IN LOVE WITH A COLD,HOT,OLDER MAN

4. I want him

8 years later

              Ariana's p.o.v

Being the envy of a lot of ladies and men came as no surprise to me, at the age of 20 I was living the life that most girls could just daydream about. I was way fancy than most rich people, I had the most amazing biggest room ever, which was filled with every known clothing line, jewelry and shoes I could ever need, my car was the most expensive, heart-warming car in the world, just the name made a lot of hearts pound in admiration Koenigsegg CCXR Trevita going at ($4.8M), it was my 20th birthday gift that Brandon had bought for me, I was so damn happy and literally cried, but the other reason I was in tears was because Brandon couldn't spend it with me, he just walked up to me and threw me the keys without a second glance.

The past years, I had changed a lot of things about me just to match what I thought would be Brandon's ideal lady, my long black hair was now dyed blonde, and my dress code changed from decent dresses to anything that would expose a lot of skin and make any man turn his head, I had a lot of faith in my body, my breasts were larger and my waist smaller, my change seemed to work on all men except Brandon. I was the invisible one in his eyes, he was rarely home because of work, and when he was, he ignored me completely, nothing I did got his attention, I always asked Triza if I was pretty and she always gave me the same answer, I was beautiful, just not in his eyes.

I could never forget the day I was sold by my own family to him, then I felt hated, unloved, and despised.

But now everything was so damn different, I couldn't help the attraction I felt towards him, even though he was way older than me. I wanted him, when did I begin to like him?. I don't know, I admired him, It didn't make any sense because never had he ever shown any interest in me, not even for a second, but every time I looked at his tanned tattooed skin my core twitched in need, his mouth-watering abs made my body hotter than ever, his strong jawline and mesmerizing brown dark eyes got me instantly turned on, his strong arms and huge built made my core wet, his perfect dress code and handsome face made my throat dry.

I knew it was wrong but I just wanted him to push me on the desk and f**k me there and then like a cheap slut he owned.

My walking and breathing days were filled with only him and he had no idea about it. To him, I was forever the little miserable girl he bought out of his money and pity.

I was suppose to be content and happy that I was living the dream but I wasn't, what I wanted and needed was him, I knew he slept around but he never wanted anyone to know, I now understood his words from eight years ago, he only did one night stands because he could never f**k the same girl twice, a one night stand was better than nothing, even for me.

"My love!" Shadrach called playfully downstairs.

I quickly looked in the huge mirror with a smile, today I was going for a killer mood, I was in a dark blue ripped jeans, high black horse and a purple crop top, my hair was tied in a ponytail.

My face was fixed perfectly with makeup, what I loved about my dressing was that my belly and thighs were on display.

Being hot was so not a sin, maybe towards the angels, I did as I pleased in this house, I went for parties, shopping, and clubbing, the thing I hated was that I had a watchdog, where ever I went, Shadrach was there on Brandon's orders. I would do as I pleased but I was never allowed to get closer to any male, I was freaking 20 and I was still a virgin, my lips and body were pure, I should admit, although it was annoying I loved the idea, even if Brandon didn't give me a watchdog, I could have kept it that way because to me he was all I could see.

I grabbed my handbag and quickly went downstairs where I found Shadrach smiling at me with his eyes wide open.

"Wow, everything you put on rocks on you." He said as I chuckled softly.

"Stop being so damn annoying." I answered playfully.

"Fine, fine, where the hell are we going?" He asked as I stood in front of him and leaned in closer, he tensed when my lips slightly touched his ear.

I really loved teasing him a lot.

"Duh It's evening, I want to release some sweat," I said seductively then pulled back and smiled innocently.

He looked at me in a daze then cleared his throat.

"Are you sure you want that?. You know today Brandon is coming back from his business trip, I would advise you to stay home, he won't be here long, I'm sure he will be going back soon after a few days." He said as I huffed.

"Shadrach, when does Brandon care about my well being?. That old man doesn't give a f*****g damn about me, he rarely talks or look at me, he wouldn't even attend any of my school events then, it was always you and Triza, look at me, I'm now all grown up but he couldn't let me work or get a boyfriend." I said loudly.

"Boyfriend?. Why would you need a boyfriend?. Isn't hanging out with me fun?" He asked as I moved closer and kissed his cheek gently then pulled back.

"Shadrach you know I adore you, I didn't mean everything I had said, I just got pissed that's all, you always take me to fun places, and your company is the best." I said softly.

He smiled at me then held my hand slowly.

"Good." He answered.

I still didn't understand why Shadrach cared so much over my stupid words, he was handsome with a good body, many girls and women loved him, everywhere we went he got the ladies' attention without him trying, to me he was my cute, super hot older brother.

"Now, let's go and light the place up." I screamed happily not caring if anyone could hear me.

Shadrach laughed then whistled loudly.