An Innocent Angel

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

"WHAT NOW?! Napahiya na 'ko sa buong angkan ng dahil sa'yo." Sigaw ni Shawn at mas hinigpitan pa ang hawak niya sa braso ko.

"Shawn please..."

"Ano?! Natikman kana rin ba ni Ivan?! Did he already do you?! You're nothing but a b***h!" 

"Pl-" I wasn't able to finish my word when he slapped me hard. Nawalan pa 'ko ng balanse kaya naman napatumba ako bathroom floor. I cried and curled myself into ball.

Agad agad akong umuwi pagkaalis ko ng mansion. And I was taking a bath when Shawn furiously entered the bathroom.

Gusto kong magmakaawa pero wala namang magbabago. I cried louder when he harshly grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of the bathroom. Wala akong damit at basang basa ako kaya halos madulas ako. 

"Shawn makinig ka sa akin. Unawain mo naman ako." Pagmamakaawa ko. Basta nalang niya 'kong ihinagis sa kama at sinampal. Nanginginig ako sa takot at lamig kaya hindi na 'ko nakagalaw at umiyak nalang.

"Baka gusto mong lumabas ng bahay na nakahubad?"

Agad akong naalarma at binalot ng kumot ang buong katawan ko. "’Wag naman Shawn. Maawa ka naman."

I stared at him but he just smirked. Unti unti siyang lumapit kaya naman mas lalong nadagdagan ang kaba ko. "Shawn please. ‘Wag mo namang gawin sa 'kin 'to." I pleaded when he started to pull the blanket.

Hindi siya nagsasalita hanggang kaladkarin na niya 'ko palabas ng kwarto hila hila ang braso ko. I kept on sobbing and begging. Halos sumubsob ako sa hagdan sa lakas ng paghila niya sa akin.

"Tama na Shawn. I'm sorry... please!" Mas lalong lumakas ang iyak ko nang buksan niya ang pinto. He's about to pull me out but then I hugged him tightly. "Please. Gagawin ko nalang lahat ng gusto mo. ‘Wag lang 'to Shawn. Maawa ka sa 'kin." 

We stayed in that position for seconds. Nakahubad pa rin ako at nilalamig dahil sa hangin galing sa labas. Mabuti nalang at gabi na. Kung hindi, nakita na ng lahat ang katawan ko.

"Hmm. Get off me and lay down on the sofa bed."

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"Shawn, kailangan na nating pumunta sa super market." I nervously said to Shawn.

It's Saturday morning and he's watching business news in the living area. Naisip ko baka pwede kaming magpunta sa mall para bumili ng groceries. Madalas kaming magpunta sa super market noon ni Shawn at bibili ng mga kailangan namin. I miss those days.

He glanced at me and spoke. "We? Are you that insensitive? Isn't it obvious that it's shameful to be with you?"

I just looked down. "Uhm. Ako nalang ang pupunta." I said. Sa totoo lang hindi lang iyon ang sasabihin ko sa kanya. I made my decision last night. 

"WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE?!" He suddenly shouted that even made me flinch.

I tightly closed my eyes and sighed. "Shawn... uuwi nalang ako sa 'min." I nervously said. He stood up and blankly stared at me. Kaya napaatras ako. "M-maghiwalay nalang tayo. Meron namang annulment ‘di ba? You-you deserve someone better." I said while looking down.

A tear from my left eye fell. It hurts me to let him go. But it's harder to hold onto something breaking.

He laughed like a demon and it made me look at him. "Sa tingin mo ba gusto kong makasama ka pa?" He mockingly asked. "The moment I saw you dancing on that stage, I already cut every connection that I have on you. And I know you're aware that I made a promise to dad. I promised dad I'll only marry once. Because that is what he wants and did despite all the pain mom cost."

"But, he'll understand you I know." 

He smirked. "I already tried convincing dad for how many times, but I can't. He said you're still my wife. Don't you know that dad still loves my mom? It's because for our family, a wife is still a wife."

"Per-"

"’Wag kang maarte. I'm doing this for my father's wants."

Hindi ko na napigilan ang paghikbi ko. Ayoko na talaga. "Nahihirapan na kasi ako Shawn." I said while looking down. "It's hard to believe that the one who made me feel special before makes me feel unwanted right now."

"It's also hard to believe that the angel I loved before became an unwanted whore." He coldly said. I stared at him and sobbed. It's really hard to hear those words from him. "It's even. So stop your drama and buy groceries." He again said before throwing cashes on my face.

Agad naman akong yumuko para pulutin ang mga 'yon. "Good bye Shawn." I said before leaving. I hurriedly went out of the house and rode a cab.

My good bye, it has a double meaning. He gave me nine thousand pesos. I do not know if he is aware. And I guess, it's enough for me to go far from everyone and find a job to start a new life.

It's better. I made my decision and it's final. Hindi ko na kayang magmahal ng hindi minamahal. Nakakasawa na ring masaktan.

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"Ma'am, ano'ng nangyayari?" Tanong ko sa babaeng nakatabi ko sa bus. 

I rode a bus to Tuguegarao City. My best friend's living there. We separated when their family decided to live there and good thing she gave me their address.

"May check point anak." Sagot naman niya.

Tumango nalang ako at hinintay ang susunod na mangyayari. Hindi pa kami nakakalayo ng Manila ah.

"Pasensya na po sa abala." Agad akong napatingin sa sundalo na nagsalita mula sa harap. "Nandito po ba si Mrs. Sophia Stevens?" Tanong niya na nagpakaba ng dibdib ko.

Hindi ako nagsalita at akala ko hindi niya malalaman. Pero hindi ko alam na may picture pala siyang dala kaya itinuro ako ng isang lalake sa harap. 

I stood up while my hands are trembling. "Bakit po?" Kinabahan kong tanong.

May isinenyas siya sa isang sundalo at parang may tinawag ito sa labas. And my heart almost stopped beating when he slowly entered the bus and furiously looked at me.

"We're going home Sophia." He calmly said.

Tears filled my eyes but I prevented them from falling. Dahan dahan akong lumapit sa kanya. He held my fist gently at first but he tightened it while dragging me into his car. 

"You stay there." He firmly said.

Sunod sunod ang pagtango ko. Narinig kong nagpasalamat siya sa isang sundalo bago pumasok sa sasakyan.

Agad na tumulo yung mga luha ko. Hindi ko naisip na mahahanap niya ‘ko agad. God.

"I'm sorry Shawn..." I looked at him and found him gripping the steering wheel.

"Wala ka talagang kahihiyan. You're testing my patience and pushing my limits. Ready yourself for visiting hell."

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