I woke up with Nikolai deeply etched in my mind. That is putting it lightly since I didn't get a lot of sleep, and he was always on my mind. Ever since I saw him. Maybe sometimes a little less than other times when he filled right before my eyes, and I could do nothing about it.
I sighed, turning slowly towards the window. Would it be wrong to check on him? Would it be too much? I don't think I have ever cared for Matthew this way. This much. I have tried, but it could never come as naturally.
I slowly got out of bed, then started to walk towards the drapes when a knock came on the door. I stopped and turned to it, and my lips sucked between my teeth. I didn't think I had the strength to face anyone right now.
"Iris, open up."
I swallowed, then walked to the door and opened it. My mum
