Despite our long and heartfelt talk things were still awkward between Jonathan and I. After the kiss we shared the night we talked there has not been any further intimate overtures from either of us and is not because of lack of want. No. If I am being honest with myself I desperately wants to feel what I felt when we kissed but since that night it feels as if there is this invisible wall between us.
Part of me feels is coming more from Jonathan who I think is being a little cautious. I don't blame him. If I have been hurt the way he has been I will probably excercise some cautions, but is frustrating as hell. Damn, Jonathan and his friends are beginning to r****f on me.
And the saddest thing about the whole situation is that I can feel Jonathan pulling away from me. Before our talk we h
