, as I wasn’t able to go to their house and they couldn't come to mine. I was not allowed to leave the house for anything other than school or running errands for my mother.

I was not bullied, but ignored. I felt isolated and lonely. I felt powerless and frustrated. Even now with finding my mate, I don’t have a choice in what happens.

How has this become my life? I had the hope that when I found my mate my life would get better, but it seems that it is only going to get worse. There is no way that the Lycan Prince will be my night in shining armor. He will not be saving me. I fear he will be the end of me, and the little that I enjoy in life.

I sigh.

I don’t know much about Florida. But I know they have beaches. I wonder if the palace is close to the water. I would love to see the ocean, but I'm not sure if I ever will. I don’t know how to swim. I'll just have to stay on the shore and admire the view. Maybe one day I'll take a boat tour or go on a cruise. Until then, I'll just have to enjoy the view from the land.

I must have fallen asleep. I get woken up by feeling sparks across my skin.

I am being carried bridal style by Val. I can tell because of his smell and the sparks that are running all over my body. He smells like the forest mixed with salt water.

I instinctively snuggle into him, sparks clouding my mind. I hear him chuckle. What a lovely sound. I can feel the warmth of his body, and it fills me with a sense of belonging. I feel like I am exactly where I belong. I feel safe and loved in his arms.

If only that was true, I know for a fact that I only feel this way because I am half asleep. I stay still and silent while he carries me up some stairs. I don’t know how he will react to knowing I am awake.

I feel him lay me down on a bed. It must be a private jet to have a bed on it. If I sleep the whole time I won't be so scared, I think to myself.

Once he lays me down he pulls a blanket up over me and moves away. I instantly feel cold, and miss his touch.

The stupid mate bond can play tricks on your mind. It makes you feel safe when you are with your mate. The bond is designed to pull you closer to each other, so that you can build a strong connection. I don't think that Val will react to the mate bond like I do. He may be able to go completely against the bond. But maybe he will give into the bond and we will have a great life.

I don't know if that will be possible or not with Val. The information that I know about him makes me think that he will not be a good mate. I wish that I knew the truth about him, or that he would give me any information about himself. I wish that he would open up to me, even a little bit. I barely know his name and all I know is that he lives in Florida.

Maybe he isn't as terrible as they say, I think as I drift off to sleep.